fuckedinthehead
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Jan 22, 2020
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I just did a shot of meth that was about .25g which is my average dose.
As soon as I did it, I felt like my entire body was on fire. Shortness of breath. My face and lips are swollen and hot. Weird pains in random muscles. My throat is kinda tight. My teeth feel like they’re gonna fall out. Muscle kind of pulsing in chest. Vision a bit blurry. Little bit nauseous. Back pain. May or may not have hallucinations coming on. Not sure. Typing slower than normal.
It’s been a good 30 mins since I did the shot.
What the fuck is this shit? I’ve never had this happen with a .25 shot. Am I okay?
I really don’t want to go to the hospital. I just got out after an attempt on Saturday. The ICU isn’t a place I want to go back to.
I flushed the meth I had left. Fuck this. I don’t like this anymore.
Good news, I’m going to treatment on Tuesday. Residential. I’ve been working so hard to get here and I’m not letting this shit go to waste. I want a good life. I want to be okay. I want to get better.
I do have a heart condition called right axis deviation. I was at high risk for a heart attack for a while (I didn’t know). Stopped meth a few weeks ago, risk went down, then relapsed on Tuesday and it’s been everyday since. I don’t think I’m have a heart attack. There’s some pain in my chest but it’s barely noticeable.
Fuck. How do I make it through this? I took my vraylar in an attempt to ward off psychosis. I have lamictal and mirapex on hand.
Okay. I’m posting this now. I need help.
As soon as I did it, I felt like my entire body was on fire. Shortness of breath. My face and lips are swollen and hot. Weird pains in random muscles. My throat is kinda tight. My teeth feel like they’re gonna fall out. Muscle kind of pulsing in chest. Vision a bit blurry. Little bit nauseous. Back pain. May or may not have hallucinations coming on. Not sure. Typing slower than normal.
It’s been a good 30 mins since I did the shot.
What the fuck is this shit? I’ve never had this happen with a .25 shot. Am I okay?
I really don’t want to go to the hospital. I just got out after an attempt on Saturday. The ICU isn’t a place I want to go back to.
I flushed the meth I had left. Fuck this. I don’t like this anymore.
Good news, I’m going to treatment on Tuesday. Residential. I’ve been working so hard to get here and I’m not letting this shit go to waste. I want a good life. I want to be okay. I want to get better.
I do have a heart condition called right axis deviation. I was at high risk for a heart attack for a while (I didn’t know). Stopped meth a few weeks ago, risk went down, then relapsed on Tuesday and it’s been everyday since. I don’t think I’m have a heart attack. There’s some pain in my chest but it’s barely noticeable.
Fuck. How do I make it through this? I took my vraylar in an attempt to ward off psychosis. I have lamictal and mirapex on hand.
Okay. I’m posting this now. I need help.