Yh, or they reroute through secondary veins that become overloaded and liable to pop as soon as a syringe goes anywhere near them.
Its surreal to go from a reality where I suspected my days of using this drug via this ROA were numbered, to knowing that they are over.
Since Thursday and for the first time in years I have developed an active disinclination to use and following my usual w/e routine of weed and home cinema have to make an effort now, one that is not impossible but that still results in personal failure 25% of the time, to put the remainder of the weed away, which if retained in the stash tin until next Friday afternoon will be more that enough for next Sat and Sun and which will have the most positive effect on my mood if given a rest for a few days. So, with the cycle of getting stoned to break and a pretty miserable place to break out of following the self induced drug related injury I took advantage of a brief geographical convenience to cop a couple of bits at 8.54am this morning.
Being an irrational addict this is not the most surprising decision but knowing that all of this is now over, I had to just push the boat out a little more and see if I will even have the chance to say farewell. With 3 items available as the standard deal, I got 2 bags and a piece of cocaine, all of which unsurprisingly lovely and more-ish. Never the less, having now proved to myself that I may be able to squeeze one more shot in I will save that option for Christmas, which will either leave me dead or, preferably, having the best and most motivated new year commitment I have been able to muster in a long time.
Now if I can just hold onto the damn weed for the week I will be ahead of myself psychologically for perhaps the first time in my life (no lies left to even tell myself). I have plenty of diazepam and alprazolam stashed for over the holiday and have clonazepam tablets of both UK doses coming out of my ass and in case I do start to crave the poppies even a little there is a strip of 100mg morphine xr caps. for good measure.