@Shelbel69,
I can absolutely relate to what you’re saying. I have been without romantic love in my life for a year, this month, and I have days where I wonder if I will ever find love again.
I take Oxys; 4 of the 20mg pills daily. They are prescribed, but I don’t think I’m any better, or less addicted to them than anybody else.
The only thing that sets me apart from other daily opiate ab/users is that I’m confident the pills I take are pure. I’m never worried that I’m getting Oxy + fentanyl, or something other than what I’m paying for, or expecting. This doesn’t make my use of opiates a good thing, however.
I have often thought I’d be more likely to reach out to others socially if I stuck to drinking Chardonnay, which is my 2ndary issue, after Oxys. I haven’t been to a bar since the advent of COVID. I also have been less involved in social events. I’m not ugly or fat, and I believe I’m funny, smart and chill.
As for finding love again, I have absolutely zero interest in visiting dating websites. My last boyfriend and I had known each other since we were 5, and having gone to school together, we still have lots of mutual friends. That makes it really difficult to ask my friends to set me up with someone; if I
haven’t met the person previously, chances are my other friends, plus my ex, likely have.
I’m thinking that I need to try and make some new friends, that are completely unrelated to my original group of friends, and perhaps I’ll meet someone new this way. I have a variety of passions, and I believe this may be my ticket to meeting someone new. I collect seashells; maybe I could meet a similar person at the beach. I love planes, maybe I’ll meet a fellow plane enthusiast at an aircraft museum.
Anyway, those are my latest thoughts about how to go about meeting someone new, with similar interests. I do insist that the person I’m with accept that I take Oxys + I enjoy Chardonnay, probably a bit too much. I also want a guy who’s generally open-minded regarding all recreational drug use. I don’t want to be with someone that shares just drug-related issues in common with me; ideally, though. I’d like it if we had other things in common. I’m also willing to relocate, if I met the right person.
I think it may take some work,
@Shelbel69, but I believe that both of us can find new romantic partners. We have to determine what’s important to us in a partner and then figure out the best places and ways to meet such a person.
Good luck to you!