I'm going through the same thing, any postive outcomes experienced by anyone here?
E or whatever drug ingested at the time has basically fucked your brain enough that the neurotransmitters, DA, SE, NE, etc etc has become imbalanced so you gotta balance it through chemical means.
If you only dropped once and it fucked you up like it did to me, you probably already have a very sensitive brain chemistry caused by an underlying disorder. In my case I was bipolar II and E sent me into a depressive-manic state in which, I felt like a gold-fish. I had the memory/attention of a gold fish with this depressive cloud looming over me, had obsessive thoughts ppl were against me, and I felt I'll be stuck like that forever.
You have to understand this feeling is from an imbalance (most likely dopamine/serotonin) since it gets severely altered during mdma/e use.
I suggest this:
Get a blood test. But just b/c your blood tests are normal, it doesn't mean you wont benefit from the supplements. My tests were perfect but taking shit still helped me a lot. Research all the chemicals. Pay attention to your thoughts. Also theres no way to test neurotransmitter levels.
1) Try supplements, they are the building blocks of neurotransmitters.
Basics:
A) b complex
B) Fish Oil
C) 5-htp (serotonin precursor)
D) Zinc
If those dont work, then the more effective ones for depression:
A) St Johns Wort (Kira or Pirka Extract)
-Shown to upregulate 5-ht receptors and there are studies of its efficacy on pubmed.
B) Rhodioa Rosea
-Some studies, not as much as SJW
C) Lithium orotate
-Low dose has been used for depression, and its a mood stabilizer as well
(Get all the above at iherb, its pretty cheap). Make sure you take one at a time.
D) Piracetam (Careful with it)
The reason you would start with the basic supplements first is because the availability of those vitamins/minerals could drastically alter the efficiacy of other supplements. A deficiency in one of those could render other supplements ineffective.
If the above still doesn't work then try various SSRIs/chemicals after very careful research, and remember to start at a low dose.
You can either ignore it and let it creep over you the rest of your life knowing you'll never feel the same again, and hope that it will return to normal. For some it will, for others it wont. Everyones different.
If it doesn't, then you need to take a chemical approach and rebalance these suckers, in which case you will be a guinea pig and you will need to do a lot of research on pubmed.com if you are to try the more effective pharmacological approaches.
If chemicals caused the imbalance, then chemicals could fix them.