I've always been a little more of an optimist, and a generally happy person. I laugh a lot and am one of the "funny guys" in our group.
I've been rolling a lot more than usual in the past few months and can definitely tell you there is a difference after taking drugs each time. I don't really feel these "monumental" crashes everyone talks about (even during the times when i am DEFINITELY abusing the "spacing principle")
Things feel a little off, its harder than usual to concentrate on work, i think about how much more fun rolling is than my job (but doesnt mean im going to stop working). I spend more time on BL forums.... Sometimes i feel really socially awkward the day after, or the day after the day after (lol)
which is odd for me because I would never consider myself socially awkward at all.
One time, it made me feel like hiding in my room all day and i was legit depressed for a half day. I felt like i was gonna freak out. Suicide? No, but if you do feel suicidal, remind yourself its the drugs and itll go away within a week or a few weeks.
In the grand scheme of things, each day gets better (and its usually only a few days, so woop-de-doo) and a few weeks is NOTHING compared to the time you'll have on the earth.
I say, just go outside, enjoy the beach if you're lucky enough to live near one (or some other nature scene), play some video games, workout, do whatever you want and remind yourself that you partied like a rockstar for a night and sometimes it takes a little while to return to "normal" after that.
Also, its noted by several reliable sources that food, shelter, and clothing (as what we seek out as a species) is actually the PC version. The truth is food, shelter, clothing, and altering our state of mind. Drug seeking behavior exists in all animals and when a certain individual or animal feels that it has all the things in place to feel somewhat comfortable, it will start trying to find ways to "get fucked up"
interesting