So I'm new here, like just registered fifteen minutes ago new lol, but great thread, definitely met a need. I've been dying to get this off my chest.
I'm a junior and I do all the normal party stuff, bud almost every weekend, in school every now and then, drinking occasionally (not a big drinker at all, but if it's a celebration I'll take shots. A while ago, my friend's brother in law (who's been around the block a time or two) asked us if he put a line of speed in front of us right then would we try it. We both said yes, I was curious about the high. The next weekend we're chillin about to smoke a bowl and he's all, "Hold up on that, I got something a little better" pulls out his pipe and a mini baggy of shit (about a gram) and loads a fatass bowl of it. Three people (The two I was with and my newly acquired dealer) know that I have ever even seen speed let alone gacked out for five days on end (Big mistake because that was only my first time. I didn't eat anything but two or three pop tarts the whole time and I went from 180 to 155, not to mention the comedown was terrible because it was coupled with dehydration.) After that first time, we decided that in order not to get caught, we would make it strictly a weekend thing, and only once a month, twice if we were lucky. But the next weekend I go over, and sure enough, we score some more of the shit. I stayed up all weekend and did enough sunday that I didn't sleep til Tuesday night (granted I went to sleep at like 7 on Tuesday lol) We were sure we wouldn't get it the next weekend, but we went over to this guy's house, he offered, and we dove in headfirst. I didn't go to school on Monday that week my body was so ripped, I felt disgusting. We started to get it under control and only be doing it every now and then. But I haven't done it in around a month and I'm just now getting withdrawals (completely psychological, the physical were gone a long time ago.) I'll be sitting in class and my mind will just seemingly start begging for it. It's weird to me because I haven't done it in so long, is that normal? And I'm getting some next week, would that make it worse or make the cravings go away for another month? (I'm going to do it anyway, I'm just curious to know.) But back on to the whole double lives thing, I've been smoking bud, hash, cigarettes, drinking, popping pills, doing a line of coke every now and then, sipping lean, etc for five years now, and my mom still thinks I'm her little baby that thinks drugs are stupid and a waste of money and time, she hasn't caught me one time, hasn't found my stash, hasn't found a butt, hasn't seen a bottle, hasn't noticed that I always have money (Dont reveal this about yourself on the internet) nothing. And she has no idea, which is weird, because she was exactly like me at this age lol, I think she just won't believe it unless she can see without a shadow of a doubt. But hey, I'm not complaining.
I didn't really think about this til I was done and wasn't sure where to put it, but people always ask why I'm so cautious, and I don't get it. I mean yeah, I've gone home earlier than I was supposed to and been totally out of it, but I've been at a friends house where the parents are a lawyer and a cop and he has a history of using, and he acts stoned as hell in front of both of them like he doesn't even care that his dad is required by law to arrest him if he catches him walking around with the ridiculous amount of illegal shit he's got on him at one time. I don't understand people's obliviousness, bu I guess I never will lol, anyways, congrats if you read this whole post, it's long as hell.