gaian planes:
my mother takes these things remarkably well.
the new information about magnesium deficiency effects, and now today i am learning about a class of disorders, a syndrome i guess, called dysautonomia, and in fact these stimulant drugs treat the symptoms but can also cause effects that worsen them.
i was talking to my mother about my excessive salivation symptoms and she said i started drooling abnormally early as an infant, normally drooling onset occurs with the development of saliva enzyme production and being ready to digest complex carbohydrates, and is caused by a problem with the enteric nervous system (part of the autonomic nervous system). the excessive sweating is called hyperhidrosis and is caused by a problem with the autonomic nervous system. i also, in the absence of stimulants frequently experience (this was a multi-event per day thing) orthostatic hypotension, and unco-ordination and loss of balance which is caused by a fault in the regulation of vasoconstriction, again, autonomic nervous system. also i get orthostatic hypertension from standing up for long periods, and also from sitting, resulting in some peculiar postures and changing position frequently. my pulse and blood pressure can rapidly change and i also sometimes get chills and tachycardia, i get bronchial asthma...
i haven't even listed all of the stuff i suffer from and a great deal of it is fixed or made worse with stimulants. for example both methylphenidate and to a lesser degree MDPV reduced my dystonia from rapid changes in head position for example checking behind for crossing roads on bicycles and so forth, all stimulants, in fact, eliminate my travel sickness, caffeine the least effectively. all stimulants improve my balance to some degree, and eliminate orthostatic hypotension. excessive afternoon drowsiness that is quite overwhelming at times forcing me to find a safe place to fall unconscious is eliminated by b vitamins and caffeine. i recently started doing exercise and in the stuff about POTS (postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome) and dysautonomia it said that getting fit was important for controlling symptoms and inactivity exacerbates the symptoms, which i have been finding for the last 2 years with the frequent experience of peripheral paresthesia in my arms and legs, which i have now correlated partially with dehydration and is exacerbated by some stimulants notably desoxypipradrol and methamphetamine (under the influence of which the effect was first noted, and was so painful that i became concerned and visited the ER who said there was nothing wrong with me HA!
i am now seeing this stimulant detox plan as a prime opportunity to get some hard data on my symptomology, of course fully useful data will require an extended abstinence and i will attempt to do this unless medical intervention becomes neccessary due to something or other. if i start getting daytime sleepiness again i will just go see a doctor about it instead. the motion sickness, i'm not taking any solanaceous drugs to reduce it, although i may reduce my intake of foods which i have found seem to increase this problem tomatoes, for one seem to cause it and cause also some mild histamine reactions. etc etc. i would like to get tested for orthostatic hypertension and tachycardia once the symptoms resume.
i'm hoping that supplementing my magnesium levels will help the smooth muscle relaxation rlated problems (cramps, tachycardia, bronchial asthma, etc), and continue with the b vitamins and vitamin c and increasing my fresh fruit intake especially fruit with lots of enzymes bananas pineapple papaya etc. i'm expecting that it may be a while once i start the detoxification before i can resume my exercise but it definitely has been helping. i stopped drinking alcohol recently also and i've not been smoking cigarettes since late december.
but anyway, to stay on topic in response to gaian planes, i have only once broken through on DMT and the experience was mostly memory blackout and what memories i have involved something very traumatic, i have been unable to smoke maidenii or longifolia based extracts due to their histamine content and 5-meo (both cause extremely unpleasant tachycardia and bronchoconstriction) until i performed extractions myself on acacia obtusifolia and produced a translucent crystalline product that was very easy to smoke at which point i ran out of supply and stopped my research, the tree is not available locally only further south and i have no transport and on top of that i'm serving the last two months of a probation period for getting caught during a police raid prompted by spiteful former associates and their friends after telling one of the more recent ones my intent to acquire meth and weed on a particular day, for an event i went out to sober (er, i mean drunk) and with no drugs in my possession, and when i realised that they were really cops and they really had a search warrant (they tried to get me to open the door without seeing the warrant, the cops here are cowboys) my heart sank and i realised that i was going to have to show them my collection highschool grade pyrex glassware, my 720mg of pseudoephedrine tablets and a jar of recovered red phosphorus i'd forgotten about (it had been about 5 months since my most recent synthesis attempt at the time) and a little tiny brass pipe i'd forgotten about that i had smoked some weed in.
anyways the point of that thread i think was to explain that i am in no position to be getting my hands on usable (for me) dmt and smoking it as the source is interstate and until the end of my probation i am not to leave the state, and certainly it would be fairly risky to attempt an extraction as well, not to mention that i don't have apparatus to shred the bark and my mother would not be happy about me working with naptha and chemicals and such and i don't intend to go anywhere near DMT until i have got a handle on this health issue, as, obviously, my tendency towards tachycardia and severe anxiety is sorted out (i'd rather not be preloading with drugs to treat this problem, eg ethanol or benzos).
