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Page 39 of the text, page 9 of the file starts a decent overview on how the SSRI's work

http://people.ucsc.edu/~chlking/Tra...thesis - Jonathan Haidt, p.23-44, 135-153.pdf

Yeah im moving back to CO.. I had to move back to WI after living there for many years as I was so ill and needed the help and support of my family. But yeah Im just waiting for the project im going to be working at to be completed. Pretty excited, but am really all set to get my life back if you know what I mean.. patients right.. i seriously have no fucking patients.

But im really excited too.
 
Safe I'll have a read through that. It's rare that I take a med or drug without having a pretty thorough understanding but I was in a pretty bad place and just went with it.

Had to hit google so any of that co wi stuff made sense to my limey ass=D Sounds like quite an exciting time! Pretty significant and encouraging step in you recovery that's for sure, must be a good feeling.
 
Aghhh errrr,

looking for a pain management clinic for my spine and shoulder excreta....
 
Damn I remember 'I just need to post' threads where jumping, I was looking back at the older ones? What happened where the fuck is stardust?
 
gr33n3y3z said:
looking for a pain management clinic for my spine and shoulder excreta....
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Man I feel you, my shoulder is getting so painful. I'm on diclofenac (as much as I want really) and a very tightly controlled regime of dihydrocodeine (I get 30x30mg a month) which deals with about a day or two of pain. I understand that even this is a risk but I'm working closely with my doctor and I don't feel guilty for having it. Just want my surgery over and done with.


Anyway....just came in here because I had a craving for diazepam and I don't really have anyone to share it with so I thought I would put it down here.
 
Anyone have some advice for how to do well in calculus? I hate math with a burning passion. It's so uninteresting and frustrating for me to learn the concepts because I generally don't care. But I can't afford to do poorly.

I know it's not right but im at that point where I literally want to put zero hours a week into it. I can't stand math. I hate practicing it. Our homework is useless too because we aren't given any answers so you pretty much just do your homework to get a nice fat "F" back.

Like I'm graded on the thing that is supposed to help me practice. I have no patience for math but I can't just use that as my excuse :( I need help. Strategies. Something.

neversickanymore said:
Yeah im moving back to CO.. I had to move back to WI after living there for many years as I was so ill and needed the help and support of my family. But yeah Im just waiting for the project im going to be working at to be completed. Pretty excited, but am really all set to get my life back if you know what I mean.. patients right.. i seriously have no fucking patients.

But im really excited too.
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What part of Colorado?
 
I lived in The fort, steamboat, gunny, crested butte, phippsburg, stage coach..

I will be moving way down south on the front range. Have not lived down there yet.. but the location is work related. Possibly to move up D town way in a couple of years. :D
 
Ahhh I just moved to FoCo not too long ago. I'll be in Denver for the summer though. Perhaps a BL meet up is in order :)
 
I think so.. I still have a ton of really good friends up in foco.. so I will be up there.

You like sushi? If so a little suhiro time might be in order.
 
neversickanymore said:
I think so.. I still have a ton of really good friends up in foco.. so I will be up there.

You like sushi? If so a little suhiro time might be in order.
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I love sushi too but I love sashimi more, but if you are ever in Vancity hit me up and we will go to all you can eat jap places. If not we can go to the ramen place I always go to and I promise you, you will get addicted to it like I have!!
 
All these Bluelight shrines... I can't handle this. Keep yourselves safe guys :/
 
I feel the same way badfish, we need to keep ourselves in check and remember life is too short but we can always make the best of it.

One day at a time guys and gals please look out for yourselves get help if needed, whatever the problem is. I'm always here for support to whomever. PM me if needed.
 
