@g_chem - that's so weird how people can be compatible with the spirit of different substances. Or chemical profile, if the word spirit offends. There have been a couple very very weird ketamine trips for me but they were my first trips when I wasn't experienced with the headspace. Once I learned what ketamine land was all about the trips got so much more amazing.
My first ketamine trip I was high on LSD and it was fucking amazing. It felt like ice coming into my system. it was just such an amazing trip I'm so glad to have had it. had a couple weird trips after that when I tried to k-hole but didn't really get all the way there, just got into some weird infinity space.
My best K trip was while on the LTC, about 6 months into the LTC (and still in a very depressed/anxious shadow state of being) I got my hands on some good ket and blasted off. I was tripping alone at night in the dark and everything just went very well. I felt some infinity spaces (grey/blue as far as the eye can see, no form, no body of my own, just a unity experience), then later on went through some kind of aztec sewers pyramid thing, and finally when I was peaking I was completely locked into the hallucionation (forgot who I was, thought I was one of infinite selves and trapped in a frozen posture). it was so amazing though. I almost got freaked out but I was just like "well, if I'm trapped here for eternity then I'm gonna go to sleep" and as I began to lower my consciousness I came out of that space and started to drift back towards my body.
I'm looking forward to learning with DMT but I need to get a lot of things ready before then. I have one trip friend who is really warm and friendly and I think might be a good person to trip with but basically I just dont feel the urge so I'm saving my work with DMT for a later time in my life when things are better.
As for salvia, when I've strengthened my mind and consciousness I may venture back into salvia land a time or two. I learned so much about consciousness and reality (multiple realities is more like it) when I did salvia that IMO its worth a closer examination. Also I think I'll just grow my own plant and eat it the indigenous way instead of smoking extract like I did before. My salvia trip basically launched me to the edge of the universe and then showed me a lot of typical salvia things like he book of life and the chain of existence. book of life is where you see alternate realities very close to yours (it was like seeing a matrix of 1000x1000 tv's and on each TV there was a me but it was doing something a little different. the ones closest to my reality was like me on the other side of the room, me with my hands on my head, etc. small variations. the ones far away from me was like me with a more skinny or muscular build). the chain of existence was like seeing two infinite beings and they were both smashing into each other making this infinitely long chain. when i looked closer at the chain it was the book of life, cept it had every single thing in it. past, present, future, parallel realities, and it had them for every being in existence. some might call it the akashic records.
the shittier parts of salvia are like being pushed into a machine or being pulled somewhere at the speed of light. feels absolutely horrible. its like that every time i have a change of hallucinations on salvia. while checking out a scene its nice, but as soon as the scene changes its like im being sucked into a book or machine or something and its uncomfortable and alarming as fuck.
also the complete lack of positive feelings on salvia makes it a brutal teacher. its clear to me that salvia is all about learning and not about feeling good or getting high in a recreational way.
also I hate when you merge with something else on salvia. I had this green couch and I remember merging with it. thinking that I was a couch and it just felt so fucking awful. Just to be a stationary thing, and a lowly piece of furniture. eugh. so fucking eugh. I also had the misfortune of looking at a log in the fireplace while tripping and became the log too. so fucking eugh.
since then I've learned how to do the same thing through meditation (concentrating on an object until there is no more i-object relationship, to the point that you become the object) and it's clear that the reality of a couch, a log, of anything is always bliss. Its the reality of salvia that's the eugh and thats why any identity merging on salvia is bound to create that eugh feeling alongside any merger of identity. It also took me a long time to want to merge with anything because of that negative salvia experience of merging. At the same time, the salvia trip showed me that I could merge with other things. thats salvia for you, teaches you amazing things but at a heavy price.