in fact i am unable to work with any psychedelics since a nervous breakdown i had in 1998 while living in canberra, i get overwhelmed with extremely unpleasant and distracting sympathetic effects, strong anxiety, and the post-dosing beneficial effect that got me using psychedelics a lot now does not manifest and, basically, it's a waste of time and traumatic as well.
i am *the* elfspice of the compeat acacia extraction guide, by the way. technically under my local law writing and publishing that document was quite a severe crime, as information about drug production is illegal and of course i'd guess something about inciting criminal activity would be involved, possibly conspiracy also with the people who helped me redraft it to improve readability and so forth.
have a look at the document sometime if you like and see if you recognise the writing style...
(and yes, i was elfspice at the hive and dmt world also) i took this nick after reading QT's extraction guide referring to dmt as elfspice.
anyway, i am very excited (kinda perversely) about getting my medical conditions properly diagnosed and and hopefully this will lead to at the very least a proper and unequivocal recognition of my status as being disabled (in australia mental disabilities are mostly disregarded as being serious impediments to making a living, but physical ones are very much paid attention to), and perhaps to a more effective medication and treatment regime that actually makes my quality of life dramatically improved. it seems quite likely that a psychostimulant medication will be indicated, and possibly if i can improve my digestive function and get my nutrient absorption up to normal the problems preventing my using them will go away. i actually liked a tiny bit of ritalin's effects although not the rollercoaster plasma levels and i practically suffered every side effect listed, and maybe amphetamine would lose its severe tachicardia, bronchiconstriction, excessive blood pressure and pulse and moderate anxiety.
sorry for yet another gigantic rambling post but discovering dysautonomia today randomly while searching for information about hyperhidrosis and all the related diseases and symptoms associated with autonomic nervous system dysfunction and feeling quite certain that the general class of my primary nervous system problem falls mostly within this category is of course very exciting as many things i have suffered routinely for most of my life are now explicable and finally i know the most likely avenue to explore to get help in living with this, unfortunately lifelong disease. and it validates much of my thread of research into the nature of my illness that primarily was focused on drugs that affect catecholamines, as well as now having some clues about treatments for deficiencies caused by my disease and diet issues.
enough said! some time of action still remaining for the desoxypipradrol and much housework to complete before my ability to do the work disappears.
my mother takes these things remarkably well.
the new information about magnesium deficiency effects, and now today i am learning about a class of disorders, a syndrome i guess, called dysautonomia, and in fact these stimulant drugs treat the symptoms but can also cause effects that worsen them.
i was talking to my mother about my excessive salivation symptoms and she said i started drooling abnormally early as an infant, normally drooling onset occurs with the development of saliva enzyme production and being ready to digest complex carbohydrates, and is caused by a problem with the enteric nervous system (part of the autonomic nervous system). the excessive sweating is called hyperhidrosis and is caused by a problem with the autonomic nervous system. i also, in the absence of stimulants frequently experience (this was a multi-event per day thing) orthostatic hypotension, and unco-ordination and loss of balance which is caused by a fault in the regulation of vasoconstriction, again, autonomic nervous system. also i get orthostatic hypertension from standing up for long periods, and also from sitting, resulting in some peculiar postures and changing position frequently. my pulse and blood pressure can rapidly change and i also sometimes get chills and tachycardia, i get bronchial asthma...
i haven't even listed all of the stuff i suffer from and a great deal of it is fixed or made worse with stimulants. for example both methylphenidate and to a lesser degree MDPV reduced my dystonia from rapid changes in head position for example checking behind for crossing roads on bicycles and so forth, all stimulants, in fact, eliminate my travel sickness, caffeine the least effectively. all stimulants improve my balance to some degree, and eliminate orthostatic hypotension. excessive afternoon drowsiness that is quite overwhelming at times forcing me to find a safe place to fall unconscious is eliminated by b vitamins and caffeine. i recently started doing exercise and in the stuff about POTS (postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome) and dysautonomia it said that getting fit was important for controlling symptoms and inactivity exacerbates the symptoms, which i have been finding for the last 2 years with the frequent experience of peripheral paresthesia in my arms and legs, which i have now correlated partially with dehydration and is exacerbated by some stimulants notably desoxypipradrol and methamphetamine (under the influence of which the effect was first noted, and was so painful that i became concerned and visited the ER who said there was nothing wrong with me HA!
i am now seeing this stimulant detox plan as a prime opportunity to get some hard data on my symptomology, of course fully useful data will require an extended abstinence and i will attempt to do this unless medical intervention becomes neccessary due to something or other. if i start getting daytime sleepiness again i will just go see a doctor about it instead. the motion sickness, i'm not taking any solanaceous drugs to reduce it, although i may reduce my intake of foods which i have found seem to increase this problem tomatoes, for one seem to cause it and cause also some mild histamine reactions. etc etc. i would like to get tested for orthostatic hypertension and tachycardia once the symptoms resume.
