Hellohihey2
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- Jun 9, 2018
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Coming up on 11 months off. Life is pretty fucking blah man... i mean i look forward to a couple things, i shop for things (online), my anxiety about social gatherings or certain interactions is not as bad as it was but its still noticeable and it still makes me avoidant... sleep is kinda shitty but thats bc i stopped taking klonopin recently bc i was taking it daily this summer and dont want my body to get too used to it- ill prob start taking it again in a couple weeks.
My complaints tho are that i can never seem to enjoy watching a movie, bright lights linger in my vision for a couple of seconds (hard to describe but i saw complaints about it in the past on this thread), my eyes just look straight up vacant and only convey that im working on one level, like i convey no range of emotion... i urinate fairly frequently and have weird issues emptying my bladder and retaining fluids... whatever its all fucking annoying tho as u all know.
I take 2 epsom salt baths a day. I workout daily. I lay out in the sun daily. I take st johns wart, niacin, boron and tons of other suppliments. I drink eesiac tea and take micro/phyto nutrients and stuff. Taking fulvic acid also.
Dont get me wrong im in the final stretch of things. Id say 4 more months, 6 more till im fully healed.. smh at the fact that i thought 10 months id be recovered... things changed at 6-7 months. They werent to the point where i was still suicidal and tormented by the fucked up side effects of invega. By 9-10 months my appetite and ability to exercise at extended lengths of time came back. Now i can eat carbs and not gain weight like i used to. My skin has tightened up in the past 2 months. Alright so yea im done bitching and checking in. I saw theres new people- dont forget u literally cant think reasonably on invega. Only the past month or two was i able to think reasonably about my irrational thoughts. Like its not the end of the world, most of the damage is temporary. Dont flip out and freak out. Give urself 8 months. Then give urself another 2-3. By then youll be able to tolerate and assimilate back to who u once were. Theres hope just keep telling urself that as ur mantra in ur head. Suppliments help. Sun helps. Exercise helps. (Epsom salt) baths help. AND so do cold showers. The trick is find something to distract u while u whether this horrible withdrawal. For me it was CBD and listening to audiobooks at night, and during the day its exercise and sitting in the sun to break down the invega. The moment u find urself doing something small for ?enjoyment? is when u realize theres a light at the end of the tunnel: for example i now go on short walks with my dog, i also started going to starbucks to grab coffee, ans also buying clothes for myself even tho i still never leave the house (my anxiety socially speaking is not as bad as it was but in 4 months id be cool going to the grocery store and stuff) alright im annoying myself with this novel of a post so good luck ill check back in later.
My complaints tho are that i can never seem to enjoy watching a movie, bright lights linger in my vision for a couple of seconds (hard to describe but i saw complaints about it in the past on this thread), my eyes just look straight up vacant and only convey that im working on one level, like i convey no range of emotion... i urinate fairly frequently and have weird issues emptying my bladder and retaining fluids... whatever its all fucking annoying tho as u all know.
I take 2 epsom salt baths a day. I workout daily. I lay out in the sun daily. I take st johns wart, niacin, boron and tons of other suppliments. I drink eesiac tea and take micro/phyto nutrients and stuff. Taking fulvic acid also.
Dont get me wrong im in the final stretch of things. Id say 4 more months, 6 more till im fully healed.. smh at the fact that i thought 10 months id be recovered... things changed at 6-7 months. They werent to the point where i was still suicidal and tormented by the fucked up side effects of invega. By 9-10 months my appetite and ability to exercise at extended lengths of time came back. Now i can eat carbs and not gain weight like i used to. My skin has tightened up in the past 2 months. Alright so yea im done bitching and checking in. I saw theres new people- dont forget u literally cant think reasonably on invega. Only the past month or two was i able to think reasonably about my irrational thoughts. Like its not the end of the world, most of the damage is temporary. Dont flip out and freak out. Give urself 8 months. Then give urself another 2-3. By then youll be able to tolerate and assimilate back to who u once were. Theres hope just keep telling urself that as ur mantra in ur head. Suppliments help. Sun helps. Exercise helps. (Epsom salt) baths help. AND so do cold showers. The trick is find something to distract u while u whether this horrible withdrawal. For me it was CBD and listening to audiobooks at night, and during the day its exercise and sitting in the sun to break down the invega. The moment u find urself doing something small for ?enjoyment? is when u realize theres a light at the end of the tunnel: for example i now go on short walks with my dog, i also started going to starbucks to grab coffee, ans also buying clothes for myself even tho i still never leave the house (my anxiety socially speaking is not as bad as it was but in 4 months id be cool going to the grocery store and stuff) alright im annoying myself with this novel of a post so good luck ill check back in later.
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
. shadypenguin called it with the ?'s, it's a programming thing. they have a tough time trying to get all the electronic devices to sync up here (just like every where else you go) but i think they're doing a good job.