⫸STICKY⫷ Why you shouldn't abuse Ketamine (nsfw photos)

[jhjhsdi]

(TL-DR: look at the pics of what i pissed out and dont abuse ket)

I thought I had lost these photos but I'm glad I found them. I've been wanting/meaning to make this thread for ages.
1. To remind me never to go back
2. To remind me how far I've come and
3. To share/warn/educate others who may go or be going down the same path.
These were taken between March and July 2016, apart from the very last one which was actually taken in October 2018!
Note: there was actually WAY WORSE stuff that came out of me, before and during I was in rehab (June-July 2016) but I actually rarely took photos. I wish I'd taken more. Most of the time I was too preoccupied with the ridiculous pain I was in.

I had been doing K for over 10 years quite a few of those years daily 1-2g, then I started to sell it, and grew a massive tolerance. Having unlimited amounts for cheap, it wasnt long before i was using 5g a day, then 10g, for years, having the occasional few day break when my supply ran dry and I was waiting to reload, then for the last 6-8 months before rehab I was literally using between 15-20g a day (all snorted, this was before I ever injected) sometimes cooked, but mainly raw crystal. Some days literally putting down a whole 'half L' - 25g.
My medical records actually show my first complaint to GP about K pains and urination problems were in 2012.

So basically in June 2016 I ended up being taken to hospital, I was bent over double with K cramps, I was urinating about every 20 minutes, or going to the toilet feeling like I was going to burst, then standing there for half an hour until something dribbled out, with bright green snot/puss/gunk and blood, and black blood clots coming out, sniffing it non-stop, for the pain, as taking xanax,oxy,all kinds of other painkillers wouldnt touch the pain, only K would give me relief, then it would come back worse, I was in a real bad catch 22 situation/cycle.

They kept me in for 3 days, did ultrasounds and MRI, gave me IV morphine for the pain, even then I was still sniffing shit loads of K (snuck about 30g in with me) and taking loads of painkillers every time they shut the curtain. I was honest about my usage and the specialist/urologist told me I had 2 weeks to a month of using like that before it would be bladder out and piss bag for life.
Day 3 I was being wheeled out in a wheelchair looking half dead (I had dropped to 9st, im 14 now) and who sees me? My younger sister who works there. FUCK. So, I had to come clean. She said I needed to tell my rents, or she would, so I did, and they shipped me off to inpatient rehab for what should have been a 3 month stay (i was there for 1 month keep reading to find out why).

So yeah thats the story, sorry if it seems long, this is the first time I've posted on BL on a laptop in yearsss.
Anyway pictures say 1000 words, so here we go

this is what started apearing in my urine, I used to have to go in bottles
sometimes as I couldnt make it to the toilet



this stuff felt more like sperm coming down my urinary tract rather than piss, really thick, and at times i had to 'milk' it out, it felt like hot razorblades



when I emptied most of the urine out of the bottle, this sort of thing stayed. I wanted to take it to a doctor but never did


im pretty sure some of this is actually parts of my bladder lining


one of the worst pics i got. I cant belive this shit actually came out of my cock, and I was still using HEAVILY, thats addiction for you

 

[jhjhsdi]

ok so fast forward into about 2nd week of no K, these are from rehab, i used to steal the cups from the water vender to piss in because I would wake up to piss every 20 mins or so. it was horrible because I had broken sleep for almost a year. I counted my lucky stars i didnt piss the bed though. Had some days where I legit pissed over 50 times (they told me to keep a diary)

so these 5 are about 15-20 minutes apart each, at around midnight. notice the difference in color as I got less hydrated. (i tried not to drink at night so i could sleep, but it never really worked)







a sample i took to the doc in rehab, setlled overnight





self expl





so yeah, 1 month in rehab, discharged early for sneaking out and getting beer, which funnily enough, after i downed 4 cans I had the best, longest, best flowing, least painful piss in about 6 months...they should have been feeding me 24 cans a day to clear the infection out quicker lol.

In rehab they gave me 24 day course of co-amoxiclav, i remember the last day when i knew the infection cleared I pissed out all this DARK BROWN sludge, it was so disgusting, i wish we'd been allowed our phones cuz I'd have loved to have grossed you all out some more with that.

