16th issue General Heroin Discussion v hit it raw or bag it up?

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^ I would totally get you high for fixing my computer. My ball pein hammer must be the wrong tool for the job.
 
I appreciate the sentiment, its actually worked out like that a handful of times. I dont know what the fuck ive been doing lately though I'm seriously going out of my way to just burn money right into my nose and its just starting to drive me crazy in and of itself. Waking up the next day and just thinking about all the other shit I could have put the money I spent the night prior towards gets me more upset than the actual dope makes me happy. And I know this going into the purchase, but I still fucking do it anyway. I had a 30 minute conversation with myself in pitch darkness (didnt even realize the TV wasnt on and was sitting on the couch witn remote in hand) last night about why the 2nd Wild Card in baseball is a bad idea, like what the hell am I doing with my life

I couldnt even consider a lot of my old hobbies actual hobbies anymore because that would imply I still toyed around with them at least every now and then. My current hobby is to get high on heroin and talk to myself I guess. or bluelight
 
shimazu said:
I appreciate the sentiment, its actually worked out like that a handful of times. I dont know what the fuck ive been doing lately though I'm seriously going out of my way to just burn money right into my nose and its just starting to drive me crazy in and of itself. Waking up the next day and just thinking about all the other shit I could have put the money I spent the night prior towards gets me more upset than the actual dope makes me happy. And I know this going into the purchase, but I still fucking do it anyway. I had a 30 minute conversation with myself in pitch darkness (didnt even realize the TV wasnt on and was sitting on the couch witn remote in hand) last night about why the 2nd Wild Card in baseball is a bad idea, like what the hell am I doing with my life

I couldnt even consider a lot of my old hobbies actual hobbies anymore because that would imply I still toyed around with them at least every now and then. My current hobby is to get high on heroin and talk to myself I guess. or bluelight
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Yeah H has a way of sucking you dry to the point where you don't do anything you love anymore.
 
the real big difference (and therefore, cause of my frustration) between my usage at this point in time and my usage at this time last year was I still had money from my previous job I had just left saved up whereas now all of my expenses are all going towards bullshit stuff and I'm not making nearly as much money. I guess when I knew I would be able to comfortably supply myself with dope I didn't really consider it such a powerful commodity

although I am glad I got this job too because there are a lot of ways to move up especially in a field that I would have interest in and it really is such a laid back organization and I have made a good impression on some people who could definitely help me get to those higher paying jobs. I just can't stand going to school though, the whole premise of college just turns me off. It's not that I think I would be able to just do those jobs I just mentioned without a degree, it's the fact that I know I would be able to. But a fucking piece of paper that shows I can get myself into huge amounts of debt to learn how to write a thesis statement is going to prevent that from happening? Seriously fuck college man I should have never went back to this shit. Obviously, from an outsider's perspective it would just seem like I'm a heroin addict who is salty after going on a binge but I really was pretty fucking set at 19 with a sweet ass job I more or less answered to no one to considering I almost never fucked anything up and it was all based off using a computer system to keep track of expensive materials and collecting and delivering them to mechanics located throughout the complex. If I get back there im not going back to school, and this is the last time I'm flip-flopping on this. I let myself be convinced I could do better with a college degree, and I probably could, but I also live a pretty simple lifestyle outside of using drugs so I'm not really sure why I would need a lot of money in the first place. I can cut my expenses down to Judaism levels if I have to, fuck im just rambling now dont mind me....
 
shimazu said:
the real big difference (and therefore, cause of my frustration) between my usage at this point in time and my usage at this time last year was I still had money from my previous job I had just left saved up whereas now all of my expenses are all going towards bullshit stuff and I'm not making nearly as much money. I guess when I knew I would be able to comfortably supply myself with dope I didn't really consider it such a powerful commodity

