How did you discover that you were trans?
Started out feeling I was bisexual at an early age, but pretty much went into being straight when I actually sought out sex. After spending time discovering that being this way didn't make me happy, I figured I was gay and transformed myself and had my first sexual encounter with a man. Later, I would progress from very masculine to increasingly feminine, then realize I really like the idea of drag and soon it lead to me experimenting with it more-and-more until I went back-and-forth between masculine and feminine, during this process moving from being gay to bisexual, to finally pansexual (which I realized I always was), along with settling for being a "chick with a dick"... that is, feminine cute body and appearance with a huge cock... although some days I'm very submissive and feminine and cute, usually reality has me sometimes still be more masculine and businesslike than I would like to, although I am learning it is ok to just be however now, I'm most happy when I'm ditsy, friendly, and gurly.
Did you know you are bisexual before you transitioned or even thought about transitioning? Are you transgender, or a transvestite?
Transgender. Got implants but keeping my cock, I'm sort of "Third Gender". Found out I was bi first, then realized I was pansexual, was in denial about it for a long time, trying to be "straight" or "gay".
What is the whole PNP scene like? One huge orgy that lasts for days, or weeks until the drugs run out? I've never used meth or had sex while on other drugs besides alcohol which I only did a few times and did not enjoy.
It varies heavily depending on the experience or willpower people have that participate. Usually it means some tweakers awkwardly browsing through porn looking for that perfect scene for hours, casually playing with themselves in the fucked up way that meth can make you operate, like a robot repeating the same task over and over, until some shit breaks them out of it, they usually then do something else, or just fondle each other in this same robotic fashion. Also add people getting paranoid and looking out the eyehole at the hotel room throughout this experience, then leaving to "buy smokes" and never coming back.
Now if they are adept and willing at this, it is more like really awesome, fantasy-reality porn scenes come true, like orgies that last hours, sex sessions that take breaks to toke, chill, and continue for days, out in the woods, deepest fetishes and fantasies explored, etc. Basically if it is just a few tweakers that casually lead into sex, usually it is an awkward experience, but if people go into it expecting this, it becomes amazing. Sex really needs to be on everyone's mind before getting high, because it changes the effect drastically. Getting high is not just a chemical reaction, it is also a very much cognitive-driven force that can be altered based on mindset, as they say, "Set and Setting".
Personally each drug has varying sexual potential, in my opinion. Cocaine is by far my favorite drug for getting penetrated, as the anesthetic element of it numbs the anus down enough that getting penetrated isn't as overwhelming, and also adds a nice euphoria for having the confidence to say things you want to say like "oh yeah harder you dirty pig" or "yeah use me like the cheap whore I am", etc, whereas without drugs, you might just moan softly and be embarrassed. Cocaine though is usually terrible for penetrating, as it leads to not being able to cum or get erect as easily.
GHB is probably the best type of drug for penetrating or topping, as it really loosens someone up to get a real massive hardon and the confidence to really be more aggressive, but meth is still the prime choice for fucking if you are able to direct it properly. Meth interestingly enough at moderate to high doses, does not cause you to not be able to cum or get erect, in fact, it can often lead to raging erections like viagra that are difficult to put down, and cumming on meth is mind-blowing, cumming on meth getting fucked is way too much stimulation, there's literally too much pleasure for me, but for topping, it is perfect.
Actually a lot of erectile dysfunction and difficulties orgasming are 100% psychological, even though drugs are often blamed with bullshit words like "vasoconstrictor". The reality is most people are sexually repressed and are too afraid to perform properly. Drugs just reinforce this fear if you channel it, but if you get comfortable, they certainly enhance it. I've also had really bizarre contradictory reports and personal experiences... MDMA leading to the inability to get hard for one person, lead to another being unable to get soft, one wants to just cuddle on it, the other wants to fuck like dogs in heat.
LSD, weed, Zinc, Copper, Iron, and Kava Kava was probably the most intense combo though that I had... lead to insane closed-eye visuals, saw actual porn of fairies getting fucked and stuff, and saw it on the walls, in 3D space, incredible, but it takes a certain level of discipline to be able to muster hallucinogens sexually, you gotta get very comfortable with sexuality first, otherwise they will ruin it, but if you do, man the sex is literally out of this world!
