It's feels great, it's awesome, so naturally you want to keep doing things that are awesome.
amiright.
ugh so i saw another thread, something similar but 'how to keep a low tolerance"
DEPENDS ON HOW MUCH YOU LIKE THE DRUG, REALLY
and your impulse control situation once you know.
uh. weed high is annoying for me now but comedown is even worse. if given the opportunity i might just smoke myself unconscious rather than come down, even though i am not really enjoying the high. i mean say there is some magical god hand coming down from the sky, handing me bowl after bowl, as soon as i started to come down. i might just take it. forever and forever.
i would prefer opiates over uppers as far as high, but which comedown affects me more? (aka am i going to want to avoid the aftermath of doing a lot of then running out): uppers. i can handle some cold sweats and nausea over a bad fucking crash any day. (contradicted myself there. could have just said i prefer the whole package of opiates more, but uppers have different uses, more practical perhaps, and are generally more accepted/easier to get, depending)
i experienced hating returning to reality for the maybe two weeks or so i actually quit smoking weed in high school, complete with screaming nightmares (about, i shit you not, trying to inhale and not being able to). that being said....haha...ah. god no. returning to normal mediocrity is going to be annoying for anyone, depends on the degree with which you want to escape. doesn't come close to the hell that is your body also turning against you and feeling 100% the opposite, worse, worse than you did before. it's a fun game where the body kicks the shit out of itself and also your mind, in the process.
burroughs wrote something about how ridic exaggerated getting a junk habit is, and i'd say he was kind of purposefully overshooting it, or junk is worse now or something but you have to commit to get a real habit, and that takes mental commitment first. i knew my body was going to be against me because i was aware, but i don't think anyone can be seriously aware of what it means when you start using anything with bad withdrawals/detox
your heroin addiction (?) didn't hit because you did heroin once and felt like you HAD to get more immediately thereafter because goddamn it just felt so good you're like a shopaholic with unlimited credit inside the heroin mall. it hit because you fucked your body up to a state of needing it to just be comfortable.