although I am glad I got this job too because there are a lot of ways to move up especially in a field that I would have interest in and it really is such a laid back organization and I have made a good impression on some people who could definitely help me get to those higher paying jobs. I just can't stand going to school though, the whole premise of college just turns me off. It's not that I think I would be able to just do those jobs I just mentioned without a degree, it's the fact that I know I would be able to. But a fucking piece of paper that shows I can get myself into huge amounts of debt to learn how to write a thesis statement is going to prevent that from happening? Seriously fuck college man I should have never went back to this shit. Obviously, from an outsider's perspective it would just seem like I'm a heroin addict who is salty after going on a binge but I really was pretty fucking set at 19 with a sweet ass job I more or less answered to no one to considering I almost never fucked anything up and it was all based off using a computer system to keep track of expensive materials and collecting and delivering them to mechanics located throughout the complex. If I get back there im not going back to school, and this is the last time I'm flip-flopping on this. I let myself be convinced I could do better with a college degree, and I probably could, but I also live a pretty simple lifestyle outside of using drugs so I'm not really sure why I would need a lot of money in the first place. I can cut my expenses down to Judaism levels if I have to, fuck im just rambling now dont mind me....
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I agree that college is highly overrated
 
yeah im just salty now because its tuesday among other things. I shouldnt really get this thread off topic with bullshit since the main reason im in this situation is the topic itself and to try and deny that is just ignorant. But I do like reading this thread I'm not gonna lie it is pretty interesting to see the subtle differences in areas but the same general practices taking place. Hopefully you guys are all covering your ps and qs and not letting it get to you like it does to me sometimes.
 
^ I think it gets to all of us sometimes. That just makes you want to use more to forget about it, and the cycle continues. Fucking life just sucks sometimes. Ugh!!
 
last time i was in my dope run i wasnt a very functional addict i would just get as high as possible and not do anything. Now i have a job, hang out with friends and do stuff because i usually just do enough to get a little high to where my body is is mostly pain free. I dont know how long i can keep it up but dope has improved my life tremendously, im able to be me rather than in pain all the time and depressed
 
shimazu said:
the real big difference (and therefore, cause of my frustration) between my usage at this point in time and my usage at this time last year was I still had money from my previous job I had just left saved up whereas now all of my expenses are all going towards bullshit stuff and I'm not making nearly as much money. I guess when I knew I would be able to comfortably supply myself with dope I didn't really consider it such a powerful commodity

although I am glad I got this job too because there are a lot of ways to move up especially in a field that I would have interest in and it really is such a laid back organization and I have made a good impression on some people who could definitely help me get to those higher paying jobs. I just can't stand going to school though, the whole premise of college just turns me off. It's not that I think I would be able to just do those jobs I just mentioned without a degree, it's the fact that I know I would be able to. But a fucking piece of paper that shows I can get myself into huge amounts of debt to learn how to write a thesis statement is going to prevent that from happening? Seriously fuck college man I should have never went back to this shit. Obviously, from an outsider's perspective it would just seem like I'm a heroin addict who is salty after going on a binge but I really was pretty fucking set at 19 with a sweet ass job I more or less answered to no one to considering I almost never fucked anything up and it was all based off using a computer system to keep track of expensive materials and collecting and delivering them to mechanics located throughout the complex. If I get back there im not going back to school, and this is the last time I'm flip-flopping on this. I let myself be convinced I could do better with a college degree, and I probably could, but I also live a pretty simple lifestyle outside of using drugs so I'm not really sure why I would need a lot of money in the first place. I can cut my expenses down to Judaism levels if I have to, fuck im just rambling now dont mind me....
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Oh wow. Sounds like we're pretty similar in alot of ways.
I used to work in a tool maintenance crib, mostly on the computer, organizing & keeping track of parts for mechanics.
I was making good fuckin' money too. At the age of 19.
Then I started talking to this one mechanic and lo' & behold, he had pills out the ass. Xanax, K-pins, Oxy.. anything I wanted.
So of course I took him up on the offer, went overboard with the downers, and fell asleep at the job.
Dumb ass decision on my part.. I was fired the next day.

