I was getting comfortable with the idea of sobriety and brainstorming how to channel it, but I got ten bucks today. Naturally I came home with a fifth of bourbon (coulda gotten shitty gin/vodka even cheaper, but I want something that is palatable, and y'all know I am a whiskey man).
Interesting new avi soli, btw. And what's wrong with a plain old herb-only joint? I'll never understand you Europeans.
Nothing wrong with that of course, I did that last time I smoked up... I am quitting cigarettes so there is no tobacco around, the reason I used oregano (oregano was vaped dry) this time was I didn't have enough weed left to roll a proper reefer.
A friend of mine (or at least someone I used to know) also quit tobacco and started rolling his joints with some herb blend that is meant as a tobacco replacement. I can't say I liked that stuff. Although if there is damiana in it, that can enhance the weed high and make it feeling 'warmer'.
By the way...
I never really thought aluminum foil or tin foil could be bad for health to smoke off (I mean: even if the metal oxidizes it still would not fly into your lungs, right?) but apparently many people consider it a no-no. There's association with Alzheimer's and other diseases, they say. I remain skeptical that vaping temperatures could do anything to the metal or create any volatility. Can someone shine a light on this?
What I do think needs to be considered when smoking/vaping using foil or choreboy / steelwool is leftover machine-oil like residue. With choreboy or steelwool it's much worse than with foil though... When you do a dry run burning and heating the shit out of the metal you intend to use it can produce pretty nasty fumes. After getting rid of that, it all seems to heat up clean as far as the eye can tell us (of course bad to rely on).
Also, it's probably not necessary that any damage done by using such metals is actually felt as pain or similar sensations. So who knows, it might be a secret killer.
I chased opium last night, and couldn't really think of another way than using a bowl-shaped foil and a paper cone to help suck in the vapors. I'm open to switching to a regular little pipe for things like that and synthetic cannabinoids... but it would help to be convinced that foil is bad for you and the reasons why.
Picked up some books from my dad's that I had left there, including the very awesome booklet Pocket Primer of Parliamentary Procedure, if BL ever decides to take up a parliamentarian decision making process, y'all know where to turn. Also The Pharmacological Basis of Therapeutics (go outdated 70s pharm, it's quite digestible for your average PDer). Some Aristotle and Plato's complete works and Crime & Punishment on indefinite loan from someone I once knew. The full bible (which I forgot I had, I'm almost done with my new testament only thing, after I reread mark there's only Revelations remaining. I'm eager to dig into some Old Testament goodness), a textbook on the history of California from the '50s, and Dune. Nice things to have on hand.
Sounds like some healthy interest/curiosity, nice and diligent - good for you! I kind of burned out a little this week, and as before I made it worse by drug use. Anyway I still did a few things, like go to an open job interview (which went fine) and make that sai standard. And also a finishing element to frame my amplifier solid into my console table.
I tried to wane off of the benzo's too fast, making the same mistake I made before assuming that withdrawal symptoms would clearly show when I would be waning/tapering too fast. But there is also a chronic lagging effect, I became strongly demotivated and lost my appetite. And not eating enough makes you really tired and fatigued. On thursday I was fed up and dropped enough benzo's to sleep throughout the day. So now stuff is out of balance and I really don't feel like fixing all of this.
Oh well, there is still the rest of the weekend to waste. And at least get enough energy to work again monday morning.
I'm going to visit the GP monday, because I'm done waiting in queue for addiction help. Specifically: I want a proper plan to get off benzo's but I don't think I can manage without medication whatsoever especially if there is chronic w/d symptoms. So I want to know what might be a good substitution and discuss it with a doctor. Pregabalin or gabapentin might be the most interesting candidates - aniracetam is also very helpful but I doubt it can neutralize heavy symptoms. Honestly I don't feel like being hooked on whatever medication is the biggest pity... just benzo's make it hard to give it a 100% with things.
It's hard to get inspired to do more creative work and it's typically the same sorts of things standing in the way. Recurrent worries causing a mental block and alternating between lack of attention and hyperfocus (the latter can include continuous semi-involuntary free association). Both those opposites feel hard to channel.