manofadude
Bluelighter
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- Jan 6, 2017
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Took a 1mg kpin and it's been making me feel good but not taking away all my psychological symptoms at all :/ really need to see a doc and get a cat scan
Yeah I've tried a number of SSRI's, remeron, and others. None of them worked very well
It sounds like your mom yelling is really what's upsetting you.
The car breaking down really sucks, but you might have needed to get it towed anyways. It was nice for her to pay for it, but it seems unfair that she's yelling at you over it.
She just has anger issues and takes it out on whoever or whatever is around just so everyone knows she is pissed. Yeah I appreciate her paying for it but it just feeds into the narrative of me being a burden on my family financially. But your right seeing my mom upset really does bother me. I just want her to be happy. It makes me wonder if she would be happier with me not in her life.
I know TPD it was a much needed break from tapering honestly.
She can still be "in your life" without seeing you on a daily basis. It's easier when you have distance from someone like that. When you're on the phone, if she's acting out, you can hang up so it stops taking a toll on you.
I definitely think you should move out as soon as possible, that or get adult services/mental health involved for her sake, since she does have issues. Everyone deserves to get help when they need it.![]()
AMEN! This was my experience. I have no doubt that, when you find the right opportunity, it will be yours as well as cj. Getting parents help can be very tricky, that is all I will say on that subject though
Why do you say you think your current script is gonna last the month through cj? I'd love to hear what your harm reduction plan is in for your benzo use this month.
Apologies for not ringing, big day here Saturday. I still owe ya that phone call, don't I![]()
Its going to last because I bought some illicit benzos. Otherwise I was going to be 2 days short from me being greedy and stealing pills out of my bottle even though my mom tried to hide it. Some days I need more then 2 mg I don't think that's a big deal. I am not going off the deep end willy nilly I promise. Doctor appointment Thursday original script should have lasted till Sunday but I can usually get a refill 3 days early.
Just hanging out with someone I like has brought my mood up so much. I miss just hanging out and shooting the shit with someone. especially really intelligent people.
Call me anytime brother
Yeah, it takes a while to come up with a really thorough, concrete plan of action for this kind of thing, there is no rush. Generally there is one specific plan for each identifiable substance/behavior that has been problematic in the past.
Talk you you soon brother!![]()