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The Big & Dandy Methoxetamine Thread-10th Dose-Addiction? But I'm only on it 24/7...

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I've never noticed any cardiac effects from either dissociatives or indole psychedelics. Lucky I guess.
 
Supposedly those who manage to gain more control over their bodily system (ie heartrate) tend to live much less long than normal people.
 
Perhaps those that endure a lifetime of shrinking and expanding of the the junk-hungry cells in the body IE: opiate addiction live slower. Burroughs said in his book that scientists were able to, withdrawing food at intervals, lengthen the life of an earth worm indefinitly.

He himself lived out the rest of his years on methadone and died in 98 I believe.

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I bet if he were running with our circles and still alive he'd LOVE the idea of all these rogue drugs spreading about DEA scratching its head barely stopping or putting a dent in anything, only buying enough time until our time has come and through this yogic knowledge we've attained stop fucking around and get to eliminating superfluous elements of society in an intellectual way. LEA is one on the list, politicians go next.
 
Still seems that myself and those around me have stronger/better MXE-supplemented experiences around the full moon. I would like to get to a point where I only do MXE one weekend a month. EWO sorry to hear about your troubles- try to stay calm and listen to your body.
 
Been doing MXE or mexico as "i invented" for over a year now.

Dosages varies from 10 - 50 mgs, always snort. At work, at home, at everywhere. Had two month break and random week breaks here and there. Probably done 40 g's since 2011.

Where to begin...?

It has given me more downs than ups, but the ups somehow fades over the downs and vice versa, its MEXICO. The ups give me, on a superficial level -> confidence, broader understanding or depth, ability to see more sides of myself and explore them, awareness around me. The downs are, i tend to forget things. I look at life or existence such as nothingness -> seizures -> has anyone else literally LOST themselves? I have done so now maybe 8 or 9 times, at first it was horrific and i went into seizures (at work even). But now a days whenever it happens, it feels like actual nothingness not even ego death - just nothingness? I am trying to explore it but there is nothing to explore? Its like nothingnesss with guilt? Feels manic?

Its become a part of me. I know i can give it up tomorrow if i have to but do i want too...?

I have too give up MXE at some point because i do not want it to end my internal organs.
 
Its a simple and dangerous one for me.

I dont know whether i hope anyone else experience what i do when on MXE. Its cloud nine with a catch somehow...
 
Am i the only soul out there that rides the waves of mxexico whilst at work every day?
 
A couple times I've taken it during the last hour of work, when I'm there by myself. It made my 30 minute walk home a lot more entertaining. But I wouldn't recommend that people take MXE at work if they have to interact with others or have some serious responsibilities at their job.

When you talk about having seizures do you mean like falling to the ground and having convulsions?
 
Is Kandulini the slang name for some drug now? I dont know what the f you guys are talking about. Isn't Kandulini like energy, or "life-force?" I took kandulini yoga for a while. It's my favorite type. How could it be "evil?" Huh...haha. p.s: you guys are crazy. I need to do some mxe for this thread to start making sense again...
 
I haven't taken MXE in over a month, probably a month and a half. I perceived it as a negative influence in my life, for a couple reasons.

But, I still think about this drug every day. The pull it has on me is unbelievable. The high fits my personality and psychology like a key in a lock. Methoxetamine is like the ultimate satisfaction of the singular, final purpose of my existence.

I might end up starting up again, and using it to some extent until my death, consequences be damned. Unless I can find another way to fill that void. After all, how worthy is a long and healthy life of relentless desire for an experience that I can never have? :\

I had some incredible times on MXE, but I may well have been better off living in ignorance of its luscious high.
 
Want to try this one as per an introduction to dissociatives, but the addiction the lot of you are facing leave me a bit worried. Really want to experience a disso-hole, so this seems like the one (not keen on needles, leaving ket out of the question), but I'm REALLY REALLY prone to addiction. I just can't control myself properly.

So I'm wondering, would ordering maybe 1 or 2 grams (so I can work my way up to the m-hole) be a problem? At what point did you guys feel that you needed to do it, as opposed to wanting to? (not the right way to put it, I know, but I think you get what I'm asking)
 
kidklmx said:
Want to try this one as per an introduction to dissociatives, but the addiction the lot of you are facing leave me a bit worried. Really want to experience a disso-hole, so this seems like the one (not keen on needles, leaving ket out of the question), but I'm REALLY REALLY prone to addiction. I just can't control myself properly.

