lots of dramatic posts and info in here whew!
i woke up with the worst constipation issue ive ever had before today. its wierd tho... ive been constipated for much longer than this before. ive had pretty bad constipation before for a week or so (like only going once or twice in over a week's time) in the past too.
but anyways,,, this time it was the worst: I woke up with mild W/D's and eventually had to go crap. i start to go and realize its not gonna be easy.
For some reason, this time its like i have a rock at the tail end(or the head/beginning, however u think of it) of an akward shaped turd. no matter how hard i pushed there was no way it was gonna fit and come out. the chunk was ROCK hard and the area was just too dry, my butt hole was turning inside out and coming out of itself. talk about OMG! i couldnt even get it back up in there so i could relax either, that took a while. i had to just shove my fingers right in as hard as i could(ouch, honestly never had anything in it before ever either so... yeah, ouch) and break loose and shove around enough of the rock-turd to be able to crap a tiny pebble and have to give up for a while.
i ended up just freaking the hell out of course first of all. Then after i got a hold of my self a bit, i talked to a family member who said they would bring over some nice prunes for me. All the while i have a nice fat couple packs just itchin' for me to shoot up, which i know would make the pain go away. Problem is tho id never shit the rest of the day if i did it. soo... i just ended up waiting.
After a couple more hours waiting, eating raisan bran and a few prunes (yummy, yummy) I finally felt like i had to go again. after trying and pushing harder than anyone should ever safely do, and straining so hard that my throat began to bleed and blood vessels pop in my face, it still didnt come out. wow.
What helped me? I finally decided to try and shove my damn fingers up in there, which wasnt easy at all. thankfully that little time i gave myself to withdraw had made it easier to do just that. i managed to mess with the damn rock hard turd just enough to strain the big fukker out. talk about relief! then i had to shit again and went on to go whip up my shot i had waited to do. i even had to stop twice while mixing it up and shit again. ha!
Bottom line: Totally worth it to withdraw in order to have a bowl movement. I have a friend who refuses to do so, and/or just doesnt care/notice. I almost have to tell him not to sit in my car because he smells like shit so gawd awfully bad. we think he even threw up shit before. again... Totally worth it!!! to withdraw in order to finally shit i mean. whew!!