i am proud of all of you. this is a tough journey and we are in it together. i can certainly relate to the mood swings. but yeah i think they do start to level out a bit over time as closeau said. i am still having them, but they aren't nearly as bad as when i first quit.
in terms of slipping up.. it happens. the important thing is yeah, to learn from it, but also to realize you are human and it's okay. and i gotta tell myself cause it's true, that no matter how many times i screw up in life (which is probably a good amount) i am only the stronger and wiser for it after each mistake. even though there are a lot of twists and turns it's good to remember we are never going backwards.
on that note, here's a wee something - my dad has written a couple of books on addiction, and one cool thing i remember learning in his most recent one is that recovering/recovered addicts have more 'efficient' or 'resilient' brains than people who have never gone through addiction. i'm sloppily paraphrasing here, but basically as we learn and grow we experience 'synaptic pruning' which is basically our brains trimming the fat, getting rid of the matter that does not serve you any longer. given everything we have been through, and that we are still standing, it makes perfect sense to me that we would be rather well oiled machines or at least on the road to becoming. just thought i would add that.
i am at five weeks sober and things are going a little bit better. love and happy holidays to everyone. it's very strangely misty and warm and snowless here.