So anyway the PNP scene involving me is either meeting others who know how it works, discussing what you are both into, and going at it like we are installing a new internet connection, otherwise, it is someone new, and I teach them the ropes (which is always nice, really people love having a warm teacher, there's not a lot of good sexual teachers out there). If I am bringing someone new into it, I literally play doctor and ask if they have any health problems, taking medications, etc, before giving drugs, and I monitor the dosages so they have just a great time (too easy for newcomers to want to overindulge and panic).
Usually I like to chill with someone and like go walking outside, listen to some music and have an open-hearted conversation so they feel at home, then bring sex on. Cuts the nervousness out of it and leads to friendships, not just "wham, bam, thank you mam" (which gets REALLY cold and empty fast!).
I know gay men who did PNP but they only did this with their partner who got them into parTying, would have sex in public places at night, and some said how when they used meth alone it just made them insanely horny and they would stay up for days and masturbate or take off their clothing in public if they were into exhibitionism. Others told me how they got into being gang banged by lots of men and got into fisting.
Yeah it opens doors and adds a lot of pleasure if done well.
Have you ever done fisting at all? Or had multiple women or men fist you?
Strangely, I haven't. To me it is just too much stretching, taken a horse-cock dildo that was 14" inches long and thick like a baseball bat, which is close, but I try to avoid these types of penetrations as it leads to problems if not careful, got a hemmorhoid or abcess once which made me incapacitated for like a month, horrible pain and experience, later learned that it is extremely important to keep your hole clean (not with just toilet paper, baby wipes with ALOE + Vitamin E are the best), use lots of lube, but also put moisturize in your ass AFTER sex (really prevents this problem 100%, haven't had it since), and finally, lots of fibre and squatting over toilet instead of sitting for a long time (quicker the better).
You'd be amazed though how many guys just try to shove it in without lube or condoms, so reckless and stupid. Then it hurts and people stop bottoming. You need lots of lube, go in real slow (till it stretches), then pound away.
What's the craziest thing you ever did sexually? Is there anything you simply will not do?
Easily the animal encounter. Won't do children, although teenagers of questionable legal age I think I might have already (but don't really have the same moral outrage people do, to me teenagers are usually the most sexually-charged people around, a real crime to deny them this, IMO, but as a young adult it is different, still, there's an obvious time when someone stops being a kid and is eager and exploring as a teenager to young adult, you just know, I guess that's why the age of consent is 14 to 18 depending on countries, I personally think 13 is the minimum age someone is ready for sex on a physical level, for some they aren't physically ready till 18, but usually around 16, as for mentally, I'd say some are ready at 14, others 24, usually around 16 though, I'd say it should be 16 for age of consent, but it really seriously varies, I've seen people who I thought were 25 by the way they acted who were 15, and others who are 28 and appear as 17, everyone is vastly different, and many people are like 40, 50, or 60, and are super sexually/mentally immature, it really is a case-by-case basis...)
Have also done public sex, BDSM (candlewax, whipping, ruined/teasing orgasms, rough oral/anal/vaginal fucking/facesitting, spanking, tied-up, verbal abuse, etc), sex with a really old guy in his 70s (also jerked off for an old lady who smoked some weed from a pipe with two friends, really fucked up situation, jerking off for grandma and friends to watch, but they really enjoyed it and you realize that once again, age is just a number and ageism is worse than racism or sexism in how it is accepted), been filmed, pissed on and pissed on others.
I also won't touch scat, vomit, corpses, insects, any kind of gore or violence that's not like minor stuff that heals fast. Also wouldn't outright rape anyone, although have been in forced sex that was asked for and seemed like rape, but was just an act like BDSM (with a safeword, you can arrange it, seen a girl go for a walk at night in the woods in bra and thong, to have a group of masked guys she doesn't know jump out at her and grab her, forcing her down and rough fucking her and all cumming all or in her and leaving her tied up for the night, only one of the guys she knew, the rest were strangers, strange how many women have this rape fetish and is indeed the first time they have ever orgasmed before, my theory is that just like in the wild, there's something animalistic that unleashes in a woman's brain as they are chased down, forced, fucked, and they can finally submit, letting go of all guilt or shame or fear, totally able to enjoy it)...
So I am ethical and love everyone, never would want to hurt people.
