johhnya541
Greenlighter
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- Apr 23, 2013
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25i-NBOME has changed my life for the worse.. I think the guy who dosed me didn't shake the vile well enough before he put it in my hand. I'm not sure what he dissolved it in but he poured a giant puddle into my palm. It had to have been 20-30 hits. He told me it was super clean LSD, Orange Sunshine to be exact. My friends were neighbors with the guy and they were all talking it up as well. This was at EFF 2012 by the way... I could see the puddle seeping into my skin as I looked at it, I then decided to lick my palm, it was super bitter tasting and I knew right away it was not L. A half hour later, I puked followed by the most intense visuals I have ever had in my life. My girlfriend and my friends were on it as well but they said they didn't have nearly as intense visuals as I. Some time goes by as I'm melting not making any sense whatsoever. I could tell my girl was concerned about me by the way I was acting. We decided to lean up against a tree and relax for a minute when I felt my heart pounding out of the side of my chest, my girl immediately said that she could feel it because my arm was around her. It scared the shit out of me. The whole rest of the festival I felt super spun and drained. I had no enthusiasm whatsoever, all my friends thought I was giving off negative vibes and it seemed like they were trying to avoid me. The whole time I was trying to keep myself calm and kept reassuring myself that it was going to ware off soon, It didn't. When I got home I started to panic and I thought I was in a permatrip because it was four days after I consumed the 25i. By the way, I later found out it was 25i-NBOME from a friend who actually bought a vile of it and took it home and got it tested. I had extreme anxiety and I couldn't stop thinking about it. I was worrying about being perm fucked soo bad. I kept bringing it up to my girlfriend and my family, I would not stop talking about it. I admitted myself to the ER and I told them that I consumed a large amount of lsd and MDMA because that's what I thought I had. They ran a bunch of tests on me and said that nothing was out of the ordinary and sent me on my way. I think since I didn't go to the hospital earlier they couldnt find any abnormalities. I felt so hopeless and helpless about the whole situation during the first 2 months after the trip. I couldn't believe I could change my life over one weekend of trying to have fun. The love of my life ended up leaving me because of how different I became, how socially anxious, depressed, pessimistic I was. My symptoms included; Severe social anxiety, Major Depression with suicidal ideation, Brain fog feeling in the back of my head, no motivation, no energy, black stool, stomach ulcers, depersonalization/Derealization, jerky movements, cognitive difficulties, etc. Also, I weighed myself at my house when I got home and I was 138 lb which was 20 lb lighter than when I went into the fest. I'm a very slim and slender guy who has never had body fat so I came to the conclusion that I lost 20 pounds of muscle! One of the specialist I saw said I could have had hyperthermia for over 12 hrs so that could explain the muscle loss and neurological problems. That's all I can think of for now but those lasted for a good 3 months until I started feeling some relief. Since then, its been about 6 months and I'm left with less severe anxiety and depression, the brain fog is gone, my energy has come back a little bit, motivation is slightly better, I still have cognitive difficulties and whatever song I hear gets stuck in my head all day and it drives me crazy. I went to a few specialist early on (before I knew it was 25i) and they just sent me home and said wait it out... One said I may have fried my dopamine receptors based on all of my symptoms, he said they grow back in 6 months to a year, that gave me some relief but that doesn't explain the cognitive problems Ive been having, I often forget what I'm talking about or its hard for me to find the words I want to say. I feel like a fucking idiot when I talk to people. I hope to god everyday that I return to baseline but its not looking like it. Not a day goes by where I don't think about that festival and what happened to me. I'm so negative now and I have a very pessimistic outlook on life. Has anyone had any similar experiences? Do the symptoms subside? Should I try medication? Ive abstained from most drugs since then besides weed everyday and LSD and MDMA occasionally. I don't want to be stuck in this funk for the rest of my life, I'm only 25 and I have so much life ahead of me. Please respond, any input would help. Sorry about how this article is all over the place, I have ADD really bad and it seems that Its become worse since the trip. Thanks John