if your expressed reason behind your desire to experiment with aminata combinations is that they contain the meaning of life, how could combining them with opiates, coke, or methamphetamine possibly further this purpose?
I believe that we are not supposed to concsciously be aware of the meaning of life. I took Amanitas for the first time five years ago, without dissociatives. I had a similar experience to DwayneHoover. In fact some of the details are the same. But, at the time, I didn't understand it. I viewed it as a profound and inexplicable experience. Over time, I went on a spiritual journey, in some way guided by muscimol, in some way guided by psilocybin, and in many ways guided by the strange series of unexpected circumstances that would lead me to this point in my life. I've experienced serious tragedies. My ego has taken bigger blows than most people will ever experience. I have sinned terribly. And I have been redeemed. And all of this has lead me towards God. Over the past year I have had a series of spiritual encounters, the strongest of which have been as a result of muscaria. Over the past three months, though, I have had at least a dozen encounters with a divine power on many substances. The first time it happened, three years ago, I put it down largely to delusion. I got a lot out of the experience. It changed me. It shocked me. It was this unbelievably lucid ordeal. I'd had DMT, but this was amazing. And I didn't want to go back to it for fear of compromising that memory. Like if I went back I would discover that it was all in my head. Also, it scared me. And I didn't understand it. The first time I had DMT was similar. I didn't have it again for some time because it completely changed my perspective of drugs. As I've said before, DMT is nothing in comparison to muscimol. But, I suspect that's a duration thing. Anyway, I had muscimol again with dissociatives and I not only experienced the vision that people talk about but I also had this unspoken voice dictating to me the meaning of the vision. Since then I have read accounts of Soma experiences and I understand them. They are all the same. It's difficult to explain, but I understand DwayneHoover's experience with the being who consumes all forms of consciousness. I can explain it. But I need to include some diagrams and get it right in my head. I will post an explanation of it, and what I understand about the meaning of life, in the next couple of days.
As for, why combine it with opiates and other psychedelics? Because I have read a number of positive reports of psychedelics being combined with Amanitas and no negative ones. DMT is a rare combination. That's why I asked. But mescaline and LSD have been recorded. They are okay. I have done psilocybin. I have done DXM. I have done nitrous. And if I hadn't tried DXM with muscimol I never would have had a prophetic vision - which is COMPLETELY different to a drug induced delusion. I've had meth habits. I've experienced psychosis. I have had everything under the sun, excluding research chemicals which are too vast to cover. Muscimol is not like a drug experience. A divine experience, a vision, is not like a hallucination. You have to experience it to understand.
Also, you aren't very experienced with muscimol but you already want to combine it with potentially lethal substances like bromo-dragonfly? Honestly this sounds reckless and idiotic.
I don't think there's any point in calling me idiotic. I was going to start with a low dose of Bromo and work my way up. But, now, given that it has been recommended that I don't I will not. It's not idiotic to ask questions. This is part of my research. I am implementing harm reduction into my lifestyle by posing questions, before making mistakes. John Ruskin said, "To be able to ask a question clearly is two-thirds of the way to getting it answered.” In other words, it is ignorant to insult people for asking for help. What is far more preferable, is to help.
Also, maybe you should look up what a central nervous system depressant is, it's not a very difficult concept.
I could do that. Or you could just answer my question. Even if I look up what a CNS depressant is, I need to understand why it's a bad idea to take it with muscimol. The internet is full of people asking reasonable questions and other people saying "look it up." If someone comes up to you on the street and asks you a simple fact, do you tell them to go to a library?
That description of the muscimol experience honestly sounds so awesome but unfortunately it also sounds like it has the potential to be absolutely hellish, which is one of the only things stopping me from ordering some and trying it.
It will be hellish if you are afraid at all of it being hellish. You need to let go of everything. If you do you go to heaven, if you don't you go to hell. This is the origin of heaven and hell. This near death experience that stimulates the end. The first time, I went to hell. It was amazing, but utterly terrifying. Five years later, I went to heaven and I felt bliss like I never imagined.
