@Yeshuah: you feel bad every time you hear something bad about the poison, it's natural. really is one of the worse things to go through but it doesn't last forever. i wonder if you will reach a point where you hear something bad and nothing happens anymore? let me guess, your an empath? me too. let the reaction hit you, take a breath, try to find yourself in the moment and then proceed from there. a lot of us actually don't post. we type up a response and then not post it cause we re-read it and realize we are not being mindful of ourselves and other people. let the bad feeling hit you, accept it and then try to work past it. don't want your emotions and empathy to firitz out on you. if that doesn't work we'll try something else. sound good?
to answer your questions: no drugs or meds anymore. yes. about 6-8 hours which is typical for me during my symptom, without it happening i can sleep between 4-8 and be fine. 2 years ago, took a lot of work to get to that point but don't expect to take as long as me, hence the negative exception part. finally i do, i've been noticing that for a couple days now (i have the power! she-ra). oh ya, both today were just like pre-poison. we all are, it's part of why we call it a trial; we accept and endure to get healed and be us again. you will to, promise.
When you say that you WONDER if I reach the point where I don't react anymore about something bad about the poison, does it mean that I MAYBE never reach that point? And if so, will it be because I will be better or because I will get used to being caught into my own body?
Everytime I read someone's "success story" it sounds to me that there is always something in their words that make it seem like they are not really sure if they are recovered. They always say things like "I THINK that I'm KIND OF who I was before" or "I WOULD SAY that I'm recovered" or "It SEEMS that I've recovered"........No one could ever say something like "Hey guys, be sure that you will 100% recover, as I feel EXACTLY like who I was before, with my mind, body and soul. I can feel my emotions just like before, can think and be creative just like before and my organism reacts just like before, I can see clearly, my brain works 100% fine and fast and I feel comfortable within my body etc." I never heard something like that or is it me?
Is it just because of this state that I kind of like blank it out because of my fear and sorrows inside of me or are they really not sure? And what does it mean for them to be fine and be recovered, maybe it doesn't mean the same thing it means for me.. Because I want me back 100% I cannot even accept 99% because I was really confident. No one can guarantee that it will ever be 100%, can you?
Yes I'm normaly an empath.. And I wonder if I can ever feel empathic again..? Can I? Can you?
What does it mean for you to be yourself again? I mean after this horrible trial - as you name it - I should read posts like "hey guuuuuys! Oh my freaking god!! I swear to you I can finally freaking be mysellf agaiiiiiiin!!! It feeel so freaking greaaaaat!!!"
6-8 hours doesn't sound much for me... Do you feel rested after that? I mean really rested. Like stretching yourself in the morning with a huge wellness feeling and being happy for another day in your life? I normally slept like about 8-10 hours. Do you think I can reach that point again? Do you feel the chemicals of sleep producing in your brain before you fall asleep? Do you ever feel like really tired and enjoying crawling into bed?
What symptoms do you have?
Sorry for asking that much questions, but i need to be really sure. And I appreciate that you answer them. Thanks for being!