Took some lope an hour ago, maybe kicking in slightly. I just took a couple of rips of delta-8 THC, got actually quite high which surprises me. Found some kava and had a cup of that earlier but honestly even when I sourced really high quality kava and made it the correct way, the effects were mild. Pleasurable, but very mild, and when I try to push it higher my stomach just feels odd and I get a paradoxical anxiety reaction.
Dumped out the rest of my clonazolam... I ran out of etizolam, which I normally use for sleep, but I had some clonazolam they sent me one time by accident when I ordered etizolam. I had a 30mL 1mg/mL solution I made out of the gram, I haven't gone through it yet, because I never used it when I had etizolam, except like once and I thought it sucked in comparison. I have a workable pattern to avoid dependence with etizolam, and when I'm not on other drugs I don't use it often anyway (opiates paradoxically make it hard for me to sleep, and opiate withdrawal makes it 100% impossible to sleep). Etizolam has a short duration so it's manageable because if you take it a few nights in a row and take a couple of days off, the total time it's been in your system is like 25-30% of the time, it's pretty sustainable. Clonazolam is always in your system basically because it lasts so long. I have been using it for over a week, with normal day breaks regularly (I often do 2 days on/ 1 day off with etiz when I'm actively withdrawing. I just was reading some posts about people getting withdrawals after only 3-5 days of use, and it fucking up benzo tolerance long-term. Fuck that, I just dumped the rest. Will just have to go without. It's pretty close to over now anyway. I wanted to order etizolam, but I ordered bromazolam today, seems like more or less the same duration, and similar except more euphoric and less good for anxiety. From what I've read. I like to have a benzo on hand, I always bring a solution to festivals and a few times have saved someone from having a bad trip. Also I like it for when I want to come down and sleep when I do long-lasting drugs (usually necessary with LSD too, as LSD keeps me up way after the effects are done).
But yeah that would be fucked if I started withdrawing from clonazolam. I think it'll be fine but man that would suck, I've always avoided benzo dependence all these years. Once I got it, I probably would have to just never have a benzo again, and they're such handy tools if you don't have a problem with them.
I really like it as a drug, besides its anti-withdrawal attributes.
