on 520ug and 300 mg mdma i was pretty far out there travelling the infinite cosmic fractal of pure love seeing straight through the matrix of the infinite void. Then i made the mistake and hit the bong which was 11 hours into the trip even with alot of experience it took all my will power to hold it together as reality morphed into another beast to deal with for 2 hours. The visuals on the combo didn't truly go away til i managed to go to sleep.
My last ever candyflip was in 2005, not sure of dosages. 6 Hoffman tabs which I estimate to be about 80 micrograms certainly no less, plus 5 very good pills, 150 mg I bet for sure.
The whole trip and experience was entirely and perfectly manageable although pretty out there but I did also take a fair amount of ketamine which I always did in those situations and although ketamine and acid can be a dangerous mix I think at the same time the whole dissociative anaesthetic aspect of it probably actually really helps with anxiety and not having any uncomfortable conscious thoughts or ever getting close to a bad trip once you are on a good or stable trip.
The experience did last quite a long time I would say a good 36 hours although I did continue to use ketamine and extremely strong cannabis at the time.
And I had absolutely no comedown at all which was nice and I distinctly remember feeling perfectly normal and content in a mental and emotional sense following this weekend. It was shortly after this that my lyme disease came out of nowhere and took over the show. Had that not happened I don't think there is any question I would have continued to consume vast amounts of MDMA and LSD and ketamine whenever I could and as much as money could buy.
In many senses a lot of benefits have come out of my illness not just the facts that I was forced to abandon obliterating my remaining brain cells, but much more so what I have learnt and discovered since then about all things in life and reality in this world especially when it comes to health and healing and diet and the abuse and attack that we are constantly under from the insane psychopathic elitists.
So much benefits has come from the road I was forced down and the Education I have picked up in the process especially my mum's health is 100 times better than it would have been had we not been woken up from the mainstream way of thinking and living and being educated.
So although it truly sucks to be so ill for so long and unable to live any sort of normal life at the same time I can't afford to have regrets and I am conscious and mindful of the undeniable and priceless benefits which have come from everything.