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Warped Reality

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Well, lately I've been having what I think is Ecstasy withdrawal. I HATE it. I heard from another thread of mine that the symptoms are also the symptoms of schizophrenia and that just freaked me out A LOT. But anyways here are my symptoms...

  • Depression - When I (ab)used Ecstasy, I was SO happy. I always was, until I stopped for a month (it's been a month today that I haven't done it, and before I was doing Ecstasy every week for about two months, doing 5-9 pills every time). Now that it's been a month I'm realizing that I'm so depressed. I was walking home today and I was thinking of killing myself. The thought of sleeping forever seems beautiful. I was just imagining jumping off a bridge and feeling the wind and then just sleeping forever - I really want this
  • Anxiety - I'm really anxious now. I can't go outside because my heart starts racing and the only thing that calms me down is a cigarette
  • Panic Attacks - I'm getting EXTREME panic attacks. When I was told that these were the symptoms of Schizophrenia, I started breathing very heavily and fast, and I started crying from it. Every now and then I realize that my life feels like a dream ("de-realization", which is exactly what I have),
  • Everything seems 'dreamy' to me
  • I seem like I'm more stuck into my mind... Like, I feel like I'm not all there. I've been thinking it was schizophrenia for a while, and then I realized that it's also one of the Ecstasy withdrawal symptoms (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Derealization this is exactly how I feel!)
  • Bad sleeping patterns
  • Paranoid delusions - I always get paranoid, which I know is a symptom of both Ecstasy withdrawal and Schizophrenia

If anyone could post any tips or anything I could do to calm myself down, it would be greatly appreciated... This is a scary thing and nobody should have to feel this way.
 
Whoever told you those are symptoms of schizophrenia is not your friend and you should remove that person from your life.

What you're experience is serotonin deficiency caused by your stupid, E-tard levels of ecstasy intake. You need to stop taking MDMA forever, and maybe you'll be better in a few months/years.
 
drewmandan said:
Whoever told you those are symptoms of schizophrenia is not your friend and you should remove that person from your life.

What you're experience is serotonin deficiency caused by your stupid, E-tard levels of ecstasy intake. You need to stop taking MDMA forever, and maybe you'll be better in a few months/years.
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Thank you very much, I extremely agree with this:

"What you're experience is serotonin deficiency caused by your stupid, E-tard levels of ecstasy intake. You need to stop taking MDMA forever"
 
Warped Reality said:
Well, lately I've been having what I think is Ecstasy withdrawal. I HATE it. I heard from another thread of mine that the symptoms are also the symptoms of schizophrenia and that just freaked me out A LOT. But anyways here are my symptoms...


If anyone could post any tips or anything I could do to calm myself down, it would be greatly appreciated... This is a scary thing and nobody should have to feel this way.
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Talk to your doctor. You're suffering from a set of serious mental health issues, most likely caused by your ecstasy consumption (ie. serotonin depletion).
Do explain your drug history to the doctor, because it is likely to matter in choosing a successful treatment. There are various effective anti-anxiety and anti-depressive medications available.
 
PolicyWonk said:
Talk to your doctor. You're suffering from a set of serious mental health issues, most likely caused by your ecstasy consumption (ie. serotonin depletion).
Do explain your drug history to the doctor, because it is likely to matter in choosing a successful treatment. There are various effective anti-anxiety and anti-depressive medications available.
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Okay, I'll do so.
Has anyone else had any troubles with "de-realization"? Because honestly that's ALL I want gone. Before I started (ab)using ecstasy, I had depression which lead to anxiety, etc, but never "de-realization" - That is what's scaring me. It feels like I'm constantly high on weed, and I HATE it. Does anyone know how long it will take to go away?
 
I had to deal with this for a few months following a really traumatic trip. It is more a symptom of anxiety than anything else. It will go away as long as you cease all drug use.

You need to do things that get you out of your own head...exercise and daily meditation are what worked for me, but you may have different things that work for you. Doing things that put you in 'flow,' where you don't have time to start ruminating over your own thoughts is crucial, IMO.
 
SecondPull said:
I had to deal with this for a few months following a really traumatic trip. It is more a symptom of anxiety than anything else. It will go away as long as you cease all drug use.

You need to do things that get you out of your own head...exercise and daily meditation are what worked for me, but you may have different things that work for you. Doing things that put you in 'flow,' where you don't have time to start ruminating over your own thoughts is crucial, IMO.
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I found playing guitar helps me a lot, it really brings me back to reality and I love it.
 
Hey Warped,

I have great news for you! In my experience, overdoing it for the first few months or so seems very common. Pretty much everyone I knew did just that. It's so much fun, it's very easy to get caught in the moment and not realize the damage you're doing. I wouldn't call it withdrawl, but these symptoms are indeed caused by MDMA abuse. However, your future looks bright because the length of your abuse isn't too long, so the damage will likely be completely reversible in a few short months. I did what you described for about nine months and once I stopped, I was flooded with all of the same issues. It's funny looking back now, because at the time, it seemed like I would never be happy again, and the tiniest little things seemed so monumental, I would cry all the time over nothing. After about three months though, I started feeling back to normal and today I feel great. On top of that, I can still enjoy MDMA, and have a new appreciation for not overdoing it and a new respect for the drug. Just take a nice long break from the drug and you will return back to your normal mental state quickly.
 
foxyloxy55 said:
Hey Warped,

I have great news for you! I wouldn't call it withdrawl, but these symptoms are indeed caused by MDMA abuse. However, your future looks bright because the length of your abuse isn't too long, so the damage will likely be completely reversible in a few short months. I did what you described for about nine months and once I stopped, I was flooded with all of the same issues. It's funny looking back now, because at the time, it seemed like I would never be happy again, and the tiniest little things seemed so monumental, I would cry all the time over nothing. After about three months though, I started feeling back to normal and today I feel great. On top of that, I can still enjoy MDMA, and have a new appreciation for not overdoing it and a new respect for the drug. Just take a nice long break from the drug and you will return back to your normal mental state quickly.
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Oh, great! That makes me feel a lot better, thanks a lot foxyloxy :)
 
