jchris93
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- May 30, 2014
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Not sure where to post this. It belongs somewhere between Harm Reduction & Trip Report, but I'm having some navigational problems.
I have something of a dilemma which has followed me for years, thirty to be exact.
When I was 15 I accidentally crammed too much self-analysis into a 4-5 hour period. The catalyst was psilocybin, and in amounts that would have had Timothy Leary running for a syringe of Thorazine to help me.
This event precipitated trouble of a complicate nature that has been debilitating. With social anxiety and agoraphobia, I feel like I've been walking in the desert, alone with this enormous task, forever. While I understand the situation more than one really could ever hope, being objective about such subjective matters is, shall we say, impossible? I've sought out all manner of professional help. But out of perhaps two dozen psychologists, nearly as many psychiatrists, and just vast numbers of people in psyche-centric fields, all I have to do is mention "Well one time as a kid I took psilocybin and it was (that's as far as the discussion is ever really allowed.)
It seemed obvious to me that if psilocybin is relatively mild to LSD, surely LSD must be the worst thing on earth! But to the contrary, when I eventually took that opportunity it agreed with my chemistry very well. I've taken it about 12 times, and every exprience was entirely pleasant at the least. Without thinking, I've blurted out the statement, "Acid makes me feel normal." Those that need or otherwise live in fear were horrified by that.
Why would the people most specialized in understanding the human mind go out of their way to avoid such interesting even crucial aspects of it?
Anyone who has thoughts on this matter, I would enjoy hearing them.
Sincerely
JChris
I have something of a dilemma which has followed me for years, thirty to be exact.
When I was 15 I accidentally crammed too much self-analysis into a 4-5 hour period. The catalyst was psilocybin, and in amounts that would have had Timothy Leary running for a syringe of Thorazine to help me.
This event precipitated trouble of a complicate nature that has been debilitating. With social anxiety and agoraphobia, I feel like I've been walking in the desert, alone with this enormous task, forever. While I understand the situation more than one really could ever hope, being objective about such subjective matters is, shall we say, impossible? I've sought out all manner of professional help. But out of perhaps two dozen psychologists, nearly as many psychiatrists, and just vast numbers of people in psyche-centric fields, all I have to do is mention "Well one time as a kid I took psilocybin and it was (that's as far as the discussion is ever really allowed.)
It seemed obvious to me that if psilocybin is relatively mild to LSD, surely LSD must be the worst thing on earth! But to the contrary, when I eventually took that opportunity it agreed with my chemistry very well. I've taken it about 12 times, and every exprience was entirely pleasant at the least. Without thinking, I've blurted out the statement, "Acid makes me feel normal." Those that need or otherwise live in fear were horrified by that.
Why would the people most specialized in understanding the human mind go out of their way to avoid such interesting even crucial aspects of it?
Anyone who has thoughts on this matter, I would enjoy hearing them.
Sincerely
JChris
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