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    to Bluelighters
    who have passed away

In Memoriam Captain.Heroin

I have confirmed this with family. CaptainHeroin, who has been a senior moderator here for so long, has recently passed away from a tragic OD. He has helped me for very many years with harm reduction, along with countless others. He helped me laugh when no one else could. It is with great sadness I announce this to the BL community. I am weeping.
 
This is so tragic because it all could’ve been avoided.

Andrew and I spoke several times by phone and he always saw his death at an early age as an inevitable fate he couldn’t fight. His rationalized his heavy benzo use as he wasn’t going to be around soon anyway.

I believe he is now at peace, in the arms of his loving partner he tragically lost 5 years ago.

RIP Andrew
 
This is so tragic because it all could’ve been avoided.

Andrew and I spoke several times by phone and he always saw his death at an early age as an inevitable fate he couldn’t fight. His rationalized his heavy benzo use as he wasn’t going to be around soon anyway.

I believe he is now at peace, in the arms of his loving partner he tragically lost 5 years ago.

RIP Andrew
WOW Thank you for helping with some closure.

Thank You R.I.P.

You will always be Captain too somehow. Andrew.
 
I'm going to miss you beyond words. Thank you for everything that you gave of yourself. You were a brighter light than you gave yourself credit.

Rest in peace. I love you.
 
This is so tragic because it all could’ve been avoided.

Andrew and I spoke several times by phone and he always saw his death at an early age as an inevitable fate he couldn’t fight. His rationalized his heavy benzo use as he wasn’t going to be around soon anyway.

I believe he is now at peace, in the arms of his loving partner he tragically lost 5 years ago.

RIP Andrew

I never knew CH that well, but ever since I joined he has always been part of the furniture in the Bluelight pad.

However, I can't help but feel this outcome had an air of inevitability about it and did well to last as long as he did.

I just hope that he's now finally found some peace...
 
I hope you've found peace now cap. I had always hoped you would find a way through the suffering you were going through. :(

I tried to reach out to you. And yet I still feel like I should have done and said more. And I still can't quite believe that this is really it. Hard as it is now, I'm really glad to have known you.

Rest in peace man. <3 :(
 
I know Cap loved this song, this one's for him:

Some, you know, you need to find some help for you
If you say that we're ill
Give us your pills, hope we'll just go away
But once you've inhaled death
Everything else is perfume
Maybe I'm just a mystery
I can end up your misery
Maybe I'm just a mystery
I can end up your misery
In the end, we all end up in a garbage dump
But I'll be the one that's holding your hand
We are sick, fucked up and complicated
We are chaos, we can't be cured
We are sick, fucked up and complicated
We are chaos, we can't be cured
Maybe I'm just a mystery
I can be your misery
Maybe I'm just a mystery
Marry with the left hand
So far, so far from the mad'nin' crowd
We are sick, fucked up and complicated
We are chaos, we can't be cured
We are sick, fucked up and complicated
We are chaos, we can't be cured
Am I a man or a show, a moment?
The man in the moon or a man
Of all seasons?
Will I be in at the kill
With you?
We are sick, fucked up and complicated
We are chaos, we can't be cured
We are sick, fucked up and complicated
We are chaos, we can't be cured
We are sick, fucked up and complicated
We are chaos, we can't be cured
We are sick, fucked up and complicated
We are chaos, we can't be cured
We are sick


You will be missed.
 
I know Cap loved this song, this one's for him:

Some, you know, you need to find some help for you
If you say that we're ill
Give us your pills, hope we'll just go away
But once you've inhaled death
Everything else is perfume
Maybe I'm just a mystery
I can end up your misery
Maybe I'm just a mystery
I can end up your misery
In the end, we all end up in a garbage dump
But I'll be the one that's holding your hand
We are sick, fucked up and complicated
We are chaos, we can't be cured
We are sick, fucked up and complicated
We are chaos, we can't be cured
Maybe I'm just a mystery
I can be your misery
Maybe I'm just a mystery
Marry with the left hand
So far, so far from the mad'nin' crowd
We are sick, fucked up and complicated
We are chaos, we can't be cured
We are sick, fucked up and complicated
We are chaos, we can't be cured
Am I a man or a show, a moment?
The man in the moon or a man
Of all seasons?
Will I be in at the kill
With you?
We are sick, fucked up and complicated
We are chaos, we can't be cured
We are sick, fucked up and complicated
We are chaos, we can't be cured
We are sick, fucked up and complicated
We are chaos, we can't be cured
We are sick, fucked up and complicated
We are chaos, we can't be cured
We are sick


You will be missed.
OMG YES 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
 
He was the only BLer I've called on the phone.
Me, too. Talked from dusk til dawn - my time. lol
Also, thanks to him, I picked up a bit of "dabbing" which was new to me a coupla years ago... some good stuff, I tell ya what. Not quite as balanced as smoking bud (what I am used to), but damn if it aint convenient to rip a few of the "dab" in bed before sleep. No grinding, prepping the bowl/readying the paper/blunt/whateva, no after-mess and relatively low cost per "dose". This is one "hack" I will not easily give up. Thanks, P. ;)

Another facet of ourselves whether we see it or not. Wondering how many this one sparked-off of either directly or indirectly. We may never know what fruit our little seeds produce. Genomes are intermingled and hybrid and more nutritious species are created (or recreated). There are no weeds; only those we consider an eyesore and do not care to behold in our gardens.
It's OK.
We grow... or we snatch ourselves out by the root.

Irie

Fiddin to burn some my last bit of dab mixed with all the kief available. Not sure if he liked blunts (it may be my least preferred roa of weed) but we gonna sit back and reminisce for a while.

Love you all
 
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