ElvisPillsley
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Apr 10, 2014
- Messages
- 60
Not saying I don't love 'em, but as I said they're sorta scary most of the time now, and almost always sorta uncomfortable for some amount of time.
I can't describe how fuckin' much I love(d) the feeling a SB gave me. I suppose if you have done them you get what I mean, at least so far the indescribable part. Now, even though I have been using far less quantity of the each ingredient on every SB, as I said they kinda have an unpleasant aspect. Sorta makes me sad to think I could lose something that I could turn to for a feeling and pleasure nothing else can give, nothing even compares. To clarify, I don't mean SBs are the best pleasure of life and that I'd take a SB over any of life's sweet moments, not at all. But as for chemical vacations, SBs ARE it to the point that using either ingredient alone is like, a drag. I sorta laugh and sorta wanna cry at myself realizing that H, for me, just isn't sufficient - gotta take that and go further with it. Hey, if you're gonna have en expensive habit, fuck it, go ahead and double the cost for yourself.
So, any idea what would cause this? Both ingredients are super high quality to the point that I can't buy from other people - certainly not the blow. It's grade A, breaks down 100% clear with no cut, it's primo. Dope is also very good. A friend suggested it's that I've lost weight and sometimes don't eat much, though I haven't lost much if any weight in the recent time this has started happening. I've also wondered if being sleep deprived has any impact, some of the times this has happened I've been up for days, other times like today I got 8+ hours.
Hey maybe it's a blessing, if I came to hate speedballs I'd be better for it. If I had the choice I'd do them maybe once a month or so, just an occasional treat. That however, isn't how this shit works so I guess hating them is the most reliable way out.
I can't describe how fuckin' much I love(d) the feeling a SB gave me. I suppose if you have done them you get what I mean, at least so far the indescribable part. Now, even though I have been using far less quantity of the each ingredient on every SB, as I said they kinda have an unpleasant aspect. Sorta makes me sad to think I could lose something that I could turn to for a feeling and pleasure nothing else can give, nothing even compares. To clarify, I don't mean SBs are the best pleasure of life and that I'd take a SB over any of life's sweet moments, not at all. But as for chemical vacations, SBs ARE it to the point that using either ingredient alone is like, a drag. I sorta laugh and sorta wanna cry at myself realizing that H, for me, just isn't sufficient - gotta take that and go further with it. Hey, if you're gonna have en expensive habit, fuck it, go ahead and double the cost for yourself.
So, any idea what would cause this? Both ingredients are super high quality to the point that I can't buy from other people - certainly not the blow. It's grade A, breaks down 100% clear with no cut, it's primo. Dope is also very good. A friend suggested it's that I've lost weight and sometimes don't eat much, though I haven't lost much if any weight in the recent time this has started happening. I've also wondered if being sleep deprived has any impact, some of the times this has happened I've been up for days, other times like today I got 8+ hours.
Hey maybe it's a blessing, if I came to hate speedballs I'd be better for it. If I had the choice I'd do them maybe once a month or so, just an occasional treat. That however, isn't how this shit works so I guess hating them is the most reliable way out.