Or the photo of the urine sample pot I gave the doc in the hospital which was literally 2/3rd full of solid black/red lumps and the rest blood. Seriously, I thought I was at the point of no return back then. Probably why i kept abusing it.

They also gave me 60mg codiene 4 x a day, 5mg diaz 4 x a day, 1000mg paracetamol 4 x a day, naproxen 2 x a day, promethazine at night and oxybutynin 4 x a day (bladder medication)



I basically had KBS, ket induced intersitial cystitis (worst pain, felt like I was getting a tattoo on the inside, from the gooch to the japs eye, constanly), infected ulcers on the bladder lining (that where the snot was coming from), uti, bladder fibrosis (nearly irreversible) that had shrunk my bladder to hold roughly 50ml.

4 and a half years later yes I still use ket. But im alot more sensible. I use about twice a month and I 90% inject.

I now urinate about 3 times a day, roughly 500ml, depending on what I've been drinking (this is on non-alcohol days, when im getting pissed on cider its way more, but my pisses are also way bigger, sometimes id say even 2 pints+) so the fibrosis is wearing away, slowly.

Back then, i really didnt look after myself. I was always up for 3 days at a time, didnt eat properly at all, didnt drink fuck all because stupidly I thought drinking will make me piss more which will hurt. WRONG. Now I know loads of ways to still abuse K but keep your bladder healthy. The basics are, hydration(!!!!!), rest, food, vitamins/supplements, days off. Also i have heard green tea really helps. I have posted a longer writeup of staying healthy on K in a sticky thread in PD about organ damage from K.



and this last photo is from 2 years later, after a heavyyy binge, I noticed cloudy urine (no pains, no blood etc) (25g over a few days, this is 3 pisses in a pint glass, settled overnight)



gross, wtf

it was like little strands. from my knowledge its protein strands from the bladder. But also I recently learned a LOT of k metabolites are excreted in urine. could be that. Went away after a day or 2 of abstinence.



So yeah.

Dont do what I did! Feel free to post any questions, etc

 

[ageingpartyfiend]

Thanks for posting that , really. Can most definitely see your post having some very helpful hr impact and it it helps just one person that's awesome eh

Wondering what the process of writing that out, collating the pics, and then reading it all back has had on your good self? Any chance it could impact upon the present excesses?

 

[Joey]

I have heard that ketamine can be really bad for your bladder, kidneys, and urinary tract etc but have never seen anything like this. This is a noteworthy thread and should be top of the list. Wow is that ever an eye opener. Thank you for sharing this.

 

[jhjhsdi]

Thanks for posting that , really. Can most definitely see your post having some very helpful hr impact and it it helps just one person that's awesome eh

That's what I'm hoping. I'm linking the post into a few other threads so more ppl see it. I'll probably PM it to a few big k heads on here I know too, when I can remember them all, lol.

Wondering what the process of writing that out, collating the pics, and then reading it all back has had on your good self? Any chance it could impact upon the present excesses?

Yeah like I said when I found the pics the other night it really made me remember, how bad I was, and how far I have come, and how much I NEVER EVER FUCKING EVER want to go back.

I nearly died from benzo wds yeah, coming off a 20mg xanax/400mg diazepam equivalent of a day habit, it took months of tapering down, suffering, then months of paws, and I'd say honestly, this was worse than going through that. Different, but worse.
And that's saying something.
I would literally rather go through the whole benzo wds ordeal than do this again! I bet anyone whos ever been through benzo wds will be shocked to hear that lol

This is a noteworthy thread and should be top of the list. Wow is that ever an eye opener.

This is exactly the response i was hoping for.
Its down to TDS mods if they want to sticky it, or move it to PD and sticky it there maybe, I'm not fussed I just want as many people as possible to see it.

 

[Joey]

This is exactly the response i was hoping for.
Its down to TDS mods if they want to sticky it, or move it to PD and sticky it there maybe, I'm not fussed I just want as many people as possible to see it.

I’m in favour of it being front page honestly. An expose of sorts. Then sticky in BDD probably. Most traffic possible. This is crazy. That’s so rough man I hope you recover.

 

[jhjhsdi]

I’m in favour of it being front page honestly. An expose of sorts. Then sticky in BDD probably. Most traffic possible. This is crazy. That’s so rough man I hope you recover.

