BL has shown me things and opened my eyes when often i knew in my heart already of course(and things i really had no clue of) but to hear it from others and not just a book, ect has been pure gold to me, I look like a soccer mom and hid so much well, always but especially these days you cant tell by looking who uses and abuses, i like the way you share even when you're upset, you step back and apologize, you are very thoughtful, because the struggle is in many of us now, and the sober folks , i commend for helping us and contending with our moods and not taking things so to heart, i get it to, and fight for my future and health, when i sometime took things for granted because i was healthy and health orientated, I feel a fool, but its been a grand teacher on whats important, and for you there is healing, theres always healing.