Warped Reality said:
Okay, I'll do so.
Has anyone else had any troubles with "de-realization"? Because honestly that's ALL I want gone. Before I started (ab)using ecstasy, I had depression which lead to anxiety, etc, but never "de-realization" - That is what's scaring me. It feels like I'm constantly high on weed, and I HATE it. Does anyone know how long it will take to go away?
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It may just be an exacerbation of the symptoms you had prior to drug use, due to the drug use. I'm not a doctor/psychiatrist/pharmacologist, and most of the people on here aren't either, so don't put too much faith in the help found here.

If anti-anxiety medications, such as benzodiazepine (lorazepam, alprazolam) were to help for your symptoms, they kick in after about 30-60 minutes.

If SSRI', SNRI's or even NaSSA's (citalopram, Fluoxetine; venlafaxine; mirtazapine...) were to help, it's more on the scale of 1-2 weeks for inital effect, although you may feel an impact during the first few days.
 
Well first off, don't kill yourself!!!!
Second, talk to your doctor. He/she may be able to give you something that will help you get back to normal.
Third, what other things did you enjoy? (before you were using ecstasy?) DO THOSE THINGS! What about your friends? Do you like to spend time with them? Then spend time with them. Get some fresh air, don't stay inside all the time. You need to find something that makes you happy again.
 
Warped Reality said:
Okay, I'll do so.
Has anyone else had any troubles with "de-realization"? Because honestly that's ALL I want gone. Before I started (ab)using ecstasy, I had depression which lead to anxiety, etc, but never "de-realization" - That is what's scaring me. It feels like I'm constantly high on weed, and I HATE it. Does anyone know how long it will take to go away?
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The de-realization partially went away for me after 3.5 years although its still there a bit.
 
drewmandan said:
Whoever told you those are symptoms of schizophrenia is not your friend and you should remove that person from your life.

What you're experience is serotonin deficiency caused by your stupid, E-tard levels of ecstasy intake. You need to stop taking MDMA forever, and maybe you'll be better in a few months/years.
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We don't need to insult people to give them sound advice. S/He doesn't even need to stop taking MDxx forever. What s/he does need is a long break.

It should be noted that non-existence isn't sleeping forever. There is no way to sleep forever. This is an impossibility and a misconception of death.
 
im in the same boat as you. depersonalization or derealization is really scary i also had really bad panic attacks after my e while smoking weed. i am currently on my longest break since using e (6 weeks) i am exercising eating right and getting as much sleep as possible. all these really have help me but only more time away from all drugs i think will get me back to normal. taking breaks is the only way i think. talk to a doctor or psychiatrist about this.
 
Warped Reality said:
Well, lately I've been having what I think is Ecstasy withdrawal. I HATE it. I heard from another thread of mine that the symptoms are also the symptoms of schizophrenia and that just freaked me out A LOT. But anyways here are my symptoms...

  • Depression - When I (ab)used Ecstasy, I was SO happy. I always was, until I stopped for a month (it's been a month today that I haven't done it, and before I was doing Ecstasy every week for about two months, doing 5-9 pills every time). Now that it's been a month I'm realizing that I'm so depressed. I was walking home today and I was thinking of killing myself. The thought of sleeping forever seems beautiful. I was just imagining jumping off a bridge and feeling the wind and then just sleeping forever - I really want this
  • Anxiety - I'm really anxious now. I can't go outside because my heart starts racing and the only thing that calms me down is a cigarette
  • Panic Attacks - I'm getting EXTREME panic attacks. When I was told that these were the symptoms of Schizophrenia, I started breathing very heavily and fast, and I started crying from it. Every now and then I realize that my life feels like a dream ("de-realization", which is exactly what I have),
  • Everything seems 'dreamy' to me
  • I seem like I'm more stuck into my mind... Like, I feel like I'm not all there. I've been thinking it was schizophrenia for a while, and then I realized that it's also one of the Ecstasy withdrawal symptoms (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Derealization this is exactly how I feel!)
  • Bad sleeping patterns
  • Paranoid delusions - I always get paranoid, which I know is a symptom of both Ecstasy withdrawal and Schizophrenia

If anyone could post any tips or anything I could do to calm myself down, it would be greatly appreciated... This is a scary thing and nobody should have to feel this way.
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i've been there, but it was 9 years of mdma every weekend. when i stopped i was convinced i was schizo. seen a shrink and she diagnosed me with panic disorder and generalized anxiety disorder. both treatable with mirtazapine

i had all those symptoms btw
7 years later i'm still on the mirtazapine though. every time i try to stop i get anxious as fuck
 
I've had de-realization since I was about twelve. It's common for people as you get older, but sometimes I feel like I feel it more than other people. Very "copilot" if you will. MDMA comedowns intensify this for me for sometimes days or weeks.

My boyfriend has Schizophrenia, and he blamed the drug usage at first. However, the drugs were a big part of making it worse, but the doctors told us it was likely an underlying condition before.

Those do and don't sound like Schizophrenia symptoms. Yes, it is common for Schizophrenics to feel detached, anxious, and depressed--- but that doesn't mean you have Schizophrenia. Those symptoms are a sign of many... many different possible things. Honestly, I would go get checked. I wish we'd gotten my boyfriend checked before it got as bad as it did. Tell your doctor about your drug usage. He won't turn you in to the cops or anything, it's strictly confidential, so let him know all the nitty gritties.
 
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