So I'm wondering, would ordering maybe 1 or 2 grams (so I can work my way up to the m-hole) be a problem? At what point did you guys feel that you needed to do it, as opposed to wanting to? (not the right way to put it, I know, but I think you get what I'm asking)
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It's never a feeling of "Holy shit, I NEED to do a line right now or I'm gonna flip." Instead it's always "Why not do a line? I know I don't need to, but it makes things so much better" or so that's the initial reaction. Even now, as a heavy user and abuser, I know I won't need it, quitting cold turkey is not a problem whatsoever. It's simply the thought of "Why not" that drives most of us to continual usage.

My vendor recently lost his source for MXE, so I'll be without indefinitely. Even knowing this, I feel okay...I'm sure as hell gonna miss it for a while, but I know once he finds a new supplier I'll have once again. I'm simply choosing to look at this as a much needed break.
 
J.Wallace said:
It's never a feeling of "Holy shit, I NEED to do a line right now or I'm gonna flip." Instead it's always "Why not do a line? I know I don't need to, but it makes things so much better" or so that's the initial reaction. Even now, as a heavy user and abuser, I know I won't need it, quitting cold turkey is not a problem whatsoever. It's simply the thought of "Why not" that drives most of us to continual usage.

My vendor recently lost his source for MXE, so I'll be without indefinitely. Even knowing this, I feel okay...I'm sure as hell gonna miss it for a while, but I know once he finds a new supplier I'll have once again. I'm simply choosing to look at this as a much needed break.
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Yeah, that's exactly the problem I have with any other drug as well, and that's what worries me. I mean, if everything goes well with my first gram, why not order 5 or 6? Then, a year from now we will have a thread called "kidklmx is out of the game". Not really a situation I'd want to be in. Though knowing this from the start, it could greatly change my attitude towards my usage. I'll see if I can quit my pre-sleep weed use proper, which is my worst addiction at this point (nicotine being a close second), been doing that daily now for over 4 years. Can't sleep without anymore. If that goes without too much of a struggle then I'll try MXE at last.
 
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Yeah, that's exactly the problem I have with any other drug as well...
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if you treat it like a proper psychedelic you might be okay.
do it no more than twice a month, plan ahead and only take it at the time you have planned to.
for me i started taking it more and more after I did it a few times on a whim or before working on menial (or important) tasks. I started treating it like weed, basically, and eventually I was taking it 2 -4 times a week.
just don't treat it like weed. never allow it to be, in your mind, a fun way to spice up normal activities. keep it special and reserved for special occasions and you should be okay. and you'll enjoy the high a lot more too.
 
twelvesevndi said:
if you treat it like a proper psychedelic you might be okay.
do it no more than twice a month, plan ahead and only take it at the time you have planned to.
for me i started taking it more and more after I did it a few times on a whim or before working on menial (or important) tasks. I started treating it like weed, basically, and eventually I was taking it 2 -4 times a week.
just don't treat it like weed. never allow it to be, in your mind, a fun way to spice up normal activities. keep it special and reserved for special occasions and you should be okay. and you'll enjoy the high a lot more too.
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Though it's hard doing that. 25i-NBOMe has been the first time I had a large amount of material, and right up to 2 weeks ago I had severe issues restraining myself. My basic idea before I got it was that I would dose maybe once a month, maybe less. Didn't work out that way. Luckily I had a semi-bad experience (not a bad trip per se, but felt unease throughout) and I'm now on a normal usage schedule.

Great advice though, as I've grown a real distaste for the frequency of my weed use lately. Whatever happened to the novelty of doing it behind school, with some shady people you'd never even hang out with? I'd imagine myself going down a more shamanistic path, making my substance taking very ritual. Seems like it'd be the right thing for me personally, consistently taking <substance> one day of the week, keeping my usage in tone.
 
Though who knows. Perhaps the cardiac discomfort is a direct influence of MXE chemistry on the heart.
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Hmm,
Don't underestimate what the MXE may be doing to you, friend.

Even after quitting MXE, I Still get weird heart problems that feel the same as when I was on it.
Very scary... and they say nothing is wrong. everything is normal. I don't believe that.
They can't feel my pains. They understand not how to treat me.

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my heart must have heard me typing this... just got a few jabs to the 'ol beat box..
 
okay, so I really want to Hole. I have been very close a number of times but it seems like every time the physical sensations start to cause nausea. Whats the cleanest way to hole? I did 80mg oral before and didn't quite make it, and I've also done 50mg insufflated all at once and that got me pretty close. I want to experience the mindflight.
 
Maybe try taking a 50mg bomb and after 45minutes rail another 25mg ?
Worth a try ! ;)
 
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