I've read a lot of the stories in here and I'd like to add mine to the pile if that's alright...
I definitely agree with the statements made previously about how opiate addiction can sneak up on you. I've been using percocets orally and oxycontin nasally for I think about two solid years now. I've had to go through withdrawal a few times... probably can count on one hand. A few times it was unintentional, I would just be out of percs or not take any for a day or two after taking them every day for a week, then wonder why I suddenly came down with the flu. I was completely clueless, as I'd had absolutely no experience with narcotics before this time. They were offered to me as a solution for my bad knee pain and I thought "hey, why not..."
After that I started to use oxy recreationally but useage ramped up very slowly and gradually until it became daily use. There was a time period of about a week where I was bored, alone and generally hating my life and its circumstances and found it very easy to justify daily use of about 40-50mgs a day which I know isn't as much as some of the users here but for me that was so much more than I had ever planned. Someone who cared enough about me forced me to stop cold-turkey and the withdrawals after my highest useage period was the worst experience of my life. There was the week of the typical withdrawal symptoms (chills, aches, weakness, sweats, restlessness, diarrhea, out of control emotions, no sleep but constantly tired) but I was not fully back to normal for at least two months in terms of sleeping, eating, feeling like myself again and finally getting over the compulsion to just do as many as I wanted.
I was proud of myself for about a minute until I realized that the desire to use would never really go away and I felt like a failure. Using was now an option, when before I had ever used these drugs it wasn't really there. I hardly ever drank, hated being too drunk and hungover, and weed never really did all that much for me so I felt "meh" towards those two. But opiates are just so different. They change how you feel. Everyone has heard the whole "they make you want more, you'll do anything to get more" but no one ever told you that when you feel that way it's 100% completely real, and you find yourself making justifications to use. There's always a reason. Bad day, bad mood, pain, nervousness, anxiety or whatever. After my withdrawal and clean period of a few months I wanted to use again, but responsibly this time... I made a list of conditions and rules for myself to follow to try to make sure I never got physically addicted ever again. It worked for a while but I definitely fell into the trap again. I'm mostly keeping it up now because I'd hate to go through the withdrawal again, seeing as I'm back at school for another year and I actually have to leave the house for classes and social gatherings (boo hoo, I sound like a total sap haha). But if I didn't have these responsibilities I think I'd be more willing to get through it. It never seems to be the right time.
Anyway thanks for reading/listening. I am so glad I found this forum. I am finally able to tell this story and find support and not be judged or guilted. I think I'm really going to like it here.
e bben addicted to oxy for about two yeas.. my tollerance grew to 350 - 400mg i would buy 12 to 13 roxies for abound *NO PRICES* i would pop half and snort the rest at the same time just so i can high... -__- i ruined my savings and my credit.. i am now going threw treatment and got a script for suboxone it helps with withdraws soo much and i wanna stay clean but ive been getting theses intense cravings lately cuz all my dealers tx me all the tym sayn got blues hit me up or got opana and its still so hard for me to stop.. just kmowing that they are thier pretty much in arms reach is giving me such bad anxiaty and temptation.. please help me with some good advise. im on ther verge of looseing my girlfriend that i love so very much because of my addiction... and replies would meen alot to me.. 