Muscimol is not for the faint of heart.
I've had a year of very frequent psilocybe mushroom use and being a scholar of it's effects (very chaotic putting things together in an existential crisis), and also a year of very frequent LSD use where I felt I was 'on to something', trying to piece together unifying theories very similar to the way you call it "the key to the meaning of life waiting to be unlocked". So I can relate to it.
I'm glad you can relate to some extent, but psilocybe mushrooms aren't relatable. I'm an absolute mushroom nutcase. I've had at least a kilogram of psilocybes over the past year. I'm not exaggerating. I take them even when I'm not on drugs. I take below medicinal below threshold doses. I have been on mushrooms more days over the past year than I have been off them. I often take so many that I end up experiencing psilocybin induced paralysis, which is a rare phenomen that I have only ever encountered about ten cases of. Psilocybin is literally nothing in comparison to muscimol. The hallucinogenic properties of DMT massively outweigh psilcoybin, but the revelations do not. That's why I'm interested in ayahuasca because maybe with a longer DMT trip, you can gain something from it. DMT, for me, when smoked, is entirely hallucinogenic. Muscimol is more hallucinogenic than DMT, and maybe a million times more hallucinogenic than psilocybin. It also has a million times the revelation. I would trade every psilocybin trip I ever had for half an hour in a muscimol dream. And I've had thousands of psilocybin trips. Thousands and thousands. I am used to trips and knowing how to deal with them. I am a master. Everybody around me has fallen. I have been tripping hard for over ten years, taking everything. I never break down. I never form crazy delusions. I can differentiate between standard revelations from psilocybin and messages from God. I can also differentiate between hallucinations and visions. If you've only ever had visions, I understand the confusion. Before having this experience, I would have insisted that it can not exist. But it does. It's not a question of concreting my state of mind. If you saw a penguin you would believe in penguins. I believe in what I have seen, and felt, and experienced.
think rationalists who claim to have answers are just as delusional as people who think they have the holy grail in an entheogen, if either is delusional at all
Beautiful, thank you. When never said "the universe is clearly rational", I wanted to object but I held back. Nothing is clearly anything. I have strong beliefs but I don't tell you that you are delusional and the world is clearly irrational. I think it's a sign of insecurity to insist that another person's beliefs are incorrect and that yours are correct.
i kinda got the feeling that it would go very well with ketamine, just a feeling...
Ketamine is one drug that I have never enjoyed. But it's been a long time. I've been tempted to have another taste. I think it would be better than DXM with muscimol because of the reduced retrograde amnesia and the reduced side-effects. Been thinking about K and muscimol a lot recently. Not sure if I can get some anymore though.
Solipsis
The difference between delusion and faith isn't really that important. What I believe brings me enormous joy. It doesn't do anyone any harm. I have always been really safe with my drug use and I will always continue to be. If I believe what I believe and it makes my life better, who cares? I always envied faith and I thought I'd never have it. Now I do and I really believe. I don't just want to believe like born again Christians who force themselves. I have experienced it. If what I've experienced is a delusion, I'm not sure I want to know. We are all deluded after all, in one way or another. That's what ego is. Muscimol feels like permanent ego death. For over a week, I have been without an ego. Seriously. I'm like a differnet person. Faith is only a house of cards if you start pulling it apart. You have to believe.
I have quite an interest in GABAergic hallucinogens and would like to play with this stuff myself at some point.
Please do. You are an ideal candidate. Go in pure of heart without fear and you will be rewarded beyond your ability to comprehend. Much love.
If somebody said "I'm Christian", you wouldn't say they were delusional.
No, I would say they are scared, brainwashed, conditioned as a child, guilt ridden, judgmental and on some huge "I'm better than you" power trip.
Who is better than who; the Christian for claiming faith or you for judging them?
In other words...
"How can you say to your brother, 'Brother, let me take the speck out of your eye,' when you yourself fail to see the plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye."
Luke 6:42
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