10ng ambien insufflated, 10mg ambien crunched, tried to sublingual but mostly ate.
44mg DCK - didn't want to do any of this for a few weeks, but, honestly, my low insufflated GABAergic dose seemed to be having a paradoxical effect. Making me MORE unsettled, not less.
It's also possible, of course, that the half cigarette I smoked, the 60mg Tianeptine, 80mg NSI-189, 300mg Phenylpiracetam, 70mg Fasoracetam I dosed earlier on today also had some interactions.
My laptop screen looks like a marble surface. Definitely some psychedelic weird atuff happening. Ahaha, just as I was typing the word "weird" I was taking back to one of my earlier ketmaine trips where this word featured in them frequently, courtesy of a poster on my partner's wall. The letters kinda hung there, took on 3 dimensional proportions, while the screen and forum lazed back in the effervescent light that shrouded it's marble contours. Like a momentary connection - an impossible one - across time, across space, and across mind, a fragment of a psychedelic adventure long gone making a low key appearence in a quite different one much later. Another place, time, reality... I wonder if I had written a different word... would that connection still have happened, and if it did, would I have changed my past...?
EDIT: OK, it's 3 in the fucking morning and I've already taken 150mg Armodafinil, so I guess this is the way we're going! Also took 2 heaping tablespoons of piracetam to reassociate myself, followed by some phenibut and 300mg pregabalin to settle myself the fuck down.
Before that I took another 36mg DCK fairly quickly, and had some pretty cool "holing in the dark with ambient music on earphones" experiences... like... it is raining and windy here right now... so was just wandering around my flat in the dark to test the effects of dissociatives on my night vision (
@dopamimetic ) and ended up getting to this weird place where I was honestly pretty lost and my surroundings started to merge with the illusion. Like, I'd find myself pushing against glass that hadn't been there before, watching snow fall outside... and on a train passing through drab, grey villages... eventually as always the train stopped and it was like a side door opened and I was just gonna have to get out of this carriage into like a wet forest or something in the pitch darkness, and I did have a moment where I was like wait... what the FUCK!? The trip stops here for real!? But then obviously eventually I grasped at a light switch and came to like hugging my fridge, I think the trees were some boxes or something... but, damn, haha, that was fun, feels a bit meaningless now and definitely not unfamiliar territory, but that was fun.
Fuck, though, fucking, zolpidem, the entire reason I'm gonna be fucking loopy all day is that I decided to take zolpidem to have a more fun evening. Mission accomplished though actually.
Hope everyone is happy and well.