That could make sense.
It seems like any drug I take right now has more profound effects than usual..
I'm still smoking a bit of weed here and there but much more cautiously and just a hit at a time or so.
If I take too much I cross a "threshold" and start having the attacks.
I can feel myself go over the line. It's fuckin' weird. :/
Shit inside me isn't normal no mo.
My current strain stash is Lemon Thai Mids. I reduced a bit from the super heady OG.
I took a temazepam last night and it didn't knock me out at all. It did prevent any attacks tho.
I took a Xanax one time and that thing made me hit the sack right quick.
so that's good to know. I'm on a lighter benzo. It does help me sleep too, I did tell them I was only sleeping 4 of 8 hours per night lately.
The weed is actually somewhat medical for me. I use it in the mornings for upset stomach. In the evening for appetite suppression sometimes or after meals to calm my stomach. I only need a rip or two right now as opposed to being able to choke down three bowls in a sitting before.
Yes, I realize the weed may not enter the blood through the kidneys but rather the lungs, or whatever.
Hopefully I can heal. When I see the doctor again finally, the head honcho, I'm hoping for somewhat good news, but It likely won't turn out that way. I'm sure I went and messed myself up at least a little bit, with how much crap I stuffed in me within a 6-7-8month time.
Haven't exactly been feeling as good as normal since the last two major episodes that sent me to the hospital. Kinda burned out on all this and not feeling well. I have to go turn in insurance papers on Monday and cross my fingers they accept me. Otherwise I'm sure I'll end up shelling out lots more $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$.
Stoopid evil dollars.
Reading back,
I see a missed this question partially.
Maybe it is from dehydration? What amounts were you taking it in? ROA? Details so the tragedy doesn't repeat please!
I covered the water for sure. I drink like a fish all day long. Hydration is important to me.
I stopped drinking soda recently.
I was buying my MXE by the half gram to gram size bag at a time.
I had about 10 baggies of varying amounts between these limits.
One time I had a two gram bag.
I went a bit overboard with the two gram bag and had a couple overdoses.
eyeballs bugging out of head and such, rolling around on the floor screaming for help swearing I was gonna die.
I let this happen more than one time, thinking they were just bad trips or something.
It's not JUST a bad trip. It's an overdose coupled with a panic attack. And likely taxing the kidneys too. Don't look past these "bad trips" and keep slagging back the powders. you need to start paying attention if anything like that happens.
My frequency WAS about once a week I would binge for a weekend.
Sometimes I would hold off for two weeks, or maybe three weeks, before I would binge for the weekend.
... then the use got worse. More frequent. If I had it, couldn't stop myself from doing another line. In the morning, in the evening, while heading out. While DJing parties.
It became so bad I had to switch out of DJing the party and sideline for the night.
I was becoming a bad addict and didn't realize it. I was having episodes and I took bad advice and coupled with my own decisions, I ignored the signs.
Here I am.
doseage, I took over 200mg's a night at some points.
this was back when the chemical was still waaaaay powerful.
Stuff I had later on wasn't half as potent.
PS..
I don't smoke cigarettes or drink any alcohol.
The doctors kept asking me what was the pain on a level of 1-10 at the maximum height of my trouble. I said about a 5. That was from the chest pains, when they were present... apparently from the death anxiety attacks. I still think it could be internal injuries though. I still get daily pains. Weather or not the attacks are occurring.
It's rather unsettling, but the doctors promise me I'm not dying so I'm trying to ignore the attacks and the pain and heal up while seeing all the doctors I can. I'm not taking any other medications for pain or anything like that. Just the benzos for the attacks and weed here and there, cautiously. I told the doctors I have a medical marijuana card and they added it to my medication sheet without saying anything.
they told me to stop using MXE and BAth salts.
Perhaps I'll post some media later, so you guys know I'm not full of shyt.
It's nice to back stuff up with proof, where possible..
I believe when you go in to the ER saying you consumed unknown powders that possibly have done other weird things to the general public and recently been int he news, you get some odd looks and reactions, and possibly reduced medical care. People are scared of "Bath salts guy in room 2" even if you're one of the nicest last finishing dudes on the planet.
Some thoughts from my shower just now...lol!...
s far as the bath salts frequency ( I went over the MXE use already)..
I was using "cocaine-like" bath salts about every day or every other day.
For about a month to a month and a half.
This was after I decided to stop MXE because I felt it was killing me. (It was)
The bath salts were just as bad, and I started to get the same attacks on the bath salts that I was getting on the MXE.
I'm warning you guys, but I'm not saying don't do MXE.
I'm saying, get there for a weekend and put it away for a year. Then get it back out again. lol
Don't sit there on it for weekends and turn it into weeks and months. You'll fuck up.
There was a reason I Was flushing my MXE. The people here telling me I Was nuts for doing that and I was just having a bad trip etc don't know what they are talking about.
continuing MXE use when you have those trips is a very bad idea.