You TL-DR'd didnt you haha. These are from like 4 and a half years ago bro, its just that I just found them on my laptop looking through old backup folders.
I did a month in rehab, curbed my usage, changed my lifestyle and my bladder has recovered a hell of a lot.
It'll never be the same again ive been left with massive fibrosis/scarring of the bladder lining and it doesnt stretch very well, and i cant hold it in for long, but its a thousand times better than it was back then!
But thanks

Edit: I think I might add it to my sig tbh

 

[Hylight]

I was wondering why you were in rehab. Lol.

 

[LucidSDreamr]

Mods please link this to ketamine damage sticky in psych forum

 

[MsDiz]

That is your bladder lining btw in those first few pics. I’m so shocked you’re able to still piss without needing a catheter right now. You got very lucky.

 

[jhjhsdi]

Mods please link this to ketamine damage sticky in psych forum

I linked it in the latest page there. Maybe you could edit it into the first post on page 1 too.

That is your bladder lining btw in those first few pics. I’m so shocked you’re able to still piss without needing a catheter right now. You got very lucky.

I thought the redder, thinner, skin-looking stuff in Pic 4 that's floating in the bottle must have been yeah. Loads more came out too that I didn't get pics of!
Pic 1,2,3+5 the professionals told me it was bloody puss from the infected ulcers, although i never knew ulcers 'pussed' like spots.
It was thick. Like snot. I remember one time (at band camp) when it first started happening i did a piss outside on some concrete slabs in my mates garden and a slug size lump came out and i got a stick and picked/scoopee it up and it was hanging off the end of the stick like a big bogey. My friend was nearly sick. Lol.

Of course i was curious and had to touch it and it was just like snot consistency, you know like when you sniff loads of crystal and then blow your nose ans thick green bloody snot comes out - exactly like that. But you think that snot stuff is actually bladder lining and not puss from infection?

Who else can say they've picked up their piss with a stick i dont want to take any seriousness away from the issue, but it was 4.5 years ago and im glad i can laugh at it now.

Yes I was mega lucky not to end up with a catheter, like i said, the urologists n that said if I'd carried on like I was I'd have had 2 weeks, a month TOPS before it was bladder removal time. On the ultrasound/mri it was like a solid golfball. 50ml capacity. Madness.

But also, amazing how the human body can heal once you start treating it right.

 

[Hylight]

Very Lucky. Yes.
Superior Harm Reduction.
Thank You.

 

[MsDiz]

I linked it in the latest page there. Maybe you could edit it into the first post on page 1 too.

I thought the redder, thinner, skin-looking stuff in Pic 4 that's floating in the bottle must have been yeah. Loads more came out too that I didn't get pics of!
Pic 1,2,3+5 the professionals told me it was bloody puss from the infected ulcers, although i never knew ulcers 'pussed' like spots.
It was thick. Like snot. I remember one time (at band camp) when it first started happening i did a piss outside on some concrete slabs in my mates garden and a slug size lump came out and i got a stick and picked/scoopee it up and it was hanging off the end of the stick like a big bogey. My friend was nearly sick. Lol.

Of course i was curious and had to touch it and it was just like snot consistency, you know like when you sniff loads of crystal and then blow your nose ans thick green bloody snot comes out - exactly like that. But you think that snot stuff is actually bladder lining and not puss from infection?

Who else can say they've picked up their piss with a stick i dont want to take any seriousness away from the issue, but it was 4.5 years ago and im glad i can laugh at it now.

Yes I was mega lucky not to end up with a catheter, like i said, the urologists n that said if I'd carried on like I was I'd have had 2 weeks, a month TOPS before it was bladder removal time. On the ultrasound/mri it was like a solid golfball. 50ml capacity. Madness.

But also, amazing how the human body can heal once you start treating it right.

Dude you’re still taking ket, it’ll still be damaging your bladder. Don’t think you’re in the clear.

 

[jhjhsdi]

Dude you’re still taking ket, it’ll still be damaging your bladder. Don’t think you’re in the clear.

Yes mommy, sorry mommy.

