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[FreedomCalls]

Well guys, after a long winter of many unnecessary and unneeded drug binges, lots of money lost and damage done, I finally LOOK and FEEL somewhat presentable.

I am back stabilizing on suboxone, no more heroin in my veins, no cocaine in my body, no MDMA ... etc. No benzos... just suboxone. and alcohol.

But at least when I look at myself in the mirror I APPEAR healthy. While that's mostly not true, I can pull being fine to anyone really.

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BUT the most fucked up thing I did today is:

I just went in my garage, dug thru the trash for a USED UNCAPPED 18 gauge NEEDLE sitting in a pool of various wastes. I retrieved said MULTIPLE USED needle, washed it out 50 times, watered up 4 mg film of suboxone, sucked it up, and then...

To make matters worse,

I self mutalitated the SHIT out of myself becausae of how DULL and HUGE 18 gauge is, as I'm shooting I literally have blood POURING down my arm onto the floor. I HIT it. I did it right, but DAMN I bled like a mofo.

And I think damn, Imagine 8 year old me watching myself do that now.... I would be absolutely horrified. Even 13 or 16 year old me.

So guys, what's the most fucked up thing you did today?

 

[Working_Class]

This sounds like a snapshot of my old life at the kincaid house haha. I've been there bro, as long as they were YOUR needles to begin with. What are 18 gage doing around? That's the size I used to pull from the vial when I was on AAS, pull 18's, switch to 22's.

IV ing with an 18 is masochistic haha, I used to use that size to poke into my brachial artery and let the blood run into a yoghurt container to help bring my hematocrit down to a reasonable level. Too much gear (high dose steroids) makes the body produce excess red blood cells, and thickens the blood thus increasing systolic and pulse pressure to some pretty scary numbers. That was my every 45 days routine. And I've dug slin pins outta the trash to slam morphine, gotta clean em good!

Today, I didn't manage to stay sober, but I used the bare minimum. 2 g of kratom, 2 mg selank, 1 coffee, 275 mg pregabalin, studied, ate and trained. Just about to smoke a joint. Compared to days past, this has been a decently civil one! I'll give myself a lil pat on the back.

And just, try to get some proper pins bro! How was the feeling of pinning suboxone anyways? I thought that shit was for blocking the effects of withdrawal, with no recreational value?

 

[codydion]

i went to work. that fucked me up.

 

[FreedomCalls]

This sounds like a snapshot of my old life at the kincaid house haha. I've been there bro, as long as they were YOUR needles to begin with. What are 18 gage doing around? That's the size I used to pull from the vial when I was on AAS, pull 18's, switch to 22's.

IV ing with an 18 is masochistic haha, I used to use that size to poke into my brachial artery and let the blood run into a yoghurt container to help bring my hematocrit down to a reasonable level. Too much gear (high dose steroids) makes the body produce excess red blood cells, and thickens the blood thus increasing systolic and pulse pressure to some pretty scary numbers. That was my every 45 days routine. And I've dug slin pins outta the trash to slam morphine, gotta clean em good!

Today, I didn't manage to stay sober, but I used the bare minimum. 2 g of kratom, 2 mg selank, 1 coffee, 275 mg pregabalin, studied, ate and trained. Just about to smoke a joint. Compared to days past, this has been a decently civil one! I'll give myself a lil pat on the back.

And just, try to get some proper pins bro! How was the feeling of pinning suboxone anyways? I thought that shit was for blocking the effects of withdrawal, with no recreational value?

That's exactly what it was used for, AAS cycle from last summer that was sitting around, I threw out the other day, then remembered I had a needle ... sort of.. in the trash. Same as you I go 18 to draw and swap to a 23 or 25g and did Test, well last summer at least.

Pinning suboxone has no rush, but for whatever reason it's the only way the drug really works for me. Otherwise any other ROA I'm still fiending or unsatisfied. I can't really explain it other than pinning it gives me a high amount of Bupe, and maybe Naloxone is not active in the bloodstream? I really don't know but I think I'm allergic to naloxone cause suboxone in general makes me feel pretty off in general. But not when I shoot it, hence the obsession to do so.

