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Girlfriend in 6 year relationship just broke up with me after my cancer diagnosis and 6 month chemotherapy.

U deserve better bro, grieve all the time u need but focus on healing. She's a heartless person, next time aim for a latina. They are very kind, caring girls + nice curves and massive tits, ass. Complete package šŸ˜›šŸ˜šŸ¤—šŸ¤­šŸ˜‰
 
nznity said:
SUPER COLD
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I'm English, but her taste in music was fucking amazing and she was beautiful and we laughed at stuff you know, at the same time...not separately. I took the metallic culture difference as an experience....I actually had no prob with it. I lived in Lithuania fir 3 years and missed y mum and my brother, but I come and visit. Seriously I agree with you that that's a fairly cold approach she took, but her taste in music and clothes was almost unbelievably suited to the way I think about the life I'm in that she could've stabbed me in the night and I'd of still made the coffee in the morning. What does that make me?
 
Negentropic said:
@Sergeant Absent did she leave you after you relapsed? Did she say why she left?
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No what happened was, I completed my chemo in Lithuania, came home to London to see my mum and brother, realised that I'd prob be here 2 years maybe? that chemo fucked me up big time....and I've done a cold turkey benzo/alcohol detox in Thamkrabok with full on audio and visual hallucins, delirum max. But this chemo fucks you up man bad. So, 6 months after I came back to London and started feeling a bit better....ok I had relapsed on Benzos and coke, but not alcohol and bone.....this are my 2 biggest stumbling blocks. And yeah she just text and said " you should know wer're not in relationship anymore and I"ve been seeing a new man for a while". So I ordered an 8th of bone, a Litre of famous grouse and a hotel room Tuesday night......and I'm still here
 
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Sergeant Absent said:
But, like, we were together for 6 years. I thought I gave her love and I thought she gave it back. But why wait until now? She says it's not because I'm I'll and it absolutely and obviously is. I mean, I don't know what to say to her. Maybe she got sick of being the "Carer" to the "patient". I don't blame her actually. But If the shoes were swapped, no way would I leave someone after chemo for 3c grade3 cancer. Like, what does she think love means?
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Dude Iā€™ll respond more later but I can relate to a lot of this. I finished up chemo year and a half back and it damn near killed my relationship. I still wonder if itā€™ll ever recover. Things are just now starting to look up again after a long time of shit.

Itā€™s understandable for people to be tired of that caretaker role but as you said doesnā€™t take the sting out of it. In my case there was some ā€œfor better or worseā€ vows mixed in there too.

Cancer shows you in the harshest of ways whoā€™s got your back and who doesnā€™t. I found out quick most people just wonā€™t understand. Everything from the fear of death to the toxicity and side effects of chemo. They wonā€™t understand. Itā€™s a lonely road.

But I can promise when you DO come out the other side. Life tastes so fucking sweet.

-GC
 
G_Chem said:
I found out quick most people just wonā€™t understand. Everything from the fear of death to the toxicity and side effects of chemo. They wonā€™t understand
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This is what I'm getting, a guy last night in the hotel bar thought I was lying about having cancer.....interesting
 
Sergeant Absent said:
I'm English, but her taste in music was fucking amazing and she was beautiful and we laughed at stuff you know, at the same time...not separately. I took the metallic culture difference as an experience....I actually had no prob with it. I lived in Lithuania fir 3 years and missed y mum and my brother, but I come and visit. Seriously I agree with you that that's a fairly cold approach she took, but her taste in music and clothes was almost unbelievably suited to the way I think about the life I'm in that she could've stabbed me in the night and I'd of still made the coffee in the morning. What does that make me?
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Well....what can we do mate? Life isn't fair....and painful as fk at times too. But we have to be resilient, u mention music and clothes...well those are banal things, there's lots of girls who can have that too, trust me. The real fire challenge was this....ure dying and if she really loved you, she wouldn't have done this. She would have stuck till the end man, whatever happens. That was mega cold, leaving like that.
Well, ya have to worry bout you. First is your Well being then the rest of course, now that she's gone u have to carry on. Don't lose the battle and give up cux of her, she ain't worth it man.
 
@Sergeant Absent just follow your heart mate. Don't torture yourself for someone who isn't worth it, your body is a sacred temple and u have to take care of it, not harm it with hardcore narcotics. Especially now that you're in a vulnerable position, not worth it bro. Yeah it's happened recently I bet it hurts like fuck, but grieve all the time necessary and then move on, just like she moved on from u ughhh. You're worth gold man, fukkk her. Xp
 
Man that sux big time ....keep up the good fight no matter what and remain positive ( yah i know thats sounds easy to say)The human spirit is quite remakable ...just push your way through it all ....and survive to live many more days.Her actions speak volumes about her character and the kind of person she really is....true colours shown.All the best for the future.šŸ–’
 
Man I've been up 98 hours with solid heartbreak, and disgusting sized amounts of bone through a mini Courvoisier bottle which is piping pure silk. Try to understand that aint gonna go down too well.
 
Sergeant Absent said:
Man I've been up 98 hours with solid heartbreak, and disgusting sized amounts of bone through a mini Courvoisier bottle which is piping pure silk. Try to understand that aint gonna go down too well.
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Hey @Sergeant Absent

I've just been reading this thread and I wouldn't have commented except I see you were active 10 mins ago.

I'm just wondering how your body's holding up after having cancer/chemo and now this?

Anyway, sorry you're going through this. Try and stay in touch with other people. I made the mistake of being alone with drugs too long, thinking I could cope, and lost the plot.

Abbey x
 
AbbeyLee said:
Hey @Sergeant Absent

I've just been reading this thread and I wouldn't have commented except I see you were active 10 mins ago.

I'm just wondering how your body's holding up after having cancer/chemo and now this?

Anyway, sorry you're going through this. Try and stay in touch with other people. I made the mistake of being alone with drugs too long, thinking I could cope, and lost the plot.

Abbey x
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Well that's a very astutely observed and timed question, so actually that's a great opening. How long you got?
 
Ok, well, I can feel stuffs bad, particularly with the bone and the alcohol. I'm weak. And I don't give a fuck what people think about this but I'm incredibly lonely too. My acid is quintrupling in my stomach, the cancer will probably come back. I promise you I'm not fishing for sympathy, but the last 5 nights is it? has been fucking major
 
Pleased to meet you by the way Abbey. My brain was already in a compromised state after the chemo (6 months Folfox-4) and piping is doing mad shit to my paranoia, almost full on visual hallucinations of small people in the corner of the room
 
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