Stimulants Addicted to Amphetamines, Getting out of hand, not sure how to stop

[GetMeOutOfThisCRAP]

First of all, relax a bit because most of us have been in similar shoes especially a breakup induced horrendous addiction flare-up. Second of all, coming from someone who literally was exactly in ur place at one time, I can absolutely assure you that while drug abuse helps heartbreak, it prolongs the shit out of the negative emotions and prevents healing properly and seeing the relationship for its good and bad parts--although hurtful. You cannot escape the horrible loneliness and bitterness/depression with or without drugs. You will find another relationship that is hopefully a much better end result, but again--speaking from personal experience you are making your depression far worse than it normally would be. Not only will you feel heartbreak upon each crash until the redose, the depression alone from stimulant abuse is quite debilitating. I think that you should try to use less if possible for the time being, because realistically telling you to just "stop" altogether might not be an instantaneous process. I would meet half way, where you use less amphetamine like when you were in a relationship again and accept some depression from the breakup. Eventually, you will get over your ex because we usually always do. What you won't be getting over if this escalates? The terrible stimulant addiction that really sucks for various reasons lol. If you continue as you have been, you're probably just going to suffer even more than you should because the stimulant dependency starts to not even work as a decent antidepressant as tolerance continues to rise. Getting off them might not be immediate. You most likely will have to commit to some trial and error of a few relapses here and there as your use becomes more controlled. Doesn't the amphetamine lock you in a hyper focused ultra lonely realm? Even when you're around people, you're stuck in that realm unable to rly interact with them when flying on speed. What would be best for you is to connect with friends better, reach out to people you haven't talked to in a while perhaps, and healthily manage your breakup depression instead of being in a room forever like smeagle in a cave, gobbling amphetamine day and night wondering if stimulant abuse might be worse than breakups.