Shadowboxxin
Greenlighter
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- Jun 14, 2015
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This is really eating me up inside, any advice/comments/suggestions/comfort is welcome. Thank you in advance.
I've been dating this girl for about 2 months now. She moved here to start work at my place of employment. We have all the same friends and we hang out together all the time. She is beautiful, funny, and charming; I liked her instantly. The crazy thing is, she made the first move on me when we were out about 3 weeks after I met her. We didn't have sex right away but we have been for the past month. I have really started to like her, but it seems that some lapse in discipline has possibly put a future with her in jeopardy.
So last Saturday a group of a bunch of my friends and people that I work with all went out on a party barge on the lake for the day. There was a lot of drinking to say the least. I ended up getting blackout drunk on accident and made a fool of myself in front of her. Most people make poor decisions when they are blackout but mine are the worst, about 3 or 4 of them have been some of the worst days/nights of my life. I told myself before I even started drinking that I was going to stick to beer so this didn't happen, was not the case. The girl in question and her roommate both pressured me to take shots with them and I was reluctant at first but eventually gave in. That was the last memory I had that day.
I woke up on my buddy's couch at 4 AM the next day, I had passed out around 8PM from all my drinking and the sun. I tried calling her when I woke up to try and set up a date for that night (we always watch Game of Thrones on Sundays and she is excited as **** always for this.) She said she had other things going on, same thing happened the next night. This is where I knew I had done something wrong.
That week at work she was still really nice to me and would talk to me but the great connection we had was clearly gone. Instead of confronting her about it I just kept trying to talk to her and invite her to do things. We got a couple of beers on Wednesday and she came over to watch GoT the next night. After it was over, she gave me a hug and said she was going home (she used to always spend the night at my house.) The next day I took her out to lunch, mainly to talk about what was going on. This is where she finally told me what was up.
During the barge party, I ended up getting realllly touchy feely with people, including her roommate, and acting like a sleaze ball in front of everyone according to her. I didn't kiss or make out with anyone but it was enough to change her opinion of me. This is NOTHING like my normal personality. I am normally pretty reserved and never aggressive with women. Alcohol in large quantity can turn me into someone who i hate. I am so upset with myself that I can't eat.
She has since told me that she still likes me and cares about me but wants to take some steps back with me. She is not sure that she can trust me since what she saw. i understand where she is coming from but I know in my heart that I am a trustworthy and loyal person, I have never cheated on any of my girlfriends and have not been seeing anybody else since I started hooking up/dating her. When I asked her if I still had a chance, she replied "maybe sometime down the road, babe." "Time will tell."
And now I ask all of you beautiful souls, did I completely ruin my chances with her? What should I do if I want to get back with her? I am going to give her some space in the mean time but I need to formulate a game plan if I want to win her back. Thank you for reading me rambling alone in my room on this Saturday night.
I've been dating this girl for about 2 months now. She moved here to start work at my place of employment. We have all the same friends and we hang out together all the time. She is beautiful, funny, and charming; I liked her instantly. The crazy thing is, she made the first move on me when we were out about 3 weeks after I met her. We didn't have sex right away but we have been for the past month. I have really started to like her, but it seems that some lapse in discipline has possibly put a future with her in jeopardy.
So last Saturday a group of a bunch of my friends and people that I work with all went out on a party barge on the lake for the day. There was a lot of drinking to say the least. I ended up getting blackout drunk on accident and made a fool of myself in front of her. Most people make poor decisions when they are blackout but mine are the worst, about 3 or 4 of them have been some of the worst days/nights of my life. I told myself before I even started drinking that I was going to stick to beer so this didn't happen, was not the case. The girl in question and her roommate both pressured me to take shots with them and I was reluctant at first but eventually gave in. That was the last memory I had that day.
I woke up on my buddy's couch at 4 AM the next day, I had passed out around 8PM from all my drinking and the sun. I tried calling her when I woke up to try and set up a date for that night (we always watch Game of Thrones on Sundays and she is excited as **** always for this.) She said she had other things going on, same thing happened the next night. This is where I knew I had done something wrong.
That week at work she was still really nice to me and would talk to me but the great connection we had was clearly gone. Instead of confronting her about it I just kept trying to talk to her and invite her to do things. We got a couple of beers on Wednesday and she came over to watch GoT the next night. After it was over, she gave me a hug and said she was going home (she used to always spend the night at my house.) The next day I took her out to lunch, mainly to talk about what was going on. This is where she finally told me what was up.
During the barge party, I ended up getting realllly touchy feely with people, including her roommate, and acting like a sleaze ball in front of everyone according to her. I didn't kiss or make out with anyone but it was enough to change her opinion of me. This is NOTHING like my normal personality. I am normally pretty reserved and never aggressive with women. Alcohol in large quantity can turn me into someone who i hate. I am so upset with myself that I can't eat.
She has since told me that she still likes me and cares about me but wants to take some steps back with me. She is not sure that she can trust me since what she saw. i understand where she is coming from but I know in my heart that I am a trustworthy and loyal person, I have never cheated on any of my girlfriends and have not been seeing anybody else since I started hooking up/dating her. When I asked her if I still had a chance, she replied "maybe sometime down the road, babe." "Time will tell."
And now I ask all of you beautiful souls, did I completely ruin my chances with her? What should I do if I want to get back with her? I am going to give her some space in the mean time but I need to formulate a game plan if I want to win her back. Thank you for reading me rambling alone in my room on this Saturday night.