this is kind of a taboo topic , but i could use some advice
i have been prescribed adderall because i actually need it, but instead of taking it everyday, i only take it on day's were i have a large amount of tedious work or stuff that requires more cognitive thinking then other days, or just when i am in social situations, as i can't seem to be able to connect with people at all otherwise without being a nervous wreck..
well enough of that..
i have been masterbating ever since i was 12 , and since i don't take adderrall everyday and maybe once or twice a week i guess i take a larger dose then what i should be (sometimes up to 60 mg)
well lately i have been getting into this trance like state and i become hyper focused on just searching for porn, and honestly the hours just go by, and I'm afraid to say it but i spent close to 18 hours one day just looking up porn and doing nothing else...
i know this is a problem, the thing is i rarely jerk off or am interested in porn at all when I'm sober, and probably view it at the same rate as any other guy (once or twice a week)
but on adderrall i become a monster , and this only happens when I'm near a computer, unfortunately i like to learning things like coding and photoshop when i am on the substance so it puts me in quite the predicament
i know this sounds absurd, but i am being honest here , and really didn't plan on sharing this with anyone, but i really want to enjoy this substance without becoming a a reclusive pervert, the first piece of advice would obviously be abstinence and learning to control ones self, but its easier said than done.
This is completely normal and to be expected. All amphetamines produce both hyper-focus and sexual interest.
Yes i have had the same, i use to abuse the fuck outta adderall 30s in high school, i mean the shits everywhere and cheap, half the time id get them free from buddies and other times only 3$ for a 30 and i still hve the same issues. When i say abuse i mean i abused thè fuck out of them.
I really don't see what the problem is. The libido push is one of the main reasons I take stimulants.
And it has never caused me to "all of a sudden" like gay porn or trannies either, you sickos. ;P
I will go through PAGES of my favorite porn site trying to find the perfect video. I'll open it and the quickly jump to parts in the video and keep skipping ahead until it's over. Usually takes 20 seconds. Then I repeat the whole process for hours. It's like I'm trying to find the perfect porn video but it doesn't exist to me, I still do it anyways! When I first started using I always heard about stim faps and how godly they felt but I never did it myself.. then i tried it out a week ago. I think it ruined sober fapping for me.
hah I could tell so many embarrassing stories about my tweaker boyfriend ...yes involving gay porn, transgenderism, a ripped asshole, and ruining a good set of shoes by standing in the shower fully clothed for 5 hours straight touching himself, and more. the first maybe few hundred times he did meth/amphetamines he was incapable of doing literally ANYTHING but jerking off ...doesn't sound like a great time to me but for some reason he persisted and I guess eventually the novelty wore off and he was able to ...I don't want to say "function" because that's not what he was doing in any traditional sense of the word, but he was able to do stupid things that didn't involve his dick at least.
my gathered solutions -- do more more often ...or ...stop