And needles are a pain to get in my state, but I got 3 boxes of 100 on the way in the mail! Good or bad thing, it is what it is. Probably do another AAS cycle being that it's summer, gotta look good and get out once this quarantine ends

It's pretty sad I went to those lengths given the place I am in right now, but it is what it is. If you saw me on the street or at a store you'd never be like, oh that dude used a dirty old steroid needle and masochistic'ed himself today.

Progress not perfection, am I right? Gotta give ourselves those little pats on the back as we make small victories. I call your a day a victory, and you should too. It's good to throw some normality in the mix once in a while hahaha. I can say I've had worse days than today so I'm alright with it, given the fact I don't get an abscess or something. Idk If I'm just lucky but I've never had an abscess or infection knock on wood, and I never alcohol swab or follow protocol to a T with sterilization.

 

[FreedomCalls]

i went to work. that fucked me up.

I've had those days that's for sure. Hope it was an odd one out, or maybe think about a new job? I know the struggle there tho.

 

[codydion]

just one of those days. when all of the shit winds collide and make a shit storm. shit sucks

 

[Juniper Bruhmomentius]

Had a massive diarrhea and bought 4 energy drinks today. Not good.

 

[Lil'LinaptkSix]

Woke up and ate .5mg alprazolam
Then hit some gg4 with a piece of crude *shatter created atop it.
Day may be done before it got started....

Bout half of the shit after trying to get it all up after smashing it and it started melting. Gave half to a contributor ~1g and he's lovin it... says it make a bowl of weed last 5x as long he felt super relaxed as soon as hit took the first hit (he is a heavy, everyday smoker).
Gonna refine the process and try again.
Maybe mix some good with it if the ratios come out right. Research and recalculations.
hahahaha

 

[LadyAlkaline]

I didn't do the dishes on purpose so my sister's boyfriend would finally do some dishes after a month of being here

 

[Working_Class]

Well guys, after a long winter of many unnecessary and unneeded drug binges, lots of money lost and damage done, I finally LOOK and FEEL somewhat presentable.

I am back stabilizing on suboxone, no more heroin in my veins, no cocaine in my body, no MDMA ... etc. No benzos... just suboxone. and alcohol.

But at least when I look at myself in the mirror I APPEAR healthy. While that's mostly not true, I can pull being fine to anyone really.

-----

BUT the most fucked up thing I did today is:

I just went in my garage, dug thru the trash for a USED UNCAPPED 18 gauge NEEDLE sitting in a pool of various wastes. I retrieved said MULTIPLE USED needle, washed it out 50 times, watered up 4 mg film of suboxone, sucked it up, and then...

To make matters worse,

I self mutalitated the SHIT out of myself becausae of how DULL and HUGE 18 gauge is, as I'm shooting I literally have blood POURING down my arm onto the floor. I HIT it. I did it right, but DAMN I bled like a mofo.

And I think damn, Imagine 8 year old me watching myself do that now.... I would be absolutely horrified. Even 13 or 16 year old me.

So guys, what's the most fucked up thing you did today?

Bro, I've been a savage junkie and you, are a savage haha. You know what you're up to though, just try to plan things so you have another try at it Tomorrow!

The pinning suboxone seems like a psychological affinity for the injection process. I'd suggest shooting some peptides IV instead to give you that "IV pleasure", but with some (hopefully) added benefits. They aren't cheap, but they have some pretty interesting effects. Gotta say I've done my fair share of experimentation IV.

And yo! Disinfect, shower first and everything, a serious abscess is not something you wanna deal with, I've had one even with good injection practices and dude it ruined my last JR year in powerlifting. Completely swollen ass cheek, couod hardly deadlift 705, only squatted 450, missed a 400 bench. It was a complete wash because of that ass cheek. What a waste of 4 months of preparation haha.

My target numbers were a 730 deadlift, 600 lb squat and a 400 bench. I didn't even beat any if the numbers I set in the previous show, that is my definition of a useless training cycle. Falling short of previous numbers at the next show hurts almost as much as that absess, and that ass cheek STILL 5 years later doesn't work right haha.

