crOOk
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Okay, I'm not sure if going into the details will help. Most would probably look at me as a nut case. I'm not even sure what just happened.
I have desperately been trying to reach a breakthrough going through half a gram of DMT and never quite getting there for about 90 minutes.
While holding my smoking device, without having my lighter lit at the time, a huge (3''?) flame shot out of the front of the device. The flame shouldn't have been there without me lighting at that very second and I had no chance to inhale the smoke either, in fact I burnt myself and had to drop my smoking device immediately. That very second the trip started. I had not inhaled the smoke though. Once I have gathered myself and have some distance to the experience I will try to reconsider what happened. This just does not agree to anything I've learnt about reality.
I consider myself a man of science. I have had hundreds of psychedelic experiences and countless dmt trips. I've never seen anything like this happen before. I will have to reconsider everything I assumed to be true about DMT.
This will sound really fucking ridiculous... I have to make sense of it somehow though. I always thought DMT elves were just some weird construct made up by our minds, an attempt to understand the experience with the little means we have. I never thought of these elves as actual entities, let alone entities that could enter our world. This elf though, he torched my dmt and sent me to hyperspace without delay, not even a second.
What the fuck, this is just absurd. It cannot be. I feel at peace. I have had no history of delusions or hallucinations. Nothing seems to have changed about me. I know this won't mean shit to most, just some psycho-babble by a random internet whacko.
What I would like to know though is: Has anyone ever experienced anything like this? I remember McKenna talked about a trip where someone knocked onto his door with force which resulted in him being ripped out of the hyperspace back into our realm. He claimed the elves remained in his room though, crawling and dancing around, hanging from the walls, climbing onto him. I always thought of McKenna as a whacko anyway, but the more I learn about dmt and it's physiological effects, the more I have to agree to everything he said.
I'm really trying to hold onto science, I do. I'm trying to hold onto our shared reality, but this experience just does not agree to it.
I have been surprised so many times by this substance. In my wildest imaginations I would not dare to think of things like this happening, yet the experience is undeniable. Our world really is full of magic.
I really am aware that this would be considered a delusional state. Maybe it just is.
I have desperately been trying to reach a breakthrough going through half a gram of DMT and never quite getting there for about 90 minutes.
While holding my smoking device, without having my lighter lit at the time, a huge (3''?) flame shot out of the front of the device. The flame shouldn't have been there without me lighting at that very second and I had no chance to inhale the smoke either, in fact I burnt myself and had to drop my smoking device immediately. That very second the trip started. I had not inhaled the smoke though. Once I have gathered myself and have some distance to the experience I will try to reconsider what happened. This just does not agree to anything I've learnt about reality.
I consider myself a man of science. I have had hundreds of psychedelic experiences and countless dmt trips. I've never seen anything like this happen before. I will have to reconsider everything I assumed to be true about DMT.
This will sound really fucking ridiculous... I have to make sense of it somehow though. I always thought DMT elves were just some weird construct made up by our minds, an attempt to understand the experience with the little means we have. I never thought of these elves as actual entities, let alone entities that could enter our world. This elf though, he torched my dmt and sent me to hyperspace without delay, not even a second.
What the fuck, this is just absurd. It cannot be. I feel at peace. I have had no history of delusions or hallucinations. Nothing seems to have changed about me. I know this won't mean shit to most, just some psycho-babble by a random internet whacko.
What I would like to know though is: Has anyone ever experienced anything like this? I remember McKenna talked about a trip where someone knocked onto his door with force which resulted in him being ripped out of the hyperspace back into our realm. He claimed the elves remained in his room though, crawling and dancing around, hanging from the walls, climbing onto him. I always thought of McKenna as a whacko anyway, but the more I learn about dmt and it's physiological effects, the more I have to agree to everything he said.
I'm really trying to hold onto science, I do. I'm trying to hold onto our shared reality, but this experience just does not agree to it.
I have been surprised so many times by this substance. In my wildest imaginations I would not dare to think of things like this happening, yet the experience is undeniable. Our world really is full of magic.
I really am aware that this would be considered a delusional state. Maybe it just is.
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