I have an oxy addiction and was cut off of Oxy and switching to Black Tar because Dor the first week I Physically felt like I was dying and now emotionally I'm feeling like I was hit by a truck. I have to be functional and I can't afford to be out of commission any longer. Problem is that I'm probably the only idiot that can't figure out how to IV. I feel like a complete moron. I'm having the filming problems. One I have a hell of a time filming the syringe. I put h in a round metal measuring cup, add water and heat. I try to fill the damm syrange but the needle gets gunk or whatever on it and have a hell of a time getting it to fill up. Once I get 40CC to 60 CC of brown liquid I then try to shoot but I have missed a veil and have terrible huge bruises where I must have missed vein and only felt pain in arms. I had a couple of times where I got vein but felt nothing. What in the hell am I doing wrong.