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hyroller

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life is one thing that I do know gets better. you'd have to have a real ordinary outlook for it to become any worse. all but the very worst can be overcome. it's too plentiful to take for granted, a slice of life can really be just what the doctor ordered. suicide is a finale. and it come in seasons. don't lose sight of little things like a morning walk or an afternoon catch-up with a friend. making lunch the night beforehand. reading before bed. these are the things that are essential to survive.
 

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Ok cap, I was simply quoting your words and reinforcing them back to you. No need to assume what I'm well versed in or what I'm not.
 

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I knew that our love was just a car crash away....
many apologies. I would have left the first post up but I think enough people saw it.

I didn't mean to come off the way I did mal. I can't respond to people well when I'm not feeling well and that was short sighted of me, and I was wrong, I am sorry.

having such an distasteful personality and chronic mental disease is probably why I should 'get help' in the first place but am just not going to.
 

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many apologies. I would have left the first post up but I think enough people saw it.

I didn't mean to come off the way I did mal. I can't respond to people well when I'm not feeling well and that was short sighted of me, and I was wrong, I am sorry.

having such an distasteful personality and chronic mental disease is probably why I should 'get help' in the first place but am just not going to.
No need to apologize man, I've been in a terrible mood all week myself. More so than usual.
 

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I knew that our love was just a car crash away....
No need to apologize man, I've been in a terrible mood all week myself. More so than usual.
No I really did need to. It wasn't right of me to act out like that. I wasn't even having a bad day I just wanted to get some understanding and I shouldn't lash out at people who actually care. Ugh. I'm such a terrible person. I never mean to act out like that.

You're such a sweetie for caring about me <3

If you want to talk about your week w/ me you know how to reach me ;) <3
 

UnFaDaBlE

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Today has been one of the worst days since my wife died in October of 2017. Just feel hopeless, lonely and straight up depressed lately. I would end it if i knew i got to be with my girl again. I feel like such a piece of shit lately and my kids are probably better off without me especially right now cuz i can't stop slamming heroin in my arm. I just want it to end already. I cant seem to bring myself together today so depressed.
 

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Today has been one of the worst days since my wife died in October of 2017. Just feel hopeless, lonely and straight up depressed lately. I would end it if i knew i got to be with my girl again. I feel like such a piece of shit lately and my kids are probably better off without me especially right now cuz i can't stop slamming heroin in my arm. I just want it to end already. I cant seem to bring myself together today so depressed.
I'm so sorry man. I can't say I know what you're going through, but I know it must be terrible. Reach out to your kids. No matter what has happened, they love you. I'm not the biggest fan of my dad, either... a lot of people aren't. That doesn't mean I don't love him. That doesn't mean I wouldn't be there for him if he really needed me.

Use them as inspiration to be better. Be better for yourself too.
 

UnFaDaBlE

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For sure I have to get better because it's life or death for me at this point. Just leaning toward wanting to die more today. I feel stuck i don't know what to do.
 

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I knew that our love was just a car crash away....
Today has been one of the worst days since my wife died in October of 2017. Just feel hopeless, lonely and straight up depressed lately. I would end it if i knew i got to be with my girl again. I feel like such a piece of shit lately and my kids are probably better off without me especially right now cuz i can't stop slamming heroin in my arm. I just want it to end already. I cant seem to bring myself together today so depressed.
I lost my ex and best friend of five years, I know how bad the loneliness can hurt. Your kids definitely will be better off WITH you, please think it out man. They must love you. <3

I wish I had any answers for you, I don't. I still get incredibly lonely and sad and depressed from it too. Stay strong ok? We're here if you want to talk about it.
 

Captain.Heroin

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I knew that our love was just a car crash away....
yeah they did, the bar kicked in, I slept, I felt quite better when I woke up despite how terrible the real life news is still.

It IS a really bad day and it hit really close to home and I am having a hard time processing this but I think I'll live to see tomorrow too.
 

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Hey guys, I was wondering. Been suicidal ever since I crashed from mania I had back in 2013 If I gave myself HIV and died from a lack of treatment, would most people consider that suicide?
 

mal3volent

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If you intentionally do something to yourself with that intent, then yeah I think most people would. If you've endured what happened to you for this long, you must have a will to live somewhere inside of you. What has changed that has caused this specific idea to emerge?
 
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