i'm hoping that supplementing my magnesium levels will help the smooth muscle relaxation rlated problems (cramps, tachycardia, bronchial asthma, etc), and continue with the b vitamins and vitamin c and increasing my fresh fruit intake especially fruit with lots of enzymes bananas pineapple papaya etc. i'm expecting that it may be a while once i start the detoxification before i can resume my exercise but it definitely has been helping. i stopped drinking alcohol recently also and i've not been smoking cigarettes since late december.
but anyway, to stay on topic in response to gaian planes, i have only once broken through on DMT and the experience was mostly memory blackout and what memories i have involved something very traumatic, i have been unable to smoke maidenii or longifolia based extracts due to their histamine content and 5-meo (both cause extremely unpleasant tachycardia and bronchoconstriction) until i performed extractions myself on acacia obtusifolia and produced a translucent crystalline product that was very easy to smoke at which point i ran out of supply and stopped my research, the tree is not available locally only further south and i have no transport and on top of that i'm serving the last two months of a probation period for getting caught during a police raid prompted by spiteful former associates and their friends after telling one of the more recent ones my intent to acquire meth and weed on a particular day, for an event i went out to sober (er, i mean drunk) and with no drugs in my possession, and when i realised that they were really cops and they really had a search warrant (they tried to get me to open the door without seeing the warrant, the cops here are cowboys) my heart sank and i realised that i was going to have to show them my collection highschool grade pyrex glassware, my 720mg of pseudoephedrine tablets and a jar of recovered red phosphorus i'd forgotten about (it had been about 5 months since my most recent synthesis attempt at the time) and a little tiny brass pipe i'd forgotten about that i had smoked some weed in.
anyways the point of that thread i think was to explain that i am in no position to be getting my hands on usable (for me) dmt and smoking it as the source is interstate and until the end of my probation i am not to leave the state, and certainly it would be fairly risky to attempt an extraction as well, not to mention that i don't have apparatus to shred the bark and my mother would not be happy about me working with naptha and chemicals and such and i don't intend to go anywhere near DMT until i have got a handle on this health issue, as, obviously, my tendency towards tachycardia and severe anxiety is sorted out (i'd rather not be preloading with drugs to treat this problem, eg ethanol or benzos).
in fact i am unable to work with any psychedelics since a nervous breakdown i had in 1998 while living in canberra, i get overwhelmed with extremely unpleasant and distracting sympathetic effects, strong anxiety, and the post-dosing beneficial effect that got me using psychedelics a lot now does not manifest and, basically, it's a waste of time and traumatic as well.
i am *the* elfspice of the compeat acacia extraction guide, by the way. technically under my local law writing and publishing that document was quite a severe crime, as information about drug production is illegal and of course i'd guess something about inciting criminal activity would be involved, possibly conspiracy also with the people who helped me redraft it to improve readability and so forth.
have a look at the document sometime if you like and see if you recognise the writing style...
(and yes, i was elfspice at the hive and dmt world also) i took this nick after reading QT's extraction guide referring to dmt as elfspice.
anyway, i am very excited (kinda perversely) about getting my medical conditions properly diagnosed and and hopefully this will lead to at the very least a proper and unequivocal recognition of my status as being disabled (in australia mental disabilities are mostly disregarded as being serious impediments to making a living, but physical ones are very much paid attention to), and perhaps to a more effective medication and treatment regime that actually makes my quality of life dramatically improved. it seems quite likely that a psychostimulant medication will be indicated, and possibly if i can improve my digestive function and get my nutrient absorption up to normal the problems preventing my using them will go away. i actually liked a tiny bit of ritalin's effects although not the rollercoaster plasma levels and i practically suffered every side effect listed, and maybe amphetamine would lose its severe tachicardia, bronchiconstriction, excessive blood pressure and pulse and moderate anxiety.
sorry for yet another gigantic rambling post but discovering dysautonomia today randomly while searching for information about hyperhidrosis and all the related diseases and symptoms associated with autonomic nervous system dysfunction and feeling quite certain that the general class of my primary nervous system problem falls mostly within this category is of course very exciting as many things i have suffered routinely for most of my life are now explicable and finally i know the most likely avenue to explore to get help in living with this, unfortunately lifelong disease. and it validates much of my thread of research into the nature of my illness that primarily was focused on drugs that affect catecholamines, as well as now having some clues about treatments for deficiencies caused by my disease and diet issues.
enough said! some time of action still remaining for the desoxypipradrol and much housework to complete before my ability to do the work disappears.