I wouldn't say I'm in the clear no, I never will be, the fibrosis damage is irreversible, but, consider;
-The size (ml) of my urination
-The frequently of my urination
-The length of time I can hold it from when I first feel the urge
-The strength of the flow I can push out flexing my bladder muscle
They're literally all improving near DAILY
I NEVER have cloudy piss anymore - let alone anything like the stuff above.
I use 5-10g a month, twice a month, with long breaks, my lifestyle is completely different now. I'm not homeless. I'm not selling. I don't binge. I sleep most nights. I eat more than 1 tesco meal deal every 3 days.
Plus now I inject instead of sniff which is marginally healthier as no K ends up in your stomach. (RIP my veins tho )
When I do use, for every g I do I make sure I drink a pint of water(or cider - the acidity actually really helps wash k out if your bladder, apple juice does the same, k is mega alkaline right)
I take alot of vitamins n supplements daily including cranberry extract. I eat healthy. Fruit, superfood n seed mix smoothie every morning. I rest alot. I could go on...

How do you think ive managed to use it all this 4.5 years since those photos and never once get snot/blood/pains, frequency, etc etc - its about HOW YOU LOOK AFTER YOURSELF.
And how much you use obviously.

But yes. I know its pretty stupid to still do it. Thats psychological addiction for you i guess.
Nowadays, i USE ketamine.
I dont ABUSE it. (very often)

 

[Joey]

You TL-DR'd didnt you haha. These are from like 4 and a half years ago bro, its just that I just found them on my laptop looking through old backup folders.
I did a month in rehab, curbed my usage, changed my lifestyle and my bladder has recovered a hell of a lot.
It'll never be the same again ive been left with massive fibrosis/scarring of the bladder lining and it doesnt stretch very well, and i cant hold it in for long, but its a thousand times better than it was back then!
But thanks

Edit: I think I might add it to my sig tbh

Oh thank god. Yes I tldr, sort of, I was shocked!

 

[Xorkoth]

Wow that's horrifying. Thanks for posting this.

Mods please link this to ketamine damage sticky in psych forum

Roger that

 

[Drag2019]

Yes mommy, sorry mommy.

I wouldn't say I'm in the clear no, I never will be, the fibrosis damage is irreversible, but, consider;
-The size (ml) of my urination
-The frequently of my urination
-The length of time I can hold it from when I first feel the urge
-The strength of the flow I can push out flexing my bladder muscle
They're literally all improving near DAILY
I NEVER have cloudy piss anymore - let alone anything like the stuff above.
I use 5-10g a month, twice a month, with long breaks, my lifestyle is completely different now. I'm not homeless. I'm not selling. I don't binge. I sleep most nights. I eat more than 1 tesco meal deal every 3 days.
Plus now I inject instead of sniff which is marginally healthier as no K ends up in your stomach. (RIP my veins tho )
When I do use, for every g I do I make sure I drink a pint of water(or cider - the acidity actually really helps wash k out if your bladder, apple juice does the same, k is mega alkaline right)
I take alot of vitamins n supplements daily including cranberry extract. I eat healthy. Fruit, superfood n seed mix smoothie every morning. I rest alot. I could go on...

How do you think ive managed to use it all this 4.5 years since those photos and never once get snot/blood/pains, frequency, etc etc - its about HOW YOU LOOK AFTER YOURSELF.
And how much you use obviously.

But yes. I know its pretty stupid to still do it. Thats psychological addiction for you i guess.
Nowadays, i USE ketamine.
I dont ABUSE it. (very often)

Rationalization is a huge reason y people continue with an addiction...

 

[RedRum OG]

Congrats on cleaning up, man. Must've been hell, coming to terms with your wrecked body while kicking.

I'm another vote for "you probably shouldnt do K ever" but I'm glad to see when you do use it you're being smart. I doubt you are causing much more physical damage, but for me, the risk of falling back into heavy use would be too high.

Good luck.

 

[TheInvisibleStoner]

Wow dude.

I don't think most people survive this stuff. And probably why we hear so little of it.

Just seems IVing anything will end up bad if you do it long enough.

I would of would of stroked out if I saw that coming out of my dick. Don't even want to know how you were able to get some of that stuff out.

When I was IV'ing I once saw some little fibers floating around when I did a drug test. That literally scared the shit out of me.

Glad you are alive!

 

[JackARoe]

In 60's California surfer speak.....Gnarly!