I hope I won't be judged I feel so selfish right now. I just signed up and yes the 500mg bag was infront of me. I have alcohol induced pancrititus and have been an addict for a long time (I am in my 20s and have been told I can never drink again), I flushed all my drugs down the toilet, 2c-b, 2c-e. 2c-p, ketamine, 4-FA, many other things. I recently tried coke, meth, codeine, ordered a 80mg Oxy pill (flushed after realising it was such a huge dose), all my weed binned. All I have left is my benzos which I am almost weaned off after a huge Etizolam and Xanax dose while taking huge amounts of alcohol daily, cut down to a 2, 1, 2 Diazepam dose with a very decent doctor but now I just see myself plumiting into Xanax and alcohol usage since easter. I won't whine about my issues since everyone has them but I just feel no escape and wanted an easy way out just now, sorry for being so selfish, jesus.
I really am sorry, you could have been helping someone else, so so so sorry.
I really want to share my experiences now if you can forgive me, as I drink this white wine... I really hope I won't be judged too much, yes I went a little crazy just now.
Had insane sleep paralysis last night I feel exhausted, trying to run a business... oh forget all that... just thank you for the fast responces.
I will share some expericnes here from now on... if that's ok?
Almost died from severe acute pancritius last year which ended up with me in a foregin country in ICU for 3 weeks which I still cannot get over, why can I not drink in my 20s with friends.... I sound like a whining bitch but the culture in UK for example... all my circle of friends... all alcohol related. I sound like a bitch.
Sorry guys for being so selfish
much love