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Where to start, I'm addicted to painkillers due to chronic pain or daily pain that can make daily chores or living harder than it needs to be and at times even stops me from working all together (manual labor).
I have an old injury where i got shot and it basically messed up my whole left side of my pelvis and hip. I have daily pain in my leg and sometimes making it hard to walk. I have always been on opiate painkillers my whole life, anything from Morphine to Panado ( headache tabs that doesn't help jack obviously). So my whole life since my "accident" i have been on Morphine (inj and tablets), hydromorphone, pethidine, tramadol and codeine.
Due to financial restrains at times in life i used H for pain plus the euphoric and overall enjoyment of it and plus I use it with benzos and booze to numb me body, mind and soul.
But I'm fed up with this now.
I want to move over to just managing my pain and get back to living a healthy and maintainable lifestyle where I'm in control of what i need and want and not the other way around.
Now in the last few month i have been experimenting with certain meds and combo's to see what gives me the most relieve in a legal way and just to get away from H. So I'm not trying to stop my opiate use but rather cut out H completely and only use what im prescribed. And as for recreational times, well that will be far and in between as that is no longer a main concern of me.
So at the end of the day i want to be on my meds but stay away from H in general.
From my own research and experimenting with different compounds i think i will be able to come up with a regime that will work and that my doc can agree on and not cost me an arm or a leg. I don't have medical aid so all doctor appointments and meds prescribed I pat cash that can be costly but I will rather spend that money on a proper pain management program with my doc then wasting it on H ( though to me it was never a waste) but think you know what I'm saying
So far i have noticed that the following helps and in certain ways and certain times.
Gabapentin: pain - 3/10
Pregabalin: pain - 4/10
Tramadol: pain - 5/10
Codeine: pain - 2/10
Pethidine: pain - 6.5/10
Morphine inj: pain 9/10
Morphine tablets: pain 7/10
Hydromorphone ER: pain 8/10
Subutex: pain 3/10
Methadone: 6/10
So with all that said i will discuss this with my doc and look at options but till then I'm currently on this as i can only get an appointment friday.
An opiate
A Gabapentinoids
A benzo
Today i started with:
5mg valium
100mg tramadol
400mg gabapentin
1 joint
I will redose in say 3-4 hrs and gauge my pain from there.
I'm still in pain and its a 7/10 atm but will give it more time.
I know some think its stupid just going from H to another opiate but the reality is, I will always be on pain meds so i might as well do it now in a controlled environment and look after myself and only use them for pain and nothing else. I'm over the most part of always just getting high on my meds. Yes they work and take away pain to a certain degree but then i also use more then i should just to get some high with the relieve that isn't really needed
So Starting today I'm done with H. I will and want to get this H out of my life.
If this thread or Log gets the thumbs up, i would like to use it as a journal too. Keeping a diary of sorts of all daily experiences, diets, exercise and general life and how i feel and how I'm coping.
If there are anything I need to change or that's not right please let me know, as i want to start this journey and share it and also think that i will get some much needed motivation on hard days.
Where to start, I'm addicted to painkillers due to chronic pain or daily pain that can make daily chores or living harder than it needs to be and at times even stops me from working all together (manual labor).
I have an old injury where i got shot and it basically messed up my whole left side of my pelvis and hip. I have daily pain in my leg and sometimes making it hard to walk. I have always been on opiate painkillers my whole life, anything from Morphine to Panado ( headache tabs that doesn't help jack obviously). So my whole life since my "accident" i have been on Morphine (inj and tablets), hydromorphone, pethidine, tramadol and codeine.
Due to financial restrains at times in life i used H for pain plus the euphoric and overall enjoyment of it and plus I use it with benzos and booze to numb me body, mind and soul.
But I'm fed up with this now.
I want to move over to just managing my pain and get back to living a healthy and maintainable lifestyle where I'm in control of what i need and want and not the other way around.
Now in the last few month i have been experimenting with certain meds and combo's to see what gives me the most relieve in a legal way and just to get away from H. So I'm not trying to stop my opiate use but rather cut out H completely and only use what im prescribed. And as for recreational times, well that will be far and in between as that is no longer a main concern of me.
So at the end of the day i want to be on my meds but stay away from H in general.
From my own research and experimenting with different compounds i think i will be able to come up with a regime that will work and that my doc can agree on and not cost me an arm or a leg. I don't have medical aid so all doctor appointments and meds prescribed I pat cash that can be costly but I will rather spend that money on a proper pain management program with my doc then wasting it on H ( though to me it was never a waste) but think you know what I'm saying
So far i have noticed that the following helps and in certain ways and certain times.
Gabapentin: pain - 3/10
Pregabalin: pain - 4/10
Tramadol: pain - 5/10
Codeine: pain - 2/10
Pethidine: pain - 6.5/10
Morphine inj: pain 9/10
Morphine tablets: pain 7/10
Hydromorphone ER: pain 8/10
Subutex: pain 3/10
Methadone: 6/10
So with all that said i will discuss this with my doc and look at options but till then I'm currently on this as i can only get an appointment friday.
An opiate
A Gabapentinoids
A benzo
Today i started with:
5mg valium
100mg tramadol
400mg gabapentin
1 joint
I will redose in say 3-4 hrs and gauge my pain from there.
I'm still in pain and its a 7/10 atm but will give it more time.
I know some think its stupid just going from H to another opiate but the reality is, I will always be on pain meds so i might as well do it now in a controlled environment and look after myself and only use them for pain and nothing else. I'm over the most part of always just getting high on my meds. Yes they work and take away pain to a certain degree but then i also use more then i should just to get some high with the relieve that isn't really needed
So Starting today I'm done with H. I will and want to get this H out of my life.
If this thread or Log gets the thumbs up, i would like to use it as a journal too. Keeping a diary of sorts of all daily experiences, diets, exercise and general life and how i feel and how I'm coping.
If there are anything I need to change or that's not right please let me know, as i want to start this journey and share it and also think that i will get some much needed motivation on hard days.