AddictedAndHatingIt
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Mar 21, 2023
- Messages
- 25
Hello BL crew.
First off, let me say thank you for this forum and to its users for their truthful and insightful information. I believe this place is a true treasure and many people have been helped through some crazy shit by this community.
I've been lurking for a while. Reading a lot about all kinds of different things.
The time has come for me to make some changes in life. And I need some insight from people who have been there. Not a doctor who has no actual life experience.
So about me: I have had a hydrocodone addiction since after surgery in 2016, but it never got bad, maybe 75 to 80 mg a day and that was very infrequent. In 2022 a friend gave me a 30 mg oxy and from there things have snowballed into a 300mg - 400mg a day habit.
I find myself extremely depressed if I do not take oxy and even taking hydro acts more like a withdrawal helper and I do not get high from it. My liver would shut down if I were to take enough hydrocodone to actually feel something.
I've successfully stopped taking oxy and I am down to about 100 mg a day of hydro occasionally I will touch 120mg. I'd be lying if I said I didn't want oxy every day though but I just can't keep it up because I can see where this is going and I will die from it.
I don't shoot or anything like that. I just chew things up and swallow them.
I reached out to my doctor and he sent me to an addiction specialist who then prescribed bupe, and since it is so easy to get I have a crazy amount of it. I have 2 mg without narcan in it. I have 8 mg with 2 mg narcan tabs and strips as well.
What is this going to really do to me? I saw the FDA recently put something out that said you're going to lose your teeth from this drug so I'm terrified. Any experiences that you guys have or advice or anything on how to be normal and stabilize and then hopefully get off of bupe too would be greatly appreciated.
First off, let me say thank you for this forum and to its users for their truthful and insightful information. I believe this place is a true treasure and many people have been helped through some crazy shit by this community.
I've been lurking for a while. Reading a lot about all kinds of different things.
The time has come for me to make some changes in life. And I need some insight from people who have been there. Not a doctor who has no actual life experience.
So about me: I have had a hydrocodone addiction since after surgery in 2016, but it never got bad, maybe 75 to 80 mg a day and that was very infrequent. In 2022 a friend gave me a 30 mg oxy and from there things have snowballed into a 300mg - 400mg a day habit.
I find myself extremely depressed if I do not take oxy and even taking hydro acts more like a withdrawal helper and I do not get high from it. My liver would shut down if I were to take enough hydrocodone to actually feel something.
I've successfully stopped taking oxy and I am down to about 100 mg a day of hydro occasionally I will touch 120mg. I'd be lying if I said I didn't want oxy every day though but I just can't keep it up because I can see where this is going and I will die from it.
I don't shoot or anything like that. I just chew things up and swallow them.
I reached out to my doctor and he sent me to an addiction specialist who then prescribed bupe, and since it is so easy to get I have a crazy amount of it. I have 2 mg without narcan in it. I have 8 mg with 2 mg narcan tabs and strips as well.
What is this going to really do to me? I saw the FDA recently put something out that said you're going to lose your teeth from this drug so I'm terrified. Any experiences that you guys have or advice or anything on how to be normal and stabilize and then hopefully get off of bupe too would be greatly appreciated.