How old are you if you don't mind my asking?

And a few sane days here and there sure don't hurt. If you're looking for a non addictive IV rush, you should try injecting DPT, after proper PH and dissolution is achieved in bacteriostatic water of course! Other worldly. Too intense for me to re visit any time soon TBH, I'll stick to smoking and eating tryptamines for the next while. The high is very unique with that class of drug, causes a fair bit of reflection and introspective analyses.

 

[THECATINTHEHAT]

Nothing really, reasonably crisis free day.

I dosed some testosterone and some mandoline which is not ideal really bit in the grand scheme of things is not terrible.

 

[Working_Class]

Do you mean masteron? ^^

 

[THECATINTHEHAT]

No, deca durabolin.

Edit: just seen the auto correct mistake, it corrected from nandrolone :D

 

[LadyAlkaline]

Well guys, after a long winter of many unnecessary and unneeded drug binges, lots of money lost and damage done, I finally LOOK and FEEL somewhat presentable.

I am back stabilizing on suboxone, no more heroin in my veins, no cocaine in my body, no MDMA ... etc. No benzos... just suboxone. and alcohol.

But at least when I look at myself in the mirror I APPEAR healthy. While that's mostly not true, I can pull being fine to anyone really.

-----

BUT the most fucked up thing I did today is:

I just went in my garage, dug thru the trash for a USED UNCAPPED 18 gauge NEEDLE sitting in a pool of various wastes. I retrieved said MULTIPLE USED needle, washed it out 50 times, watered up 4 mg film of suboxone, sucked it up, and then...

To make matters worse,

I self mutalitated the SHIT out of myself becausae of how DULL and HUGE 18 gauge is, as I'm shooting I literally have blood POURING down my arm onto the floor. I HIT it. I did it right, but DAMN I bled like a mofo.

And I think damn, Imagine 8 year old me watching myself do that now.... I would be absolutely horrified. Even 13 or 16 year old me.

So guys, what's the most fucked up thing you did today?

Hey, please inbox me. I can get you some fresh rigs. Please don't do this to yourself. I've been to the point of mutilating myself for a hit, but this is so dangerous and is destroying your veins. I am not judging you, I have had people help me before and I'd like to pay it forward.

 

[FreedomCalls]

Bro, I've been a savage junkie and you, are a savage haha. You know what you're up to though, just try to plan things so you have another try at it Tomorrow!

The pinning suboxone seems like a psychological affinity for the injection process. I'd suggest shooting some peptides IV instead to give you that "IV pleasure", but with some (hopefully) added benefits. They aren't cheap, but they have some pretty interesting effects. Gotta say I've done my fair share of experimentation IV.

And yo! Disinfect, shower first and everything, a serious abscess is not something you wanna deal with, I've had one even with good injection practices and dude it ruined my last JR year in powerlifting. Completely swollen ass cheek, couod hardly deadlift 705, only squatted 450, missed a 400 bench. It was a complete wash because of that ass cheek. What a waste of 4 months of preparation haha.

My target numbers were a 730 deadlift, 600 lb squat and a 400 bench. I didn't even beat any if the numbers I set in the previous show, that is my definition of a useless training cycle. Falling short of previous numbers at the next show hurts almost as much as that absess, and that ass cheek STILL 5 years later doesn't work right haha.

How old are you if you don't mind my asking?

And a few sane days here and there sure don't hurt. If you're looking for a non addictive IV rush, you should try injecting DPT, after proper PH and dissolution is achieved in bacteriostatic water of course! Other worldly. Too intense for me to re visit any time soon TBH, I'll stick to smoking and eating tryptamines for the next while. The high is very unique with that class of drug, causes a fair bit of reflection and introspective analyses.

Interesting. I actually have some BPC-157 I wonder if you could IV it? I've IM injected it before and usually do so.

I'm 26 years old. And damn that's horrible timing. Abcesses have always scared me I'll make sure I do my best to never get one, probably was something in the gear unfortunately.

I'll look into DPT that's interesting haha.