^Nice to have a support network here on BL. People live very risky life styles and have very fragile states of mind and it's good that we are aware of that. We just want you all to be safe...even if people don't feel like they matter, well look at the shrine. Many people who thought they didn't matter and the loss of their lives causes mass devastation.
 
badfish45 said:
^Nice to have a support network here on BL. People live very risky life styles and have very fragile states of mind and it's good that we are aware of that. We just want you all to be safe...even if people don't feel like they matter, well look at the shrine. Many people who thought they didn't matter and the loss of their lives causes mass devastation.
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Absolutely, everyone is important somehow, and I believe we all matter in one way or the other..:\
 
Damn everyone, I just need to post this. My wife told me she wants a divorce yesterday and I've been having a hard time. I came out to Seattle after highschool partly as an adventure and partly to get away from bad influences and ppl I used drugs with. Ive been away from PA the last 6 years and during that time met my lovely wife. Well there's a lot to explain but I'm flying back to PA Tuesday to live with my parents at 24 years old :(

I feel emotionally wrecked and have been having panic attacks. I have been taking some gabapentin, vistaril, and inderal to help. I used to be prescribed clonazepam and I intend to go see a psych again. I'm contemplating getting on the pins as quality of life was pretty good then. I know its a crutch but fuck I feel down. Thanks for letting me vent. Send good vibes my way please.
 
Wow that's rough. I'm so sorry you have to deal with that. I hope you can find some better mindfulness resources on this site...they're all over. But I can't speak since I can't fathom that sort of pain.

Take things one step at a time. One day at a time. Sending all my love your way <3
 
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Damn everyone, I just need to post this. My wife told me she wants a divorce yesterday and I've been having a hard time. I came out to Seattle after highschool partly as an adventure and partly to get away from bad influences and ppl I used drugs with. Ive been away from PA the last 6 years and during that time met my lovely wife. Well there's a lot to explain but I'm flying back to PA Tuesday to live with my parents at 24 years old :(

I feel emotionally wrecked and have been having panic attacks. I have been taking some gabapentin, vistaril, and inderal to help. I used to be prescribed clonazepam and I intend to go see a psych again. I'm contemplating getting on the pins as quality of life was pretty good then. I know its a crutch but fuck I feel down. Thanks for letting me vent. Send good vibes my way please.
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I am so sorry. That is a terrible loss and nothing undermines your sense of self like the rejection by someone you love. But don't take this circumstance and use it as an excuse to wreck yourself. You don't need crutches, you need time and support and faith in yourself. Is your family home a place where you can rest and heal? Life changes and people change, too. Try not to take this personally and start a negative dialogue in your own head. You will find love again by being whole, by being loving yourself, by being open and kind and excited by your own life. Make that your goal and healing will come naturally. It is important to grieve a loss but stay light on your feet and don't get stuck there.<3
 
I feel like a huge failure today.

On so many levels I am disappointed in myself. I have made the decisions to drop one of my courses; I am doing very poorly in it, the material simply isn't getting through to me and I don't feel like I have the energy in me this semester to actually put the work in. That's honestly it. I'm lazy. I did not work hard at this class at all and I am suffering and paying the consequences for it but for some reason I feel this HUGE aversion to it. I can't imagine any way in which I could motivate myself to do the class this semester. And that makes me feel like a failure because I am an adult now taking adult level classes and this feels like a BULLSHIT excuse to drop a class and waste my parents money. And it's just because I don't "feel" like doing it. Math is dreadful to me. I can't even begin to explain how it psychologically feels to put work into this class, and I feel really guilty for not being able to follow through and be responsible. I don't really know where to go from here.

I also smoked weed literally 2 and a half days after saying I wouldn't, and certainly paid the price for it. I woke up this morning super depressed. huh, big surprise, considering only 3 days ago I had a major suicidal and depressive breakdown. Being sober actually made me feel good, I don't know why I broke that so soon. I really can't commit to anything difficult.

These problems seem so trivial in the wide scope of things; people fight everyday just to live and get food and I can't stay away from weed or complete a math course that cost a shit ton of my parent's money. I have no idea how I'm going to make it in the real world.
 
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