So I'm back from about .. it's been not even 3 minutes since I've returned.
Where to begin... well this morning at around 11:40ish I loaded up a dos of 40mg into my now special, cherished Machine and hit. The experience was like the past 5 I've had with it where I would not breakthrough, but instead have bits of data uploaded to me. Frustrated, I went and took a shower. About 40 minutes later aftr I came out I loaded up another 40ish mg to no avail.. I thought I would go no further.
Then about 10 minutes ago I charged and properly loaded up my last 40mgs of the day.
I.. can only say that within the tiny space of my head.. I felt as though I experienced the universe in its entirety. I took 3 hits, 1 small and 2 ginormous.. and instantly this buzzing engulfed my head.. I began to vibrate not unlike the beginning stages of an astral projction experience, and I fell to my side (I was on my bed) and my nose began to run.
I felt like I was being hammered down by some unknown force, and dissected or something. I don't know when or if I closed my eyes but I observed a room.. about 4 entities were just.. there.. tall, slender.. I felt as though I was the one being observed, as opposed to the observee...
I opened my eyes and was back in my room, but it was.. so alien. So foreign. I can only describe everything as having a waxy lego Crash Bandicoot-esque texture to it. I felt like a newborn child. My fingers were pastel sausages that threatened to became goopy balls of ooze. I have to say that time felt as though it skipped forward, hopped back, chunks were just cut & pasted into random areas.. hell there was simply no time. I had no reference point as to where I was, who I was, or WHY I was when I was in that place. I began mulling over what just happened in my head, re-enacting my smoking to my falling over, and what the fuck happened in between and after and fwhg98hg8u3h4g87h3.
I began to utter the words.. it was beautiful.. love.. it's as simple as that. I was in COMPLETE AWE that within my body, in my mind, in that small area where my head rested on my bed.. I felt, experienced, witnessed, became the universe, housed it completely in me as we all do. I just marveled and giggled that we are all the universe.. within each of us.
I can only describe it as having my harddrive erased completely and a new one uploaded. But, regardless of what I said, I cannot find the proper words to describe what happened in that timeless, selfless place I just got shot into.
The mouth of the void is god-wide, my friends.