This is my first real time rolling. I am prescribed Ritalin, so maybe i have a naturdal amphetamine tolerance or something, but every other time ive tried to roll, ive had no success with my pills. I went to a club in DC on 2 swallowed pills, but no success there either. Tonight, alone, in my condo, i plugged. Quite easier than it seems after reading about it on the net, that step was done in 5 seconds. 40 minutes later, I was introduced to the guy thats gonna make me who i'll become. I have no decided for sure that i want to become a psychologist after listening to music in total relaxation with no stress on my mind talking to multiple friends about problems in our lives. Ecstasy allows you to back away from life and look at it in a laid back way. It removes you from your problems and any biased decisions or opinions you may have, and lets you see them in a different light. For some, ecstasy hypes you up and makes u wanna dance. For me, ecstasy calms me down by removing all stress and anxiety from my life. It is by far the most theraputic tool that exists. You may realize something about yourself that perhaps you never knew before, you may see that you have made some mistakes, and you will back off and find a resolution with an unbiased view. Thinking about psychiarists and psychologists, they go through years of school just to extract some information and how to interperet such information that they extract. Problem with that is, we can never be as honest with anyone else more than we can be with ourselves. If you give X the chance to guide you to the "observing room" so that you can look down at your life and even though you may have been convincing yourself of things about you for years, ecstasy will give you the chance to realize what those are. If you are just starting x, whether you know of any mental problems or not, i suggest you talk to a shrink after your roll about what you experienced, what you thought, and how you felt. That way, you can combine your newlyfound inside thoughts and feelings with a therapists true advice based on other people he has treated in the past. Ecstasy is a tool for self improvement and self exploration and discovery. Regardless of who you are, what color you are, how old you are, religion, age, WHATEVER! Everyone has something to explore, and from the examples I've seen, anybody can do E. By doing Ecstasy, you are doing something really good for yourself in the long run, even if some negative fealings or thoughts come out, thats a good thing. Discuss those with your therapist, and work your way to having no problems. Kinda like if a box is closed for 100 years, you wont see any dust inside till you open it, once you do, you can clean that dust out and you will be cleaner inside
Nuff Said
Righty
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