RhythmSpring
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I think we're in pretty similar boats. I have a bunch of grams of mushrooms just waiting for me in my room here. And we share a lot of the same fears. I don't want to screw up and get paranoid and go permanently crazy. (Which of course, is not going to happen. You're more sane than you realize.)
Though I don't have much psychedelic experience, I have a few mental tips for you.
It's perfectly okay to be afraid. A common mistake is to try to eliminate, push away or avoid the fear. Instead, feel the fear, accept that you're afraid. Nothing else has to be done. Sit with the fear. You're afraid like a small animal is afraid. That's kinda cute.
Personally I get waves of energy (sober) when I accept my own fear internally. Embrace it, it's pretty fun... possibly exhilarating.
Oh, and I would agree that MDMA is a sweet place to start. It might center/ground you. Just, yeah, get the pure stuff.
Something to think about: What does it matter if your crazy if you embody consciousness and love?
I think we're in pretty similar boats. I have a bunch of grams of mushrooms just waiting for me in my room here. And we share a lot of the same fears. I don't want to screw up and get paranoid and go permanently crazy. (Which of course, is not going to happen. You're more sane than you realize.)
Though I don't have much psychedelic experience, I have a few mental tips for you.
It's perfectly okay to be afraid. A common mistake is to try to eliminate, push away or avoid the fear. Instead, feel the fear, accept that you're afraid. Nothing else has to be done. Sit with the fear. You're afraid like a small animal is afraid. That's kinda cute.
Personally I get waves of energy (sober) when I accept my own fear internally. Embrace it, it's pretty fun... possibly exhilarating.
Oh, and I would agree that MDMA is a sweet place to start. It might center/ground you. Just, yeah, get the pure stuff.
Something to think about: What does it matter if your crazy if you embody consciousness and love?