I was wondering what you guys think abou the idea of using MXE for depression? I was thinking of taking 20-30mg 3 times a week instead of an ssri. I won't be using any other drugs. Has anyone tried a dosing regimen like this? I used to use recreationally for about 5 months peaking at a gram a week and it ended in a lot of bad things happening. The last few months I've been completely sober but quite depressed (which I've been dealing with for a long time but since I quit smoking week daily and dabbling in other drugs I really notice it). Basically I love the way mxe made me feel positive and at ease but I did it so much that effect turned into mania and I began having delusions and acting odd. I really dislike my emotional state even tho objectively my life is quite good, I don't want to be on an ssri. Am I just grasping at straws or is there something to this idea? I basically want to keep a very slight afterglow feeling all the time, not going over 100mg a week. Is it possible tolerance won't build up at this dosage?