Anyways, I had to stop using because of this DT I have with my PO in 2 days.
Idk if I'm going to be able to hold out for those 2 days.. lol..
 
yeah im not even gonna beat around the bush I just get the same routine every friday and this ones no different

yeah
 
its like im in the movie groundhog day I swear, just fulfilled my prophecy earlier and im startin to dipset about now. man I gotta shape the fuck up though I've been copping "my last bags" for about a year now. dissapointed its gotten to this point butt fuck it Im already under the influence might as well enjoy it rather than feel like I should be ashamed but maybe thats the problem, I re@ally fucking enjoy it.
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either way, shout to anyone whos posted in this thread at any point in time, you guys know mad people creep this joint on the downlow. I think I started postin in the 12th or 13th edition and it one of my favorites on bluelight.

stay safe yall, enjoy responsibly and dont forget the secret to anything in life is moderation. Im starting to realize I cant moderate my heroin use, and therefore I have to step away for while. And this is where most sensible people would replace "while" with "forever, but who the fuck am I kidding. man how did it ever reach this point, thanks a lot Afghanistan
 
Yeah, to all you creepers out there - Sign up and say hello. Lets get some activity in here. fuckin' dead social!!!
 
Hey, just tried subs for the 1st time 12 hours (Ihave been a very heavy everyday h user since 07) and don't think I can hang. How long to I have to wait before I can go ans do what my body needs me to do? Please help!
 
shimazu said:
its like im in the movie groundhog day I swear, just fulfilled my prophecy earlier and im startin to dipset about now. man I gotta shape the fuck up though I've been copping "my last bags" for about a year now. dissapointed its gotten to this point butt fuck it Im already under the influence might as well enjoy it rather than feel like I should be ashamed but maybe thats the problem, I re@ally fucking enjoy it.
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either way, shout to anyone whos posted in this thread at any point in time, you guys know mad people creep this joint on the downlow. I think I started postin in the 12th or 13th edition and it one of my favorites on bluelight.

stay safe yall, enjoy responsibly and dont forget the secret to anything in life is moderation. Im starting to realize I cant moderate my heroin use, and therefore I have to step away for while. And this is where most sensible people would replace "while" with "forever, but who the fuck am I kidding. man how did it ever reach this point, thanks a lot Afghanistan
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I was in the exact same position for the last year.. Kept going for the "last time".. and I REALLY fucking loved snorting heroin.. Had been going for about 4 years.. Recently got on methadone 2 weeks ago and this is by far the best decision I've made. It seriously eliminates the cravings.. I didn't think this was possible. Might wanna give it a shot if you really wanna stop and the mental part is the one thing that you can't seem the shake and causes you to relapse over and over.
 
KaosGloss said:
Hey, just tried subs for the 1st time 12 hours (Ihave been a very heavy everyday h user since 07) and don't think I can hang. How long to I have to wait before I can go ans do what my body needs me to do? Please help!
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What MG of suboxone did you take?
Usually, it takes anywheres from 36-48 hours.
 
KaosGloss said:
Hey, just tried subs for the 1st time 12 hours (Ihave been a very heavy everyday h user since 07) and don't think I can hang. How long to I have to wait before I can go ans do what my body needs me to do? Please help!
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All depends on how much you took, really. Metabolism plays a big role too as some people need to wait a lot longer for the bupe to leave their system than others.
 
although you wont get high, you can do dope and get well usually, but if you're using H heavily it may take a long time to start working, like 48 hours or so...you might wanna stick it out...

You won't go into precipitated withdrawals from using dope on top of Sub if that's what you're worried about...It doesn't work that way...
 
Anybody see the Philly Dope drug Inc., it's the best one yet! some of them are just reaching for a story, but this one shows the true dope scene better than anything I've ever watched....I really shows all aspects of it.
 
^yup saw it last night. wasnt too bad. but still, you made a post somewhere else about using superheros to fly bricks over and how carlos washes dishes at applebees when biz is slow lmao...some of those shows and the guys on them just seem fake as shit. i mean i know your average run of the mill ghetto black dude isnt on bl and erowid getting a ddrug education on facts, but the rampant mis info is pretty rampant...for example on the philly dope one, they were like common heroin cutting agents are powdered milk sugar, baby laxative, and fentanyl. just like that. i had to laugh at that one. fentanyl is NOT a common cut, no matter what the news or scareporters want to say.
 
Do you ever get the pharmaceutical diamorphine dry amps in the US? Only ever had them in hospital post op but my steroid dealer had "aquired" a load and was selling them tonight. I didnt bother as on 180mg of methadone so would be a waste but wasnt sure if they were ever seen stateside?
 
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