Hey guys, approx 15 weeks ago i had the most traumatic experience of my life. Im 19 years old about 180, going through uni and i decided to go to a rave. I had an energy drink, about five-six shots worth of vodka right in a row, and ended up buying and taking a cap of what I believed to be molly at the show about 30 mins later. I had done ex about 8-10 times prior to this experience, but nothing compared to what this felt like. It was WAY too intense! after the show I kept hearing the music in my head over and over and over again, I had crazy anxiety on the ride home, and I just wanted it to stop. The next day my head was RINGING, my anxiety/fear was still running super high, my heart would NOT stop racing, I couldnt eat, I couldnt sleep, I spent all night searching the internet for ex overdoses etc. I just wanted it to stop.
Fast - forward 15 weeks and im doing MUCH BETTER. I think i battled through an episode of depression, (took st. johns wort), what i think was depresionalization/derealism, and im doing fine in school. I had been drinking on and off (off at the moment)(a couple of binges that FUCKED me up for a while), ive smoked weed ONCE (was an occasional user before incident), and ive smoked tobacco sparsely. However, I recently went home for thanksgiving and my anxiety came back for a couple days, but now it seems to have gone away. I still have some lingering "spaceyness" or "cloudy" mind, i feel like im awkward around other people, my sleeping schedule is all out of whack, but most of all it seems that my life has become somewhat centered around this incident, I constantly think about how i feel and if i will get any better, how i let down my parents who gave me their unending support, and how my life will play out if this effect is permanent (causes MUCH ANXIETY/FEAR) There are times, like now, where i feel almost myself again and happy.
My questions to yall are - Do you think I will ever make a FULL RECOVERY? If there is anyone out there that has made a full recovery, how long did it take you?
My regards, luck, to FBC, who has greatly helped me with this.
Fast - forward 15 weeks and im doing MUCH BETTER. I think i battled through an episode of depression, (took st. johns wort), what i think was depresionalization/derealism, and im doing fine in school. I had been drinking on and off (off at the moment)(a couple of binges that FUCKED me up for a while), ive smoked weed ONCE (was an occasional user before incident), and ive smoked tobacco sparsely. However, I recently went home for thanksgiving and my anxiety came back for a couple days, but now it seems to have gone away. I still have some lingering "spaceyness" or "cloudy" mind, i feel like im awkward around other people, my sleeping schedule is all out of whack, but most of all it seems that my life has become somewhat centered around this incident, I constantly think about how i feel and if i will get any better, how i let down my parents who gave me their unending support, and how my life will play out if this effect is permanent (causes MUCH ANXIETY/FEAR) There are times, like now, where i feel almost myself again and happy.
My questions to yall are - Do you think I will ever make a FULL RECOVERY? If there is anyone out there that has made a full recovery, how long did it take you?
My regards, luck, to FBC, who has greatly helped me with this.