Totach: Your post today is inspiring. I can tell that you are fighting your addiction and winning this war, one day at a time. Congrats!
Sickies: CINTH and CH: So sorry to hear you both feel like crap. CH: Your illness has been dragging on for awhile now... are you feeling any better?
I blew my taper plan big time today... stress with a family member. My daughter is such a control freak and is really angry with me for wanting to set some boundaries around a future situation. I struggle with a lot of guilt, because I wonder if she is so controlling due to my drinking when she was a teen ager? I was reasonable in my drinking most of her life, had years when I would maybe have a couple drinks a year. When she was 16 is when I really started to party. But, I went into recovery several years after that. IDK. She just gets so emotional whenever I try to voice my opinions. I got so stressed I took the dose that wasn't due for another 6 hours, and the pill for the dose after that.
I got to reign this in now, or I will end up eating the pills that I have stashed from being successful at my taper for the first half of this month. Hopefully by posting, I can get re-centered and back on track. Because, truthfully, I would like to pop two more right now, and just say f&*k it.