 

[FreedomCalls]

Hey, please inbox me. I can get you some fresh rigs. Please don't do this to yourself. I've been to the point of mutilating myself for a hit, but this is so dangerous and is destroying your veins. I am not judging you, I have had people help me before and I'd like to pay it forward.

Hi thank you for the offer I have a box of 300 coming in today so that should never have to happen again thankfully.

Thank you.

 

[nznity]

Well guys, after a long winter of many unnecessary and unneeded drug binges, lots of money lost and damage done, I finally LOOK and FEEL somewhat presentable.

I am back stabilizing on suboxone, no more heroin in my veins, no cocaine in my body, no MDMA ... etc. No benzos... just suboxone. and alcohol.

But at least when I look at myself in the mirror I APPEAR healthy. While that's mostly not true, I can pull being fine to anyone really.

-----

BUT the most fucked up thing I did today is:

I just went in my garage, dug thru the trash for a USED UNCAPPED 18 gauge NEEDLE sitting in a pool of various wastes. I retrieved said MULTIPLE USED needle, washed it out 50 times, watered up 4 mg film of suboxone, sucked it up, and then...

To make matters worse,

I self mutalitated the SHIT out of myself becausae of how DULL and HUGE 18 gauge is, as I'm shooting I literally have blood POURING down my arm onto the floor. I HIT it. I did it right, but DAMN I bled like a mofo.

And I think damn, Imagine 8 year old me watching myself do that now.... I would be absolutely horrified. Even 13 or 16 year old me.

So guys, what's the most fucked up thing you did today?

Bro, thst reminds me of my 20 yo self. Looking for used cottons in the garbage, reusing needles AND making incision after incision nto my skin. What a fking dickhead i was.

 

[THECATINTHEHAT]

IV ing with an 18 is masochistic haha, I used to use that size to poke into my brachial artery and let the blood run into a yoghurt container to help bring my hematocrit down to a reasonable level.

Unless you're a doctor or a phlebotomist of some sort then that is fucking insane good sir.

I just went in my garage, dug thru the trash for a USED UNCAPPED 18 gauge NEEDLE sitting in a pool of various wastes. I retrieved said MULTIPLE USED needle, washed it out 50 times, watered up 4 mg film of suboxone, sucked it up, and then...

You think that's bad (and it is), I once cut open my sharps bin that I had been using for weeks and emptied out any needles that still had anything in the barrel (quite often I wasnt able to get the full shot to go in and would give up if I had been trying for hours already) and then sucked up the mix of what was mainly congealed blood in to a new syringe and then injected that. Had to try and force is out of the needle because the clots in the blood kept blocking it.

That was not a good point in my life.

 

[LadyAlkaline]

Unless you're a doctor or a phlebotomist of some sort then that is fucking insane good sir.



You think that's bad (and it is), I once cut open my sharps bin that I had been using for weeks and emptied out any needles that still had anything in the barrel (quite often I wasnt able to get the full shot to go in and would give up if I had been trying for hours already) and then sucked up the mix of what was mainly congealed blood in to a new syringe and then injected that. Had to try and force is out of the needle because the clots in the blood kept blocking it.

That was not a good point in my life.

The best thing for that, for anyone who is reading this, squirt everything out of the syringes into a clear glass pan, add your old cottons and wash with denatured alcohol and allow it to dry. This helps to separate the old blood from the good material that may be left. To be safe you can wash with acetone after crystallization

 

[FreedomCalls]

Unless you're a doctor or a phlebotomist of some sort then that is fucking insane good sir.



You think that's bad (and it is), I once cut open my sharps bin that I had been using for weeks and emptied out any needles that still had anything in the barrel (quite often I wasnt able to get the full shot to go in and would give up if I had been trying for hours already) and then sucked up the mix of what was mainly congealed blood in to a new syringe and then injected that. Had to try and force is out of the needle because the clots in the blood kept blocking it.

That was not a good point in my life.

Yep. I worried about that once found an old syringe with half a shot and a huge blood clot in it. Didn't have it in me to shoot it, was too scared it would kill me. Plus the syringe had turned maroon / purple from cocaine and blood? Idk didn't look appetizing lol