hahahaha yeah i know, it goes against our cultural sensibilities, but makes life so much easier!!! just get it out the way both of you will probably be agonising. i hope it goes ok anyway.
i used to joke about doing dark and light too, got a massive kick out of people thinking the absurdity was hilarious. its nice to know that its not obivious. to be fair i probably still tried that joke when i was worse than i thought, i'd go to parties and shit and then find out people had been asking about what was wrong with me cos i was so out of it, or get to the pub and only be able to sit in the corner nodding out or grinning like a mad woman.
fuck me your neighbour sounds like a cunt. to be fair when you are using you are up all night and that is very disruptive to people around, even if you don't think you were making noise when you were out of it, you probably were. but they do exaggerate too. like my neighbours in norwich were getting very upset about the noise i was making coming and going in the night, which is fair enough. they did call the council making antisocial behaviour complaints. but when my parents came to cart me off to rehab they said i had had an all night party the night before. i had not!!! i had had one person there cooking up speedballs with way too much dark in so was unconscious most of the night. i guess they have to exaggerate to get sympathy and stuff but its fucking annoying.
i'm exhausted after all this job stuff. no work today, watching the boys on prime but on the last episode now.
wow, here I was thinking the jokes-that-weren't-really-jokes thing was just me! Good to know I'm not the only insane one. Hahah.
He is a cunt. To be fair to him I was noisy in the past, but this complaint was made recently and I haven't had company in my flat for like a month and a half. Fuck him.
Good job for getting through the interview, chinup. I'll be keeping my fingers crossed for you!!
I've just had a little reminder of the importance of reigning in my hyper sensitivity. I text the girl I'm meant to be going out with next week and she didn't answer for an hour, and immediately I was like "oh fuck, she's not into me, I'm unlikable, NOBODY WILL EVER DATE ME, I SHOULD TAKE HEROIN" and it's just fucking insane. However, I didn't seriously go with it, it's just my brain's go-to for situations like that. I have spent the last hour acclimating to the idea that she may very well not want to be with me, but that I'll still be OK. If that happens, it just means me & her aren't compatible. Trying to draw any broader conclusions than that isn't just a bad idea but is just straight-up irrational as well.